I don't feel like writing
But this thought I'll leave with you
Always try to let the words out
Even when your blue

I've never known fear
Though I'm feeling it now
Unsure of my future
Feelings abound

How to proceed
I am at a loss
My compass is spinning
No land have I crossed

Fear a new feeling
To add to my list
I'm not sure I like it
I'll have to fight through this

My chemical happiness
Can't help me now
It's my heart that now ails me
Not sure I can fix this,I don't know how.

Delusions of happiness
Run through my head
I try to decipher
The cryptic messages

My mind tells me one thing
My heart says another
Which shall I follow
Is there another

Time they say heals all wounds
I say it creates them
I wish it would stop
Time for awhile

I need to get my bearings
Without them I'm lost
Adrift on a sea
From sunshine to frost

Extreme to extereme
How I wish she would say it
Then I would know
I'm not going insane

I lust for adventure
For romance anew
When will it start
It's all up to you

Fortune rewards the bold they say
Though bold I am not
Maybe that's why I'm here
And why you are not

I see your picture
I'm flooded with emotions
I wonder
Maybe in another life

Time marches on
It waits for nobody
What will we do
Time will tell

Overwhelming sadness
I know not what to do
Spiraling downward
No will left to fight

Each day will be better
Or so I pretend
Laughing on the outside
My insides are dead

Oh who can save me
What pill should I take
I'll take no more pills
Their happiness is fake

I'll give it my all each and every day
Will it be enough,I cannot say
I will simply keep going
Until I can't

The fog rolling in
Thanks to the little yellow pills
An insomniacs coffee
To help dreams begin

I dream of wonderous things
Some not so good
You take what you get
And you're happy for it

Now dreams are quite near now
So I must say goodnight
I'll write in the morning
When the sun starts to rise.