These walls, these four walls they keep him alive.
I sit in them, I look around, I wait to hear his voice, to see him stroll across the room.
Throw the door open mid afternoon and throw himself onto the bed next to me.
Cascading waves of kisses on my body, clutching my waist, running his fingers threw my hair, losing himself with me, neither of us knowing what we're doing, nobody caring, the world was ours, the night was ours.
These walls, these same four walls, they taunt me with weaknesses I now posses.
They flash images of the last time I saw him, screaming his last words at me,
"I think we should stop this."
I turn to the other wall, it continues the nightmare.
"I love you, you know that right?"
I sit up and cover my eyes.
*"I think we should see other people."
"I'm just not sure this is right anymore."
"We're done Lisa, it's over." *

These walls, these dreaded four walls, they keep me prisoner to my thoughts.
They put shackles around my feet, handcuff my arms, and rip out my soul to play with.
They drag it back and fourth, my body playing monkey in the middle, running for survival every time I see his smile
When I feel a warm breath on my neck
A nibble on my ear.
My body, it yearns for life, for passion, for lust.
My body, it fights for its life, drained and confused, numb, yet ambitious.

Time is a blade that sharpens us all,
Teaching us ways to learn when we fall;
  And whether you choose to listen or not,
There is no escape from destiny's call.

So listen to life and the answers she'll give
To anyone seeking the true way to live;
  For those who would ask to wake up and to feel
  The wind on their back and the grass on their heel;
Just let go of fear and learn to forgive,
  And see through the darkness  --  the Love is what's real.

It's not because I don't love you,
because,
I do.
But you see
it always starts out the same.
I learn about you from a friend
when he tells me your name,
how much he loves you,
all the wondrous things you say
and that I need to get to know you;
today.
The next time I visit that friend,
you're there.
I try to play cool,
desperately trying to hide
how much I really care.
But inside I'm pulsing,
racing,
unable to think of anything
except when can I get you alone
and
when can I make you sing.
After all I've heard so much about you;
hated by those that don't matter
and loved by those that do.
So when it's time for me to leave
you come along without hesitancy
and
at home we get to know each other,
when your arch your spine for me
like you did for your last lover.
I hint at deep intentions
when I ask you to move in;
promising nights in each others arms,
my love and undivided attention.
“I have room for you in my life”
I'll say,
but despite this all
I still might give you away.
It's not that I won't miss you
when you're gone,
but,
the problem is I'm a traveler;
a vagabond.
I move on,
and on and on,
frequently meeting new faces
that hold a wonder for truth;
and they remind me of me
the me before you.
And so,
my darling,
it isn't that I don't love you,
I do.
But I've met someone new,
and this someone needs you.

Last night I dreamt of your smiling face,
I dreamt that you were speaking to me,
That you were laughing with me,
I dreamt that we were friends,
Then I awoke,
And upon awakening I saw your sulking face,
I was greeted by your silence,
I woke to your hate,
And I remembered,
That we are friends no longer.

The kisses were empty
And touches blase'
I felt the disconnect
Long before I felt
You between my thighs
The tide was premature
And the flood pointless
Passion flourished fire
Love so demure
Thoughts became hushed
Under layers of lust
Clouded need
And as the fire fueled
Explosion didn't last
A lack luster come down
There was no way out
I was surrounded
Scarred where
Your fingers singed my skin
Scents of misplaced emotions
Smoldered between the sheets
Invading any space untouched
By our feinding bodies
Breath became stolen as
Faces became backs
Once again clothes covered
The naked truth
My eyes closed
Echoing the click of the lock
Stamping out the faint embers
Of what used to be
I felt the disconnect
Long before I felt
You between my thighs.

i just met her... wt happened to me
she is the one... now we will see

i liked her body
i liked her talk
she was amazing !

i liked her face
i liked her lips
she got me crazy

please kiss me please kiss me
u r the oneeeeeeeee !

please hug me please hug me
be the oneeeeeeeeeeeeee for me

and for you... the one i will be

Just because I never cried doesn’t mean I never cared
I realize, looking back, there are things I should have shared.
I guess, in a way, I was too inexperienced and scared…
Perhaps, for a girl like you, for once I wasn’t prepared.

If only we could see the future, if only we had foresight…
For so long, I tried so hard to keep things good and right.
I tried so hard, I truly did…I tried with all my might
But it seemed like the harder I tried, the more all we did was fight.

Fond memories of us now seem like glass shards upon the floor.
Now, my last memory of you – sadly, you walking out the door.
Now, I live in agony, the only victim of this war…
Now alone, I must live with your last phrase – “I don’t love you anymore…”

I shake my head in disbelief, shocked by what I hear…
“That couldn’t be what you said…I mustn’t have heard you clear.”
“No!” you say with anger, “every word was sincere!”
And so, with all emotion, I cry just one last tear.

But who is speaking these haunted phrases in my head?
You’re gone, long gone, and I’m alone here on the bed.
Perhaps now, with happiness, my soul can finally spread.
But, then again, knowing myself, I’d rather die instead.

So now, looking upon the broken memories, I finally see what you mean.
And now, I set out to **** the beast, in my head, unseen.
Do you think perhaps I can finally end this nightly routine?
And finally remove the final cog from your failure of a machine?

Oh well, who cares?  It’d be useless not to try.
After all, didn’t you convey once that it’s better not to know why?
Well, your secretive ways may not bear a reason for reply,
But my final choice is flawless – you need not worry to deny.

So, to you, my internal love, I bid thee a long needed adieu.
Because of you, I can finally say with these things I’m through.
But guess what?  In this final act, you alone have the best view!
So now don’t fear fate, darling – this is justice long overdue.