when all is said and done
and all has been resolved
there is the ease of resolution
no more tears to bawl

all is said and done
all the words were said
all the questions asked
all the pain been bled

now you go on living
get back to your life
pretend that nothing happened
ignore the scars, there was no knife

and when you think you’re able
when at last, you’re back to you
there is the faint remembering
you realise you’ve been lied to

the cuts were self inflicted
that’s what you’ve been told
the boiling water poured on you
had no intention to ever scold

but there was a knife and there was water
unfamiliar knife rack and a kettle
in your home they’re not, mental images
held by hands not yours, unsettle

it doesn’t matter anymore
not relevant the truth was spun
you’re meant to have moved on
when all is said and done

some words only some will hear
colours only some will see
faces in the crowd will know
those with hands that speak
words only some will hear

a constant on the tip of tongue
in the back of mind
always smelling something there
a faint remember when

whispered songs around me
always dancing, restless
dreaming what could be
with glass shards stuck in my feet
breaking through skin, potential
of the only real unknown

all that’s there of me
red trampled footsteps left behind
hearing music all around me
feeling out of my mind

a shout, a whisper, siren song
a wish, a curse, to belong

broken shards from inspiration
long since forgot
grabbing them from broken soles
knowing what they are

stories wanting to be told
with words only some will know

If only I could talk to you
                        I'm here
If only I knew what to say
                        Anything
I don’t know what to do
                        No need
I just want you to stay
                        I'm here

If only I could read your mind
                        Ask anything
never know what words to use
                        I'll tell you
You've always been so kind
                        So have you
Maybe I'm just too bruised
                        I'm here for you

I’d like to tell you how I feel
                        I hear it
how much you've helped me heal
                        I'm proud of you
tell you what you mean to me
                        I feel it
send my thoughts and make you see
                        I love you too

I wish I could be better for you
                        You are enough
be what you deserve, every day
                        You are everything
there is nothing I wouldn't do
                        Nothing needed
If only there was a way
                        I just need you

I owe so much already
                        Nothing to repay
I put it all on you, leaned heavily
                        I'm here for it
You carried it all somehow
                        Because I love, it's easy
But I’m scared to be myself now
                        I'm sorry

I found such comfort on your skin
                        I found comfort in you
Forgiveness in your touch
                        Nothing to forgive
It's why it feels like such a sin
                        Nobody is perfect
To be too much
                        I want all of you

It seems to all go wrong
                        If only we could talk
you, halfway out the doorway
                        We'll figure out what to say
I don't want to string you along
                        I don't know what to do
I’ll just stay away
                        I just want you to stay

Like first time seeing stars in skies free of city lights.
Like late summer sun reflected golden in lake waves.
The light I see in you, through your eyes, right behind your face.

Through states or circumstance, that will make it feel afar.
I see golden lights, the dream, that defines who you are.

You have such stories, but no paper. Forced to make it from scratch.
While knowing the perspectives of the world that only you can catch.

I see fierce beauty in your bleak depiction of reality.
Disillusionment and disappointment,
because you know what reality was supposed to be.

At night you are a paper maker, while humming horrors of the world.
Words yearning for a canvas, with impatience, needing to be heard.
Words of night time skies, making paper makes you glow.
Dancing to the melody of light, in duet with your own shadow.

Because the world is clear to you, you make others see it too.
With such excitement, I just wait. I can see the future thanks to you.

A day of paper, you write light, for everyone to see. Your art.
The light I see through your eyes, right behind your face,
that defines who you are.

You are a master of pretending,
even when your life is ending.

An artist of escape
to avoid every heartache.

Most well dressed stranger
at any masquerade.

Who you meet in the mirror,
worthy of none of your affection.

It is difficult to love yourself
without a reflection.