A "mother" is not only a woman that gives birth to you
A mother is...
someone that supports you
loves you unconditionally
accepts you for who you are
make mistakes
argues with you
wants the best for you
makes sacrifices for her family
and so on
Sadly
that's someone I didn't get
Yes
I have a mother
but only because she gave birth to me
She automatically gets the title
but in my heart she doesn't feels like a mother
especially MY mother
She's only my birth giver
I feel like a stranger in my own home
Even though I have both my parents
it only feels like I live with single parent
Because of her
I cringe when mother day comes around
Because of her
I hate receiving rewards or getting ready for my game
because she is never there for me
Because of her
I keep all my accomplishments to myself
because when I told her about it she didn't care
Because of her
I hate my body and developed symptoms of anorexia
all because when I was little she constantly told me I was fat
when I really wasn't
Because of her
I'm scared to say emotional speeches
because I watch other people thank their "mom" for being their for them
or turning our the way they did
me
I freeze because I have nobody to thank besides myself
Because of her
I hate myself
I don't feel good enough
for her
Because of her
I don't know what love is and I try to find it in others
Because of her
I want to
die
Because of her
I cried today during my therapy session
because I was explaining to my counselor about my mom
I cried because
I realized how alone I really was
and how I really don't have
what you call a "mother"
She asked me what hurts the most
and I replied
not having a mother
A lot of things are
Because of her
Not everyone is blessed to have two good parents in their lives. I was one of them to be blessed with two parents but feeling like their is only one.Remember to appreciate your mom or dad if you know they deserve it.