I can’t do this
All the roles
The provider
The worker
The care giver
The teacher
The cook
The cleaner
The support
The disciplinarian
The shoulder
The comedic relief

But I’ll do it
Because I’m the mom

So, I’ve this heart
That’s too big
And accommodating
It welcomes all

It’s the most beautiful
Tragic thing
You will ever
Encounter

It loves unconditionally
And uncontrollably
To all that dare
Cross it’s path

It’s broken
And misshapen
But so full
It’s busts at the seams

It has no boundaries
And no limits
It’s yours for
The asking

You can take
What you want
And leave what
You can

In the end
I’ll find peace
Even if only
Ashes remain.

This loss
Is not
Your gain

This failure
Is not
Your win

This bump
Is not
Your path

This mess
Is not
Your win

Maybe I needed you
In this moment
In this time

Maybe I longed for you
With your words
In this time

Maybe I wanted you
With your touch
In this time

Maybe I’m ok without you
In this day
In this time

It’s too soon
To open our cages
And let us roam
Freely around

Our lessons
Are not yet learned
And we aren’t
Thinking sound

We feel trapped
Instead of safe
And we don’t want
To be homeward bound

Yet if we look
Into the future
Will know too late
When we aren’t found

I want to tear it
All down
And get a
Do over

I want to rage
Against it all
And know
It’s ok

I want to cry
Until I can’t
And feel
New again

I want to be
Still in the moment
And breathe
Again

You fell
Out of love
With me

There
Was no one else
Just us

I wasn’t
Enough
Or too much

We cried
At your choice
We were done

You still text
Years later
Regret?