i wish you could understand
why i am
the way i am

i wish you could understand
why i think too much.
why i hate wednesdays.
why mornings are difficult and nights are not.
why i prefer the moon over the sun.
and why i don’t love myself,
as much as you love me.

i just wish you could understand.
but you don’t.
and that’s fine.
because i don’t understand,
either

I like to watch the world from above,
the bustle of the busy city below me.
People going about their everyday lives.
Maybe someone is going on their first date,
clammy palms and racing heart.
Maybe someone received bad new recently,
"sorry you're fired",
"sorry your grandmother didn't make it".
But yet,
here they are.
Meeting their friends for lunch,
laughing about something that happened moments ago.
Here they are,
still breathing,
heart still beating,
blood still pumping...
still living.

a first hello; a last goodbye; i love; i hate; breathe; the sun; the rain; a laugh; a cry; breathe; please stay; please leave; the calm; the storm; breathe; a whisper; a scream; breathe; life; death; breathe; stop; blink; wait; breathe; breathe; breathe...