I thought this feeling was long gone
Have been long buried in the past
Have been totally forgotten,
And wounds from being hurt was healed.
But then, one day we met again,
Just seeing his smile makes my knees weak
As if I'll fall in the ground in an instant;
When he walked towards me
Standing so close to him
My heart is pounding hard
As if jumping of joy for being near with him again;
Then he opened his arms
Wrapped it around me
Pulled me closer to him
'Til I felt my body trembled
Feeling such a bliss,
Feeling his heart beating,
Feeling the warmth of his hug.
I surely missed him -
Missed talking with him,
Missed holding his arm,
Missed his sweet smile,
Missed his soothing voice,
Missed his gentle caress,
Missed his arms lightly placed on my shoulders or on my hips,
I missed him totally.
In less than an hour we spent together,
I felt so much happiness
Every second with him was so precious
It's his presence and love that my heart is always yearning for.
It's just so sad,
Really sad for me
And it's breaking my heart
Knowing that we can't be like that forever;
Knowing that he'll forever be just my best friend,
And we can't be more than that.
My mind tells me to forget this feeling,
But my heart doesn't want to,
'Coz the truth is -
It can't.
I don't care if this is hurting me,
'Coz just being with him gives me much happiness -
So much happiness only him could make me feel.

When in the midst of decision making
For me, is a season of lamenting
'Coz it always appears confusing
Not sure where my thoughts are heading.

The smile on my face never fade
Though deep inside I'm hurt badly;
To understand everybody, I think, is the reason why I'm made
I care for them sincerely;
Whenever someone could no longer handle a thing,
I'll be there as their shock absorber;
They can pour out on me anything
And I can assure I'll be a good secret keeper;
I always lend my ears to anyone
Be a friend to depend on;
Be with them to have fun
Not worrrying on whatever we have done;
If they are feeling blue
I'll be there to cheer 'em up;
If sadness spreads easily like a flu
I'll create an antidote to make it stop.
I realized, to others I care a lot
Not expecting for anything in return from them;
Maybe, this heart that I got
Is just too kind and too fragile as a piece of thin gem.
It's always my pleasure to inspire someone
And give some pieces of advice;
My shoulder are small but it's meant to be leaned on by anyone
Cry there and from their loneliness they'll rise.
It makes me happy when I'm spreading love,
And it gives me strength when I'm loved sincerely;
But sometimes, it is also love
That makes me too vulnerable and the reason why I'm hurt deeply.
Now I'm thinking,
Is love my shining armor
Or is it my kryptonite?

One dull grey day had just passed
Leaving me feel like an outcast
Then thinking of what had gone wrong
For me not to feel strong.

With one eyebrow raised
One hand cupping the face
And the other scratching my head
While my back straightened on my bed.

As I think deeper and deeper
The thoughts are getting weirder and creepier
Making me feel like lost in a big crowd
Making me shout out loud.

When I already calmed down
I shook my head and frowned
Realizing I have more important things to do
Than just to keep on feeling so blue.

I want an escape from my reality
And live in my fantasy
But then I ended up drowning in miseries
'Coz I was overcome by my worries.

So I stood up with head held high
And said, "I am now ready fly" -
Fly away from sorrows
And look up for better tomorrows.

Precious jewelries,cuddly stuff toys, sweet chocolates,
Flamboyant dresses, beautiful bouquets of flowers, luxurious accessories;
All these to me you gave
Though I did not ask for any;
I really do appreciate all these
But, hey sweetie, these are not what I need.
I know you love me so much
And you know I love you too;
I honestly couldn’t ask for more
‘Coz just being with you makes me feel complete.
I wanna go travel anywhere
Just promise me you’ll always be there;
I wanna lie down under a starry sky
While holding your hand, entwined with mine;
I wanna feel you closer to me
Feel the warmth of your arms around me;
I wanna lean on your shoulders
Though it’s tough, it makes me feel relaxed;
I want you to gently caress my hair
‘Til I fell asleep in your chest;
I wanna look into your eyes
See the happiness in you for having me by your side;
I want you to cuddle me tight in your arms
And I wouldn’t mind if it’s making me breathe hard;
I want your hand to cup my face and pull me closer to you
Feel the blood rushing in my cheeks ‘til it blushed;
I wanna hear your sweet voice whispering in my ears
Saying the words “I love you”;
I wanna feel your soft lips
Gently pressed against mine, brushing it lightly;
I wanna stay forever in your heart
And, I swear, it’s you who’ll forever stay in mine.

Though I walked in the darkness
I can still feel much happiness;
Though I faced my greatest worries and fears
I can still manage to smile even with tears;
Though I've been mocked by many
I was able to show I have my integrity;
Though been through times so rough
I had been tough enough;
Though they continuously pulled me down
It's still me who won the crown;
Though many times I've been broken
Still, I was able to build up myself again.
All these I have done
Because of the help of the Almighty One.
With him everything is perfect
There's nothing to object.
He loved me so deeply
He cared for me endlessly
With Him, I've never felt so alone,
Been treated like a princess sitting on a throne.
All my life is a big thanks to Him
I can't do anything without Him.
It's his love and greatness
That keeps me feel the genuine happiness.

