I don't feel like writing
But this thought I'll leave with you
Always try to let the words out
Even when your blue

My heart on my sleeve
It pumps and it bleeds

More than you'd think
Too often it seems

Too trusting ,too naive
I just want to believe

That there's somebody out there
Waiting just for me

Who knows,eventually
We'll meet

My Venus ,my muse
you know who you are
the distance between us
is not very far

in life if you find it
hold on don't let go
who knows where it leads
the path you'll both follow

blessed every day
for you in my life
we both need each other
the fit feels just right

forever together
bound by the stars
time cannot touch us
here in our hearts

I look at my town
in the dark
and the snow,
My breath making clouds
because it's so cold

I wonder what tomorrow
will have for surprise
couldn't be worse than today
for today I despised

Tomorrow's are better
you can always start new
tomorrow's are for doing
the things you want to do.

Oh master of chemistry
What wonders you devise
Some make us happy
Some save our lives

Sterile lab coat
In a white sterile cell
You toil all hours
To create the newest pill

We never acknowledge
Your struggle and strife
For the chemical wonders
That are part of our life.

My madness comes and goes
It ebbs and flows like an insane tide
Carrying upon it the strewn wreckage of a former life

"Try harder, make your life calls my insane sea, and I will again destroy it"
Always reaching,keeping my head above the ever pounding waves

Flowing towards an ever brightening distant shore,only to be pulled back
I try harder to do it again

Alas, I,ve been pulled beneath caught in the undertow
Held in a final embrace by the salty,sweet hands of my sea of madness
Then taken to the dark depths never again to smell the air or feel the sun
I guess I didn,t try hard enough.

As I sit in my chair
I listen
         eyes closed
                      I hear the raindrops
such a soothing symphony they create

       no pattern
                        random
but ,
magically musical

my old refridgerator running in the background

the clock ticking away the seconds

isn't it funny how much we don't hear
when we don't listen,
                                  Truly listen

I must confess
As I undress
The sins I carry
I cannot bury

They haunt in the night
And even in the light
They follow close
But never are they seen

Save for me in my nightmares
And every time between

Will they ever leave me
There's only one who can say
I'm hopeful To meet him
On my last day

If I could cure what ails thee
there wouldn't be a pause
such a soul deserves it
and humanity will feel the loss
we may not think it now
but perhaps he'd have done great things
just another senseless passing
there will be one less soul who is laughing

but,maybe there will be the laughing on the other side
for this soul no longer has to endure  "survival"

Moon,Oh! moon
'tis a shame upon you
you failed to give full light
when the hunters needed you

They all lost their footings
and fell to the ground
their souls made to wander
no longer ****** bound

Darkness encircles my soul deep in Hell
Cut down on the battlefield, I died where I fell

Swirls of color and light, appeared when I passed
I was back at the battle, but now as a guest

Farther back still, we went through my past
Saw my mistakes, my pains, and my laughs

Now I know how I ended up here
I lived as a heathen and never knew fear.

Blue eyes that stare back
With pain and with hate
Pain I know well
Because mine are the same

I have made mistakes
But everyone does
All I can promise
Is I will always love

You

Whether or not
This feeling is returned
Is all up to you
That's one thing I've learned

So I'll give you some space
And plenty of time
But at the end of the day
The decision's not mine

Don't wait too long
We all change with time
And once more I'll say
The decision's not mine

So think long and hard
What it is that you want
I won't wait forever
At some point I'll stop

Waiting

Madness gripping me
My soul sits in darkness
South of heaven

Fantasy and reality
Life and death
The line blurred

All light extinguished
Alone in darkness
Screams of the ****** haunting me

Sleep brings restless dreams
Waking brings anger and pain
A new path starting

No remorse
No conscience
Numb

Rage begging for release
So tired
Conflicted,torn

War inside
All consuming
Faith destroyed

Welcome
To the place
Where dreams die

Where darkness prevails
The sun doesn't rise

Agony and anguish
Together here thrive

Life choices made
This is home when you die

So, Welcome home
Home for all time

I always was under the impression
That in recent times
We have lost touch socially ( person to person, in person)
We have lost compassion
Nobody cares about anyone anymore

And while I still believe
We have lost certain aspects of our social interactions
I have found we still care

And the funny thing is
We may care about people we've never even met
We are still all connected
Though now it's through the ever powerful web

Anyway I guess there is hope.

Our leaders make promises
They cannot fulfill

They overspend their budget
And we foot The bill

They send The troops
To faraway lands

Yet none of them focus
On the problems at hand

We've people in our country
Who just don't belong

It has nothing to do with race
But because they did it wrong

They cut our defense
They cut education

That's two bad decisions
One more  = end of our nation

May death come swiftly
On wings made of dreams
One visit is all I need

To be rid of this vessel
That holds me here
On this decision I'm still unclear

One minute you pray for sleep with no waking
Then see your young child and wonder what was I thinking

A wife tries to comfort what she does not understand
I guess in the end it's all in ones hands

Not mine ,not yours nor anyone else
But only the one who created us all will tell

When our time on this world is finally through
Will the weight be lifted once and for all
Or will we continue to stumble and fall

A rift between the two
Now unsure what to do

They once had love
Alas it has withered

No more fruit will it bear
It's vine has decayed

New seeds will they plant
In a hope beyond hope

That their vine will regrow

I am
A wolf among the sheep

They walk noisily about
Silently I creep

I walk as they do
I wear the same clothes

I meander my way through them
My prey will never know

The real me isn't so grand
This costume I wear is part of my plan

I'm not here to help you
I don't want your love

I am going to eat you
With teeth stained in blood

Worlds away
Oceans between
Love knows no boundaries
When will they meet?


You send me your love
Of that I've no doubt
Oceans to cross
My times running out

I'll see you my love
In my dreams
In the night

All now seems possible
Our future is bright

An angel was she
sent here to help me
happiness her gift
a gift she gave often
and gave just to me

blessed am I
to have such a friend
someone to count on
when all else comes to an end

she's here for me                                                                            
Know I'm here for her always
when life throws us curves
and everythings just goes sideways

together we see each other
through the hardships we may face
no matter how bad, we can meet in this place