this is not the right time for you to fall in love with me

i will run away when you chase after me
i will deny all the feelings that i have for you
i might say goodbye when you say hi
or i might as well **** you off just to make you stay away from me

because
i am afraid
afraid to fall in love
i am afraid
that you will leave me like the others

but most of all
i am afraid
afraid that i might lose someone
that i'll love for the rest of my life
and the unbearable pain that i have
to deal with

i wrote my poetry with the ink that came from my eyes wishing to read what i saw over and over again

He grabbed her hand around her thin waist, whispering sweet nothing. He knows their days are numbered and he knew nothing more. He's tired, battered and cold. Hoping to go back to the family that once hold him dear. Soon the light shone and the dew ran dry and the children's laughter can be heard nearby. He sat still in the house broken and dry. Painted red almost wishing he would just die

White was his armor, on bended knee he stood before her. He muttered the four words she wished for

"Will you marry me?"

And she said the word he prayed to hear

"I do"

Hearing your name makes my heart sink into my stomach and brings back the same empty feeling in my chest that I had when I lost you

I spend my every 11:11
Wishing
That I will see your smile
And hear your laugh
But here I am

In my head
I see us
Walking down the beach
Holding hands
Kicking water and
Chasing the waves.

In my mind
I see us
Lying on the meadows
Looking at the stars
Laughing and
Whispering love words to each other

In my dream
I see you
Standing in a black suit
Smiling
Waiting for me
As I'm walking down the isle
In white dress
With flower crown on my head.

But in reality
All I can see is
I'm lying on my very own bed
Alone
Fantasizing all the things
That will never ever happen to me, or
To us

There are so many things I want to tell to you
But you decided to walk away from my life
Guess I just keep it all to myself

I love the way your blue eyes shine
When you look at me
Because I know
I see the skies
Lovely and calm
That put my heart at ease

I love the way it roam
When you look at me
Because I still know that
I see an ocean
Untamed and wild
That put me into a mess

But most of all
I love the way
You look at me

I love the way
I made
You look at me