Upon prayer, I dreamt a dream -
The lots were cast on you,
And you were thrown into the sea, and
You were gone.
And I shattered the atmosphere with my screams
Flooded the universe with my tears
Whirlwinds and thunderstorms terrorized the world
And alas, I was the only one left to love you, and
You were gone.
And I could no longer see the sunshine
Threatened by the engulfing waters of the deep Mediterranean Sea
Seaweed wrapped around my head, in the pit of a whale
And alas, I was the only one left to love you, and
You were gone.
Don’t leave, for without you my life will ebb away
I can’t go on without you
I can’t imagine life without you
I can’t achieve salvation without you

     I love you

              I   l ove  yo u

                        I        lo  v e       y  o    u

Behind your eyes
used to be a spark
a light

They reassured
and made everything
alright

But now when I glance
I see a star
-less night

An urge to hate
and a want
to fight

I don't want to look
but I can't help it
I might

I am free
without a trace or a mark.
I've boxed up everything
to leave in the dark.

I am free
to grow in the light.
Nothing holds me back now-
I can fight any fight.

I am free
from you stopping me.
I will take on the world
to be all I can be.

I am free
to do what I want.
Although free in my life,
there's still dreams you can haunt.

A man of his words
I could never be
Nor a man of deeds

Oftener time my commitments
Lay broken like shards of glass
Dead as the trampled seeds!

Good words are easier said
Good deeds are not easier done
Words not kept are loan unpaid
Good work left undone!

It’s sad that oftener time I fail
Spoken words I let them rust
If I weigh myself in an honest scale
I have been too long unjust!

Good deeds undone are forever lost
Good words are wasted dearly
When I think of the ones it cost
I can’t say I feel heavenly!

my mind has it's ways
of playing with
my strings
with my heart
while ******* around
with my mind
leaves traces
of thoughts
I can't leave
behind


during this phase
I'm blinded
torn between
self-love and
self-hatred
leaves me feeling
so out of place

in the worst possible state of mind
there's so much I regret
wish I could leave it
stuck in a maze
caught up
in a daze
****,
get me out
of this place
before all hell
breaks loose
and I accidentally
might break me
as well as you

I have this pain
in my chest
sleep never works
I can never rest
I can feel the strain
the colliding emotion
it's drowning me again

I can feel the pressure
it's hard to measure
is it this much?
or the opposite
of all this?

thought overload
feels like my heart
is going to explode

I have no function
new year but still
I'm broken
and lost
getting caught up
in too much ****

trying to find myself
but it's so rough
picking myself up
from the ground
that's already tough

feels like my heart
has had enough

I'm falling apart
at the seams
losing myself
like I do
in my nightmares
as well as my dreams

suffocating in thought
breaking as we speak
I'm losing it
as we talk

Blink.
A quick action.
No one notices when your eyes are closed
For that one silent second.
No, millisecond.
So small, you would think that it wouldn't
matter at all.
Yet it does.

Blink.
Just one single flutter of your eyelids,
And you can miss so much.
Close your eyes in day,
Then you open them in night.
Close them during peace,
Opened to war and fight.
And fright.

Blink.
The world keeps rotating
Never-ending on its axis.
Life goes on, moves along.
Nothing stops for you,
Not even your own mind.
Your eyes might be closed,
But your brain churns with a clutter of thoughts.
Your eyes open,
But clarity is hard to see even then.

Blink.
You're not a child anymore.

Blink.
Time zooming, zipping, fast as a car.

Blink.
The next thing you know and-

Blink.
You've done it again.

Blink.
Missed something huge,
Part of your life,
Part of your world.

Blink.
Stop;
Don't let life pass you by.

Blink.
Stop blinking.
Keep your eyes open.

...Blink.
It's hard.
I know.
But you have to...

Try.

Roses are red
Violets are blue
They both die in the end.