The face of an angel
and heart of a saint
her words still unnoticed
her whispers seem faint
she speaks through her eyes
if only you'd listen
look deep in her eyes
and find what you're missing

I don't have the words anymore
I see so very much suffering
And feel paralyzed

Wishing I could fix everything
For everyone
Forever

Still the world spins
Out of control
I am just a stowaway

Destination

Unknown

Goodnight moon
I surely must retire

If I said I wasn't tired
I'd surely be a liar

As the coming dawn approaches
and with it the bright days sun

The coming moons promise
of dark enlightened fun

Long,long ago there lived a man
a wise wealthy old man close to death
he was willing to give all he possessed
for a chance to see what his heart most desired to see

Nobody could show him,though many tried
for the man would not tell what he desired to see
finally exhausted,the man fell asleep

A voice called to him from a distance
"Do you still desire to see what none could show you,
will you still give all you possess to see it?"
"Yes" the man replied

"Then look deep within the light and you shall see"
the man concentrated on the light in front of him
and he did see what he most desired to see
then a light that seemed to burn with the power of a thousand suns
burned his eyes
he awoke sweating and in complete darkness

He realized that he was blind
slowly he made his way to his front porch and sat in his favorite chair,
there he wept

The news spread quickly through the little village
soon his family and friends were by his side
all now aware that the old man was blind

Puzzled a young boy asked "Do you weep for your blindness
that you may no longer see?"
The old man pulled the small boy onto his lap
"Young boy" he said "I weep not for my blindness,for no longer have I need of my sight,I have finally seen what I most desired to see and no longer need to see".

All the family and friends asked "What did you see?"
the old man quietly chuckled,almost more to himself
and answered saying,"I have seen what I have lived my life for,
I have seen the face behind my faith
Though I may live the rest of my days in darkness
my heart lives in a beautiful vibrant light,
the same light that has guided me through my life
as a lighthouse guides a ship through the night
so will it guide my soul safely to harbor".

Back to the happiness
My little pills bring
My heart was a'flutter
And now does it sting

Some things in life
Are just not meant to be
What will happen next
I'll have to wait and see

An angel was she
sent here to help me
happiness her gift
a gift she gave often
and gave just to me

blessed am I
to have such a friend
someone to count on
when all else comes to an end

she's here for me                                                                            
Know I'm here for her always
when life throws us curves
and everythings just goes sideways

together we see each other
through the hardships we may face
no matter how bad, we can meet in this place

What a Beautiful sky
I just saw outside

Pinks, reds,whites and blues
I sat in awe of those wonderful hues

It started dreary, then the clouds gave way
It's funny how something so simple
Can brighten your day

I got too high
Floated up in the sky

Saw my heart below
It started to rain

Down I came
Ever so gently

I rested on
A weeping willow

When I woke up
My head was on my pillow

At times life can pull at you
like the tide ebbs and flows
wondering internally
which way to go

your body says left
but your mind tells you right
which should I trust
which one is right

now your heart
that ones different
on that one rely
it never will mislead you
and never will it lie

I'd love to hop a train
To see where it goes

Close my eyes and sit back
Hear the wind blow

Watch the country flow by
I swim through the fields

I float through the valleys
Upon many wheels

Somewhere my journey
Will end I'm quite sure

I hope to end
Where the air is still pure

Rains fall from the sky
Replenishing Earths supply
Of lifes sweet nectar

Delusions of happiness
Run through my head
I try to decipher
The cryptic messages

My mind tells me one thing
My heart says another
Which shall I follow
Is there another

Time they say heals all wounds
I say it creates them
I wish it would stop
Time for awhile

I need to get my bearings
Without them I'm lost
Adrift on a sea
From sunshine to frost

Extreme to extereme
How I wish she would say it
Then I would know
I'm not going insane