Fly
Go high
Be amazed
By the beauty
Feel the freedom spree
Learn from the days of yore
From our painful past be freed
Open up our hearts and spread love
Do things for the future's betterment.

Beggars in the pavement asking for alms;
Vagabonds continuously wandering;
Street children with nothing to eat just lick their palms;
These states of living are so shattering.

Avaricious keep on acquiring riches
Not caring how others are feeling;
Such a bunch of leeches
Being parasitic, doing nothing but stealing.

With head bowed down, we lament
'Coz we are still trapped by our past
Did not dare to feel any enjoyment
Go through each day so fast.

This world we are living
Full of dilemmas and sorrows
But all we do is self-pitying
Instead of doing things for better tomorrows.

Lived with an intention to avenge
Treated this whole life as if it is a big challenge.

Every night as I go to my bed
I'm somehow feeling a bit excited
For I'll be having a rest from a tiring day
In a soft cushion my back will lay
Be relaxed by the warmth of my blanket
Feel the tiredness as my eyes sink deeper in its socket
Plug in my earphones
To play random songs and enjoy its tones
Pick my fave stuffed toy and hug it
Feel better bit by bit
Shut my eyes and fall asleep
Live my fantasies that in my dreams I keep.

I hate this kind of feeling
Deep inside I'm screaming
But still look as if nothing's wrong
Holding back my tears for so long;
Not to look for anyone to blame
Except for myself for being so tame,
For making confusing decisions
And doing stupid actions
Showing how immature I was
Making my life look like a trash.
But hey! I still wanna do something great
Hope it's not yet too late
For me to fix up all the things I messed up
And start my journey to reach the top.

Traveled the whole wide world
Awaiting for a beauty to behold;
Searched for stories untold
Looking for a secret to be unfold;
Been to New York, Paris, Tokyo and Sydney
Climbed a mountain and walked through a valley;
To a lot of people I talked,
Those cute boy bands I stalked;
Went to famous boutiques and malls
Tried new clothes like those fashion dolls
And walked with trendy stilettos
Made different poses and took some photos;
I've searched high and low
In every place I go.
All of these I did
Just to be happy indeed,
But in the end I realize
All those worldly things will not suffice
My thirst for a blissful life.
What I wanted is far beyond those that money can buy
Those that are invisible to the naked eye;
Something that could make me smile
Without the need to travel even a single mile.
I don't want to have just a good time
It's peace of mind that I wanted to be mine;
I wanted to lay on a comfortable bed
But what I needed is a good night's sleep with nothing lingering in my head;
I wanna have something that could give me some enjoyment
But what I desired to have is genuine happiness;
I wanna try a lot of things
Wanna go fly and spread my wings,
But to feel loved, I think, is what I need
So that from all my woes I'll be freed;
And this is the kind of feeling
Ever since I have been longing.

I have a very special treasure
A precious wealth for sure
Something I have since I was born
It’s the love of God I have adored.

He helps me in my tasks,
Even though I do not ask,
He gives me knowledge and skills,
In return, I do obey His will.

But I know that it’s not just enough,
To surpass God’s unconditional love
Because nothing can still be compared
To all the things to me He shared.

From the beginning till forever,
His love I will always remember,
It is my one precious wealth
In my blessed life on Earth.

When I'm home alone
And have no one to talk over the phone,
I'll stay in my room and sit on my bed
Get a piece of paper and a pen
Write about something that lingers in my head
Being more imaginative as I can.

Thoughts come and go
Without even having a good flow;
There are times ideas are overflowing
But most times, I just end up scribbling.

Sometimes it's hard to find the right words
It's like playing a guitar and hitting the wrong chords;
These phrases may sound funny
Having groups of words that look scrappy
But, hey, this is making me happy
Making the time I spent writing worthy
'Coz, at least, I'm having a means
Of expressing out my feelings.

As I opened my eyes
I watched a bird as it flies
Landing from one tree to another
Chirping a melody as it wanders.

I turned and looked to my right
And saw the sun rising so bright,
I looked to the other side
And saw a river so wide.

Cold wind continuously blowing
Making the flowers go dancing,
Moistening the grass on the ground
While fogs are forming all around.

I stood up and started walking
Still doesn't know where I'm heading,
I looked up to see the sky so blue,
Gosh, this place is too good to be true!

I danced my way up to a hill
And there I stood still,
Awestruck that a place could be this beautiful,
Making me feel more blissful.

I ran with excitement and tumbled in the meadow
Lay there, waiting for the wind to blow,
Took a deep breath and closed my eyes,
And whispered, “This is my paradise.”