he said he never stopped loving me
but she was better at making you happy
and i was better at pretending
i didn't want to chug down
bottles of liquor
every time i look through your phone

whatever we have done, love
i think we should
do it all over again
until we can't tell
which is the sin
which is the absolution

i am broken in all the ways you cannnot love
   -*ten words poem

and i pray to God
that my marriage
doesn't poison my children one day
like my mother's and father's
did to me
   -*i fear it will

heart pumping
sinful daydreams
you are the danger i'm getting into
to dive in
head first

i'm sorry i turned you into monster in my writings
    -*ten words poem

do you believe him again
when he crawls through your phone
tries to convince you so bad
that he needs you

do you believe him again
open up your heart
scoop out the pain
carve him deep into you

and when you believe him again
how much are you lying to yourself
when you know what he'll do
but you do believe him
because he means everything to you