Madness gripping me
My soul sits in darkness
South of heaven

Fantasy and reality
Life and death
The line blurred

All light extinguished
Alone in darkness
Screams of the ****** haunting me

Sleep brings restless dreams
Waking brings anger and pain
A new path starting

No remorse
No conscience
Numb

Rage begging for release
So tired
Conflicted,torn

War inside
All consuming
Faith destroyed

My madness comes and goes
It ebbs and flows like an insane tide
Carrying upon it the strewn wreckage of a former life

"Try harder, make your life calls my insane sea, and I will again destroy it"
Always reaching,keeping my head above the ever pounding waves

Flowing towards an ever brightening distant shore,only to be pulled back
I try harder to do it again

Alas, I,ve been pulled beneath caught in the undertow
Held in a final embrace by the salty,sweet hands of my sea of madness
Then taken to the dark depths never again to smell the air or feel the sun
I guess I didn,t try hard enough.

Walk in through the pale blueness of my eyes into darkness
you'll feel yourself falling
Seeing reflections of memories that were once my own
finally you land in a desolate place,feeling alone,

A soft haze covers the ground in all directions
suddenly the haze clears
you find yourself in the middle of a raging battle,
continuous and never changing

The battle is between two forces,both have wins and losses
casualties strewn about as if haphazardly thrown from above
the battle rages,you feel trapped,not knowing what to do
"Let the battles flow" a voice calls to you
for it's not the battles that matter, but the outcome of the war
It is but the flesh and the soul fighting for control
and it will be a constant struggle,where there can be only one victorious party
it is up to which party that will be

Which shall guide you,the body or the soul?

Which path shall you choose,the easy path that is wide and full of all that are lost or will you choose the path that is narrow and full of hardships and burden

Until you decide that,there will always be a battlefield behind your eyes.

I'll finally rest now
So I'll bid you Adieu

Pleasant dreams I am wishing
For me and for you

If you wake in the morning
Thank God that you did

For the reaper did not take you
While you slept in your bed.

We run through this realm
My lover and me
Time cannot touch us
We'll forever be free

They run all about
Like rats in a cage

Every day different
Though they all seem the same

Everyone struggling
They strive for the top

Believe me when I tell you
I for one am not

I know secrets
Few are privvy too

These secrets may help you
They may also **** you too

When you understand the reasons
People do what they do

You may start to wonder
What things make you you

Once you have your answers
You may not wish to know

You had yourself at a ten
Your actually a zero

C= my style that's constant
V= various topics I choose
T= time that it takes


Now let's do the math


C(same ****** style)+V(various ****)- T(time that's spent)=Q
                                                        ­                                                 That one's for quit!

I must confess
As I undress
The sins I carry
I cannot bury

They haunt in the night
And even in the light
They follow close
But never are they seen

Save for me in my nightmares
And every time between

Will they ever leave me
There's only one who can say
I'm hopeful To meet him
On my last day

Did you ever lay by the ocean
Lover close by
Their hand in yours
No thought of time

Hours pass like minutes
You wish it wouldn't end
Time should stand still
No want to leave

Inevitably the moon appears
What a beautiful day
You and your love
Asleep by the bay

As I sit in my chair
I listen
         eyes closed
                      I hear the raindrops
such a soothing symphony they create

       no pattern
                        random
but ,
magically musical

my old refridgerator running in the background

the clock ticking away the seconds

isn't it funny how much we don't hear
when we don't listen,
                                  Truly listen

In fine feather now ,feeling no pain
my darkness appeased as I sit in the rain
I stumble about through the alleys and yards
though my eyes through this trickery
have me wandering tall grasses
on my old family farm
sun on my face ,breeze at my back
as a lovers warm breath
whispering "Come home ,my love"
soon I answer
then as soon as she came
she was gone once again
so I'll keep sitting here
waiting for her
her warm breath on my neck
the sun in her hair

and the end of this cold lonely rain

As I lie here self drugged
between dream and reality
my mind opens up
to previously unseen possibility

where is this line between dream and real
to me they are the same
at least that's how I feel

Where does life end
and where's it begin
do we wander this life
in supposed dark sin

Does God have a plan
or are we just travelers
adrift on this plane
too many things I cannot explain

