I’m broken
I get it
I’m a lot to love
A crazy mess
Who doubts herself
And accuses you

But I’m worth
The amount of time
You’ll spend looking
For the girl
Who’ll love you
With everything she has

The beginning
May be a hurtle
I’ve got walls
Too much to climb
For the weak

When you make it
To the top of me
I’ll love you
More than anything
Has ever

I want to yell
At the universe
Can’t you see
How sad I am?

I want to scream
From a mountain
Can’t you see
How lost I am?

I want to cry
Beside your door
Can’t you see
How lonely I am?

I want to be ok
In my skin
Can’t you see
How hard I’m trying ?

I miss us
But I’m clear
Enough to know
We were temporary

I loved you
But I’m wise
Enough to know
We were fleeting

I desire you
But I’m strong
Enough to know
We were over

I mourn you
But I’m ok
Enough to know
We weren’t meant to be

he picked
A mountain
To climb
Far away
And
Too high

he harboured
A dream
To succeed
In his heart
And
His head

he needed
A victory
To proclaim
To breathe
And
Live again.

I ******* hate you
But would bow
At your feet
If you asked

I ******* don’t need you
But would dissolve
At your touch
If you did

I ******* don’t care
But would stop time
At your request
If you needed

It’s been awhile
But tonight
I was lingering
On the edge
Biting nails
Chewing my lip
Begging
For release
There he was
On the nightstand
Ready for me
Hungry for flesh
To relieve
The pressure
To feel
The physical
And forgo
The emotional
My friend
And adversary
In this
Twisted game.

I hate lonely
I feel panic
And stress
As if something
Should happen

I like alone
I feel peace
And relief
As if nothing
Should happen