Burrowing further
Shattering a path of rubble
Darkness lurks
Calm storms bring trouble
Escapism prevails
Tearing truth apart
Slithering disguised
Venom floods the heart
Stifled into shadow
Creeping across the floor
Drown amongst the rubble
Arresting inward evermore

Echoes are filling me up
Clouding my air and staining the walls
Memories follow deeper into the forest
Hidden in every shadow, eyes stare lifeless as a doll
Stumble and turn to find a light
Knowing nothing but fear and hurt
I scream and fall to my knees
Echoing a child at his mother's skirt
Their faces twist in my mind and scream
Killing me with daggers I build
From the wastes of youth that litter my halls
Potency more than had ever touched their wills

Drowning in the sorrows of my fellow men
Staring at their souls' dark and bitter end
I come to the conclusion
And have left no illusion
Death makes friends when we least expect
While the devil befriends all who stand *****
So rigid and so proud it makes them fall
For centuries we gossip and lie and stall
Until we break into little tiny pieces
Shattered and broken, all breathing ceases

Tantalizing is the use of harmony
Deep is the need to explain
Silence is never a friend
Words crash down like an autumn rain

Sense is fleeting and often askew
A sign could mean nothing
A word might change the world
Interpret each without knowing

Losing a battle of truth
Winning during a loss
Kindness ebbs and flows
Eyes painted over in a gloss

Hello, can you hear me?
I sing to you from miles away
While driving in my car alone
Towards a newer, colder day.
I never imagined silence could hurt
Until the day I realized a month went by
And no words had filled our conversation,
Just the emptiness of space and sky.
Alas, I cannot let this end.
It would tear me deeper than before,
It might leave me helpless and broken
Crying you a river on my bathroom floor.

Struggling to breathe in this very empty room
I swore I would stay and prevent this doom
So here I stand alone again
I scream your name inside my soul
Begging for you to let me in
And all I hear is silence cutting deep into my ear
I know now that you loved me out of fear
Fear I might break and shatter along the floor
No longer worried if I should breathe

Twist the red into a kiss
From the one you truly miss
Turn the red into the song
Your mother sings when you are wrong
Let the red become the talk of the town
Because no one sees you drown
Slide the black into the words
Realizing your choice is absurd
The purple sky holds the answer for you
Swirl it right, and your life will not skew
But by the time you see the truth
You'll have fallen far from this sturdy roof

Perhaps it's the darkness creeping up
Or the hollowness echoing within
But your words melt before me
And expose your many sins

I can't believe it has come to this
A point of no return
But how do I ignore the pain
And heal where you burn

Within my hallowed maze you walked
Carving your initials all along the walls
You left no place safe for me
Within my own dreary halls

I wish I could get through to you
I really truly wish
I wish that moon would reflect in your eyes one more time
I wish a lot of things
For money & fortune & fame
I wish cancer wasn't real
I wish I didn't always have to be right
But the wish I wish more than any wish I wish
Oh what a wish it is too
For my world will be as empty as these wishes without you beside me to see them come true

Steep walls all around
Slip and fall right to the ground
**** that hurt,  I'm bleeding again
One day I knew I'd regret losing you as a friend
But it was all your fault, **** an apology
Some bridges burn too fast for accountability
To be decided, but we both survived
Far from unscathed, we finally arrived
At this moment of silence for the lost love
Between our souls now drifting far above

I can't express the pain
The loss and hate within
And now everyone gives me ten cents
Like a poor man begging to pay rents
That are left from the apartment he couldn't afford to keep
So he's stuck on cold dirt as a bed for sleep
Everyone laughing at him in disbelief
At his ragged clothes, hair, and broken teeth

******* for judging where his life has gone
Everyone knows we are just societal pawns
Left thinking about our life so beloved
Frozen on the pavement unclean, unloved
Don't be so hasty to assume on your own
That your life can't share a similar tone
Cause that man could be me or you
Left by our friends and lovers too

Doth the Sun not shine upon our life through its many cycles around our home, this ground, we now stand knowingly upon? For ye, there must be many nights withstanding your weakened days. Yet, I see no darkening of the mind to spite these wicked themes of the universe casting clouds across thine only sky. Perhaps a better man, call the rainbow among your kin. I see not a beauty born from damp darkness surrounding. Nay. Thy beauty sprung not from storms ripping through thy soul. Beauty flows from far-reaching caverns over filled with life and truer passion than mine own heart may fathom. Lo, I drown within those seas upon thy face. Drag me to their depths and anchor mine heart among the shells and bones.