I'll continue to wander
no plan and no guide
all I can do
continue my stride

This in between land
in the ether does lie
questions and answers
someday we'll find

May death come swiftly
On wings made of dreams
One visit is all I need

To be rid of this vessel
That holds me here
On this decision I'm still unclear

One minute you pray for sleep with no waking
Then see your young child and wonder what was I thinking

A wife tries to comfort what she does not understand
I guess in the end it's all in ones hands

Not mine ,not yours nor anyone else
But only the one who created us all will tell

When our time on this world is finally through
Will the weight be lifted once and for all
Or will we continue to stumble and fall

I hear the tortured souls
Crying out to me
In the place where dreams live

I close my eyes
Not sure how much time has elapsed
Wakened by screams
Realizing they are my own

I long for peaceful rest

Someday maybe

Not today

Look deep into my soul
Through eyes of pale blue
You'll see my one hope
My child and you

Of nothing else
Am I sure
In this world and our life
Save our love for each other
As husband and wife

Beloved life we've created
And nothing more shall I crave
From this moment forward
Till I lie in my grave

Believe me my love
When I tell you this truth
That nothing can touch us
Not here in our world

The world we've created
From a love that is true
Where nothing else matters
Save me,our child and you

Come o weary souls
To the house at the end of the road
Where many a man
Had met his end

Some had come
Looking for truths
Some had found
The hanging noose

Last steps taken
Through the trees
Lonely whispers
From the leaves

Answers given
Those that seek
Will you laugh
Will you weep.

Here I lie,
No comfort therein,
Alone again,
Lightly breathing.

Shallow breaths,
Of life-giving air,
Send me home,
To whom knows where.

If I don't wake,
Again my dear,
I'll see you soon and know I'm near.

Though if I wake,
It may be a while,
Until I see,
Your loving smile.

Oh I wish, how I wish
That heaven is real

We'll all have the rest
And love we didn't feel

No tears will be shed
No grief or reget

Only by laughter and happiness
Shall we be met

I do my best in all that I do
I try to do right for me and for you

Until the end comes,I guess we can't know
we'll have to wait and see
And hope that it's so

My senses reeling
I do not know What to do
Still in love with you

My muse has returned
Inspiration renewed
I'll keep the words flowing
All because of you

Darkness approaching
Sun has now set
Fatigue taking over
Time now for bed.

Do you ever think
What the truth really is ?

Is our universe endless ?
Or where does God live ?

Are we alone
In this infinite space ?

Or maybe there are others
Out past our gaze ?

Our questions must have answers
I guess we can't know

Until the time comes
When we're above or below

Tired and sweating
A tangle of limbs
Passionate kissing

Exploring their love
Thought to be gone
Been together so long

Still much in love
They're starting to see
He still loves her
She still loves he

Call me a comet
as I race through the sky
my tail streams behind me
my life left in your sky

You'll see me only briefly
as I streak by your eyes
if you blink you may miss me
for I shortly light the sky

Though I burn brightly
my life is nearly spent
I'm on my way to ashes
but ,Oh! so glad I went!

Tired,so tired, my eyelids like lead
I fear if I close them,they won't open again

Why don't I sleep?for fear of the dead?
Are there true Phantoms?or is it all in my head?

I'm closing my eyes now,cannot hold on
Have to sleep sometime,guess that sometime is now

I say goodbye now to all that I know
For if there's no waking,my eyes remain closed

They'll dress me up nice,as they lay me to rest
My eyes won't stay open,so this is my test

Can I slumber in a dreamless state?
Or will they come find me and take me away?

My muse no longer visits me
I know not where she's gone
No words now swirling in my brain
I cannot take this for long

Please come and visit again
Your presence brings me peace
Without you I shall struggle
My brain unleashed a beast

I write or rather scribble
My words all skewed and trash
Until you return to me,
Writing,this is the last.

