I'm tortured as of now,
And I can't really complain.
Sorry girl of the future,
But I'm playing in the rain.
I'm a mess right now,
All I can do is think of her,
But don't pay much thought about it.
I'm sure if you exist,
My love for her is gone.

You see I'm so lonely,
And she touches me without crossing the strings.
I'm naive and longing to have worth,
To her I know I have a place.  
No, it's not a good one,
But what else can I have?
Just siting in the dark,
Telling the hole in my heart it is full.

It's not like I hate her,
No, none of that.
When I do nasty stuff though,
I don't let her see my face.
Want her to feel my pain,
But she'll never catch on.
As much as I want to leave,
I'm afraid to be gone.

Let me know that you are just mine,
And I promise everything will be just fine.

Because she never was...

It is a catch 22?

Than why do I always lose?
Not a 50/50,
I don't even know where I belong.

I understand what you are trying to say,
I know you can't move on.
At least now I know we aren't so equal,
I will never balance the scale.  

You blame him for being too noble?
No such thing.

I want there to be more cracks in the concrete wall.
So I can get in.
But he wins.
And I sin.
He is kin.
I want to begin.

The howling winds,
The coldest rain,
The smile on my face,
My black eyes full of pain.

Good for you two.

They like the way you bleed,
They like the way you scream.
It's a service to you and them,
It's a service that they need.  
You are a device.
You are a tool.
A Swiss army knife of pleasure.
Even if it costs you an arm.
Sharing is caring you know,
We share my blood in an oath.
Sister and I by blood,
Is this ******?
Will I ever get enough?
I have scratches,
I have scars,
I got bite marks all over my arm.
Takin blood,
Takin pain.
Because darling I love your eyes when your insane.  
We are the true animals,
We both come alive as we sense blood.
Your sharp blades and euphoria,
Are what really tie me to the ground.

And I smile the whole time,
Knowing that,
My pain is your pleasure.
Then I fade away.

Only to stop you at your discretion.

This dark room is so familiar,
As my eyes take it in.
Memories of lying there,
Lying in our sin.
Over used devices,
Will meet their breaking point,
Some are happy,
Some are sad,
Some pass the joint.
But I can't help but recall,
How I felt in the dark.
So unsure of where I was,
But certain of what we are.
Can't erase the shadows,
That existed even in absence of light.
Outlines of death and fright,
Watch me all night.
This darkness is so familiar,
I know I've been in this room.
I want to recall those feelings,
But I want them,
With you.

Push a button,
Ding ding ding,
Watch all,
The wheels,
And gears,
Spin.
The evil,
Sin sin sin,
Greedy *******,
Smoke,
The hope,
Away.
Never stays,
For nature.
Plays and plays,
There is no cure.
Smoke,
Sin,
Greed,
And lust,
Burn them all,
That's a must!
Don't forget,
The missionaries.
Their words,
Of Armageddon,
And hate.
All kindle,
For the,
Fire.
Burn,
The once,
Wooded land.
Melt all,
The gold.
How come,
Sitting,
In one spot,
Never seems,
To get old?
Burn it all,
Purge the land,
Join me,
As I take,
Shots of sand.

I feel so alone,
Staggering down a dark hallway,
So many happy masks hang on the walls.
I wear no mask,
And bear a frown,
My own sad crown.

Everyone has someone,
Masks painted to smile,
Maybe only for a little while,
Till I can end their denial.

Why so alone?
You have a good life.
You don't,
Need anyone,
Didn't you say that,
Last night?

Everyone has someone,
Masks painted to smile,
Maybe only for a little while,
Till I can end their denial.

I thought you were strong,
Thought you didn't care.
But you know,
It's the sight,
Of you crying,
I can't bear.

Everyone has someone,
Masks painted to smile,
Maybe only for a little while,
Till I can end their denial.

So it's come down to this,
You found it all out,
You are bacteria,
In a sea of trout.
Nothing special no real positive of sides,
You know it too that's why you hide and cry.

Everyone has someone,
Masks painted to smile,
Maybe only for a little while,
Till I can end their denial.

You're trapped in a box,
One way mirrors surround.
I can see everyone,
But I'll never be found.
Where are the arms,
To hold me together?
I'm shattering,
Alone forever.

Stick and a rope,
Abolish my hope,
Slowly I walk,
Till I reach infinity.
My goal a tease,
As it hangs in front of me,
Never will get,
What I think I deserve.
In my face it dances,
Sings about the chances,
So close I can almost taste,
What always escapes me.
Chasing a setting sun,
Racing to finish what I have begun.
Or did I ever even begin?
Can't have what I can't comprehend.
So out of reach,
The sun always has a lesson to teach,
And I learn eagerly,
In hopes one day I can understand...

Understand why,
The sky separates us...