Sad, lonely words
Circle me forever
Hazing my vision
Leaving us *******

                                        Cut to the bone
                                        Start pulsing blood
                                        Fading to black
                                        Society does condone

                                                        ­         It is fully understood
                                                      ­                         These phrases ******
                                                          ­                                  They slice deep
                                                            ­               Bring nothing good

                                                           ­                        Fight this darkness
                                                        ­                      Remind us of the light
                                                           ­                 But voices are drowned
                                                         ­                         By blood so heinous

Bubbling water flows
Over rocks so sharp
Cutting deeper into me
Making red slip into the flow
Trying to escape
Making it worse
Pain doubling all over
So I fought the current
Carving my future's end

Won't you spare a second
To help me close this wound
Stop the blood that drips
Put my heart back inside?
Why is your stare so blank?
Don't you know what I feel;
The anguish of a loner?
The regretting soul?
Perhaps you are right to stare
To be dim to such pain
For the world shows no mercy
And people, They are to blame.

Please forgive
This blinding pain
I cause the world
To crumble in

With every compliment I ****
The little chance you have left
Of holding your, now liquid, world
In a perfect sphere around you

White and blue wash
As a stinging covers you
From the cuts all over
When your world caved in

As I attempt to piece you together
I only make matters worse
When I break the little parts
Down to worthless bits

Scarcely aware as it runs
Fluid dripping by the tons
As done by millions

I lose myself within it all
As my soul becomes a dark ball
Darkening as I plunge and fall

First come the cement walls…

Ripped from my life, yet never in death
Escape supposedly comes from ****
Yet like her, it only takes my breath

Tripping on the lie
That once made me try
Even if it could make me die

Next come the cold steel bars…

Breathing in death, or perhaps sleep
I try to hold my keep
But all emotions, they simply seep

Forever I die, forever I think
This, I know, is permanent like ink
But all is gone within a blink

At last, the guard, myself, takes his post…

I try and fail
Unable to afford bail
As I wait in my self-made jail.

My soul,
It rushes warmly
To the frozen ground.
For the lack of tension,
At my wrist,
Releases me.

My brain,
It Seeps onto
The welcoming floor.
For the gaping hole,
At my crown,
Saves me.

Click, Flick.
Push, Pull.

My only refrain
From continuing this discourse
Is your essence,
Nothing more.

Colors everywhere
Flapping madly
The wind  exposing true colors

Trying so hard
Yet always a struggle
Beauty comes with fragility

Your wings have been torn
Ripped and bent
Fluttering rapidly to remain afloat

In hopes to capture you
As you have me
I shield you from further harm

Psychotic and lonely
Fighting through it all
Rip myself so cleanly
I'm always left to bawl

The voices grow louder
My control loses grip
Through life I wander
Occasionally I trip

Crazy as I can be
Some still remain close
Form the base of my tree
Where life places crows

Can't you see I'm a friend?
I've been here through it all?
Are you making a knife descend?
My life ends as you maul...

You make me so giddy
Ripping reality to pieces
Leaving me breathless
Can't you see your effects?

Colors flowing everywhere
My vision blurs so steadily
Blackness soon envelopes me
Knees break from my weight

Drugs can't compare
To the experience you give
Drain me of all reason
Blur all my senses to nothing

Yet for all this confusion
For all this damage done
I still crawl back to you
For one more moment

I try to break the cycle
Attempt to come clean
But this suffering is what I live for
You're my drug, all I need

In my swirling head
All day and all night
Making me see red
In a way of delight

Not a hint of this
lived from our past
Only craving your kiss
Vexed by a mood that's cast

Everlastingly close, yet far
So deep now, no way out
All that stops us is a bar
Made from the other love you spout

Bathed in the dark
This creature stalks me
I hear it's metal claws
Smell the rancid breath
Feel sweat tickling my back
Stumbling through this fog
Attempting to breathe
Spinning in circles of streets
Hallowed echoes from the stones
Splashing in sticky, red puddles
Blaise, it's morning
I hear this shout
Like a demented whisper
It's time to wake up
Darkness dissipates away
Eyes burst open, filling with light
*Only a dream?