A call to arms,a call to arms
The peasants rise up from the farms
They're tired of weeding,planting and bleeding
All for their lords wanting not for his needing

All of their lives worked away in the fields
Only for the maybe, occasional meal

Their lives were hard,though they complained not at all
NOW they cry  JUSTICE and FREEDOM for all.

I look at my town
in the dark
and the snow,
My breath making clouds
because it's so cold

I wonder what tomorrow
will have for surprise
couldn't be worse than today
for today I despised

Tomorrow's are better
you can always start new
tomorrow's are for doing
the things you want to do.

I walk through the crowd
To go sit down

Music playing
Way too loud

I can't think
I can't breathe

I liked to get up
Walk and leave

I suddenly realize
I'm at home alone

I gotta stay away from that tea!

A lovers touch craved but not felt
one touch of her body
and surely I,d melt

Like a ghostly apparition
to be seen yet not touched
leaves a man feeling hollow
in search of his love

A love that he knows exists still today
where it has gone that I can not say
Oh elusive love
where art thou now?

You pass by
like a warm summers day
your passion I hope will ignite once again
and withstand the force
of the undying wind

Together once more
like the sun and the moon
we all have a soul mate
and I,ve found mine in you

In your absence is coldness
and unparalleled gloom
till I see your bright smile
my untouchable moon

When will you come back love?
to warm my cold soul
to banish my darkness
once and for all

I,ll leave the lamp burning
for if you,ve lost your way
just follow your heart
for it knows the way

On the fringes of sanity
Frayed pages from a chapter
In a long forgotten book

A tale no one cares to read
Binding creased and stitching coming undone
"Read Me!" I shout, no one hears

I am not alone though
Shelves lined with thousands
No one notices until we fall

Fall from our place among the others
Then destroyed, no one realizes
We've been falling apart for years

Only after we are forever lost
Is it a "shame"

A gentle rustling
                   Breaks the silence,
                                                     THUD!!

I feel partly alive
But mostly feel dead

Wish that that bullet
Didn't just graze my head

I stick me with needles
I snort up my nose

That's when I don't know
Where my mind really goes

At least it's not here
But somewhere at peace

I know that place
Is waiting for me

I'll be there soon
I try not to dwell

But the outlook for me
Does not look that well

Poetry
       Is
          THERAPY
                   For
               The
         Soul!
          

  And not as expensive!

If I could cure what ails thee
there wouldn't be a pause
such a soul deserves it
and humanity will feel the loss
we may not think it now
but perhaps he'd have done great things
just another senseless passing
there will be one less soul who is laughing

but,maybe there will be the laughing on the other side
for this soul no longer has to endure  "survival"

I walk through the mist
Moon casting peculiar shadows
Headstones tall and thin
Branches leave ghastly images
Among the dirt,the mist and leaves

Heavy heartedly I proceed
I never like this walk
It's here just past the trees
I walk upon them,and fall upon my knees

I often wonder ,what could be different
If you didn't have to go
Where would we be now
You never let me know

I'm still angry at you, even now
Or am I just suffering
From a long since broken heart
I don't know what I feel
I only know it still hurts

I love you
I'll see you again tomorrow.

I've never known fear
Though I'm feeling it now
Unsure of my future
Feelings abound

How to proceed
I am at a loss
My compass is spinning
No land have I crossed

Fear a new feeling
To add to my list
I'm not sure I like it
I'll have to fight through this

My chemical happiness
Can't help me now
It's my heart that now ails me
Not sure I can fix this,I don't know how.

Each time you run out
It gets harder to wait
Then you get more
And more you will take

One of these days
You'll have waited too long
You'll take way too many
And soon will be gone.

I had thought over tea
About my little city

Western civilization
The decay of our nation

Moral compromise
Our leaders speak lies

I just want the truth
A return to what's right

Doesn't look like we'll get that
Not without a fight

Our lady now gone
She's taken her leave

No tricks now
Nothing up the sleeve

I feel a great heartache
But now it's alright

She's a survivor
She's gonna be fine

Given a task
I know she'll complete it

This isn't the end
But just the beginning