I am sorry that my problems made you feel not enough
that I had impossible expectations for you to try to reach the unreachable
I didnt mean to make you feel that way
my demons made you feel like that , not
I didnt mean to hurt you
I can see why you dont want to come back
but it hurts knowing that someone can do better then me
it hurts knowing that shes where I use to be
she would never be there if I just made you feel enough
I didnt mean to

Its sad to say that I am a broken girl
a lost soul hoping to be found one day
born in the darkness, one day hoping to be set free into the light

But I am a broken soul with big dreams
I am a lost soul, trying to find my home
yes I was born in the darkness
but that doesn't mean I stop searching in the dark
Ive been through a lot
and all I want to feel is love
yes I want to feel love from another soul
but I want the love from something that feels impossible to have
and thats the love from myself

I am a survivor
with physical and spiritual battle scars
I'm a fighter and I dont want to give up
I know theirs times that I want to , but I cant

I'm a girl with a fake smile
you wouldn't suspect a thing
but just know
I am broken
but I am healing

It hurts thinking about seeing you with someone else
but its going to break me completely when you find someone else
its going to hurt really bad
because I know shes going to be better then me

You want me to stay and I'm here
but your actions dont back it up

you dont want me to move on
but you push me away

you say you want to be with me
but find ways not to be

when your feeling ******, I'm your girl
but when we have a regular convo I'm not

Its hard to move on
but I know I want to
even as much as it hurts
because I know I deserve better
i don't deserve this

the time I finally accept this and move on
your going to come back begging to be together
but when that times I'm not going back
how come you couldnt come back when I wanted to fix things ?

Please take an easy
Also don't rush me when we kiss
This means a lot to me
I am glad that you came into my life
you must be a very special guy then
I've waited for many years for this moment
I have trust issues
and I was scared to have my first kiss because
I was scared of them taking everything and leaving
this meant a lot to me and I didn't want to just give it to anybody
I wanted to give it to someone that deserves it
someone that I love
and that loves me  
and I've been with for a long time
you shown me that I can love again
that I can trust again
you shown me that you are the one
you win, you shown me that you deserve it
even if you leave I wont regret thing
because I know I loved it in the moment
thank you for loving me for who I am
and accepting me with open arms
and staying by my side even if I am a disaster
I love you

Have you ever had your first kiss? He asked
No I haven't I replied proudly
he was shocked, actually everyone else was too
what !?! look at you, your hot
and he looks at me up and down
I felt naked and I got upset
because people look at me for my looks only
but dont take the time to know who I am
Did you ever had ***?
Nope, I'm actually waiting to marriage
I know I know
your probably wondering
"oh you say that now, your mind is going to change when you get older"
things change
but not my belief
I am going to wait
and I am going to do it and prove people wrong
Do you smoke or drink?
No, I honestly hate the idea of it
I know you cant hate what you never tried
but I do and I dont plan on doing that ever
and I am serious
Your probably wondering
aw this girl is no fun
I dont need to do all those things to be
"fun"
I am just a 16 years old girl
lost in her own thoughts
people say boys "chase me"
but for what reason
only for my face and to get in my pants
I just want to be alone
they dont realize how difficult I can be
I'm different from everyone else
get to know me, you will be scared
Dont let my looks fool you
just because I look beautiful
doesnt mean its beautiful inside
I'm not a bad person
but I am slowly dying
and I dont think anyone wants to see that
just because I dont want to be like everyone else
doesn't mean you need to get at me
I love to be different
if I have to walk alone on this earth
I will
I am proud to say
I am a 16 years old girl
focusing on my future
and is still a ******
never had my first kiss
and hates smoking and drinking
I love that I am like that

Hi to the mysterious boy I have a crush on
I'm surprise to say I have a crush anyways
I guess I'm just curious
you seem like someone I want to know
your probably have a girl friend or like someone already
but its ok
I dont even know who you are
or what you look like
but something about you
makes me like you
but I just want to get to know you