I won't call
I won't cry
But you already know
That's a bold - faced lie
Your eyes bring me back
To the place I call home
Where everything can be fixed
Do you know what I mean
Can't you see the words are real
When my soul collapses at your touch
Love is the only certainty I feel
But I don't dare admit
Not a word can be breathed
Fear fills me overflowingly
Scared shitless on my own
For our fate dictates things
Beyond our control is the decision
That could **** me or give me wings

All these words can mean well but they can never say it plain
For all the things I want to express would paint me insane
Simple phrases could be the key
So I admit I truly love you
And deeply hope you do not flee

The warm pressing of two hearts
Brings tears of pain within
For the joy pulsing deep inside
Breeds itself a pool of sin

Yet this sin is not real
The cuts it makes are deep
Tracing hateful words all over
For the promises I couldn't keep

Foolish were such promises of faith
Truth reveals no strength in me
To fight for our long lost cause
Is sealing my fate to drown at sea

Slice the cover
Grab your heart
Nothing left inside myself

So I'm forced to steal
Forced to die alone
Never knowing the privilege of family

But who can give me a soul
I've craved to care, but never could
Sitting alone, bastardized, and broken

So I take what I can't have
Leave you in my place
Calling out to this empty world of hate

Don't you ******* see?
This world you have made?
Full of pain and anger,
All happiness will only fade...
                                                        ­                        I know what I have done.
                                                           ­                         But what else can I do?
                                                             ­                   I fight off the nightmares
                                                      ­                   That haunt my night through
You can't control your demons
without losing everyone around
So just give up this fight
Or you will surely drown*
                                                          ­               You're right, I have no choice
                                                          ­                      But to sleep forevermore
                                                     ­                          So I will lay myself to rest
                                                            ­         On this freshly reddened shore

Our words are immortal
To those whom are dead
For we celebrate it all
Where others feel dread

A new speaker succeeds
From generations advanced
Speaking good and evil deeds
Truth of life no longer danced

Speakers for the dead show all
None can be hidden
That moment of shoplift at a mall
And care to another's son

What we ignore today
Will be plain in the end
For others will finally say
If they were truly a friend

Society will never change
But it's occupants can
See others without derange
As merely a human

                                            But who am I kidding
                                            When I say things with hope
                                            I know none will listen
                                            Not a soul will really hear
                                            For people are thick-skulled
                                            And hear what they want
                                            Not some beggar on the street
                                            Or an artist wishing to preach

So I continue to write
Not knowing the purpose
With all this blindness
*Who will dare to see?

I jump from this crowd
Slipping through the guards
Snatching your precious crown
The jewels to which they bowed

But you're no king
Not the kind that's revered
Your crown was built from spite
For those you kept on a string

I am no better than you
Stealing hearts to break
A fool filled with self-pity
Always doubting what to do

I don't steal what's not mine
Merely claim my title-to-be
The king of misguiding & self-loss
Just waiting for the end of the line

Sensations revolve around me
All are causing me to react
Some are foreign, some friendly
One is too familiar for any tact

As this world of many feelings
Revolves steadily about my head
One is perpetually bombarding
It's those simple words you once said

You remember those fateful words
That generate nothing but sorrow
I can hear them echoing now
As if you uttered them not so long ago

But it wasn't that long for me
For I never will move on from this
I'm trapped in that broken moment
My mind forever set amiss

So I will sit in a mournful world
Reliving those words that undo
That forever ring in my mind's ear
"I just don't think I can trust you..."