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seems like you want to apply for this full time job
(he nods and gives a big crescent smile)

Yes.. yes I do

Give me your resume
(he hands it to her)

This is a difficult job I hope you know

I do know that's why I applied

Many guys applied and didn't get the job

Well Im not like the rest of these guys

( she looks at him very interested)

Well let me give you a summary of what you will be dealing with

She is small
with big hazel eyes
with a bunch of dots scattered on her cheek and nose
she loves to laugh and smile
Very fiesty
independent and hard working
(pauses)

Thats not bad at all
(he chuckles a little and folds his arms)

Oh, Im not done yet

She has a bunch of insecurities
mentally abused
has been bullied
close to being anorexic
has battle scars
gets anxiety attacks
suffers from depression
needs a lot of reassurance
constantly apologizes
never feels good enough
putting herself down
In a bad environment
she has trauma
cant help but to argue
questions a lot
(she pauses)

Looks at her in disbelief
(stays silent and thinks)

Oh I'm not done yet but I'll stop there
Do you think your ready for this responsibility?

(He sits and thinks for a while then quietly replies)
yes
I am ready because I've always been a fighter and my father taught me to never give up on what I want and I want her. I want to be the man that changes her life around, the man that shows her that life is worth living for, I want to be the man that shows her how beautiful she really is, inside and out, I want to be the man she can trust and run to and has a shoulder to cry on, If I have to tear myself apart just for her to be ok I will do that. I rather break me down if I have to build her up. If we break up I will make sure she walks away happy, walks away ok. I will fight for her till my last breathe and I will never give up on her. I want to be the man she walks down the aisle to meet. I want to be the man to wake up every morning besides her to know how **** lucky I am to have her. I want to be the man she trusts and little by little gives me her all and I give in return. Yes, she might be difficult and very hard to deal with but I know shes worth fighting for. She is not the same like the rest of these girls. I'm not saying this just to say this. ******* is not just coming out of my mouth and thats probably why a lot of guys didnt get hired. I mean what I say. Every word of it and I know I'm going to love her. I already do
(he pauses)

(she stays silent)

(he gets up)
Oh, I have more to say
Now, do you think I am ready for this job?

(she gets up and shakes his hand amd says quietly with her her eyes wattery
and quietly says)
your hired
LOOK

I am SORRY that I am the way I am

I'm sorry that I start to panic when someone touches me
especially a guy
even though if its in a friendly way
I just can't help to flinch
I always think about the people that hurt me in the past

I am sorry that I constantly break down
I cant control my mind for consuming my emotions
my mind is always at war with my heart
I cant help to get flash backs of the past of what they did to me

Im sorry for hiding my feelings
I get nervous to tell you because Im scared of upsetting you
I had people that I upset when I always told them how I felt
I'm also not an open book
I even feel vulnerable just someone looking at the content of the book

I am sorry that I always ask for reassurance
Im just trying to get it memorized in my head so I can believe you
I want to make sure your being honest
your answers dont change
and you mean it
People drilled bad things into my head so I cant help it

I am sorry for constantly apologizing
I always think its my fault
I grew up people putting the blame on me
sometimes I can't tell if its my fault or not

LOOk
I
I ..am
sorry that I am me
My body is my chamber and my disguise and I am the prisoner and the victim
She says " I want to die"
many people question why
she can't help to think about suicide
she feels like that's the only escape
her love ones say it gets better
so she waits
she says if she leaves it can take away the pain
and she will be walking with God down a golden lane
she tries to take the meds
but then she thinks about what would happen and taking her pain away by suicide
Then she realizes if she kills herself it wont go away
it will spread, to her love ones
it hit her
she collapse and cries
knowing she can't take her life
she won't get to experience life
and knowing its not a fairy tale
she doesn't live twice
she wont be able to see the good that actually exists
knowing she will never escape
that she will never be in a better place
knowing she can't sin
knowing she can't lie
knowing she can't commit suicide
shes just stuck in this world
she starts to become more sick

Its been ten years
shedding old tears
no one cant help her
she's already sober
she is just sitting in the chair
looking out her window waiting for this to be over
He puts his hand gently on my back and slowly guides me to him
Holds me in his arms, my chest against his
So close that I can't tell my heart beat from his
Looking into his eyes big blue eyes
I ask him " do you love me?"
He puts my hand gently on his chest and his heart beat said it all
As your talking to me  
I can't hear you
Its like everything is muted
All I can hear are the voices in my head
Its so loud inside my head
With the words I should've said
I should've spoke my mind
Every time I had the chance

As I drown in my regrets
I can't take back the words I've never said
So much to tell you
But I thought you weren't going to listen
So I kept it all bottled up inside
And now you cant definitely hear me
You cant hear the words that come out of my mouth
and I cant hear the words that come out of yours
All I can hear are the voices in my head

Its so loud
its giving me headaches
wanting to come out

But I kept it all bottled up inside
The only thing I heard was his final good bye
And thats the last thing I heard
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