You should know
I can’t love you
I promised myself
Years ago
To never fall
Into that again

Stupid girl
Stop trying
To be
What you aren’t

Stupid girl
Stop believing
You are
Good enough

Stupid girl
Stop pretending
It matters
That you exist

Stupid girl
Stop wanting
All the things
You’ll never get

I miss you
At the oddest
Times

When the rain starts to fall

When I hear a ***** joke

When the cup of coffee is perfect

When the beer is cold

When the night is lonely

When the day is hard

When my heart hurts

When I realize the emptiness

Your love left

This fire
Rages inside me

It is placated
But not satisfied

It is captive
But not contained

It is strong
But not unbeatable

It’s is wild
But not untamed

It is fierce
But not unkind

It is guarded
But not blocked

This fire
Inside me

You don’t know
My pain
The scrape
Of the needle
Across my skin

You don’t know
My existence
The facade
Of emotion
Killing my soul

You don’t know
My heart
The beating
Of life
Begging for more

Lost
Just me
Alone
But ok
I know
That
I’m enough

I wonder how you know?
You text at the perfect time
Your words fill the void
That countless others couldn’t

I wonder if you know?
I’m stronger than before
I won’t fall again so easily
That girl is no longer

I wonder what you know?
When our eyes meet
Our spaces intertwine
That moment you are mine