Barker

Barker Jul 2018

Hidden

You will never know
How I feel about you
Because I feel more
Then I would ever dare to show
And more then I would ever dare to say

(c)ibarker

Barker Jul 2018

Nightmares

Nightmares
That's what the memory’s become
...
I wake up to the stars
Pain shoots up every limb.
My vision clears up and I realize that they aren't stars,
They are shards of glass.
I look down at my hand.
It's covered in blood.
I can hear my heart beating to the sound of sirens.
I clutch my chest.
I hear shouting but it's distant.
My vision goes in and out of focus.
I realize I'm dying.
...
Then I wake up.
Sweat drips down my shaking body.
That's the only memory I have left of you.
Everything else is locked away in my mind,
Suppressed by medication.

(c)ibarker

Barker Jul 2018

To My Darling

Ain't nobody hurt you like I hurt you
But ain't nobody needs you like I do
I know that there are others that deserve you
But my darling, I am still in love with you

But I guess you look happier, you do
My friends told me one day I'd feel it too
I could try to smile to hide the truth
I know I was happier with you

Baby, you look happier, you do
I knew one day you'd fall for someone new
But if they break your heart like lovers do
Just know that I'll be waiting here for you

Ed Sheeran Happier

Barker Jul 2018

Turn to gold

Everything I touch just turns to stone,

I want someone who will hold me when I’m sad and whisper in my ear to wake me up,

She told me how she doesn’t like how my head is always in the clouds.

She said “If you just grew up then it wouldn’t be so rough.

I just don’t want to leave this life all alone.

So darling please listen to these 4 words.

Please Keep Loving Me
Because our hearts speak fluently
So baby,
Please Keep Loving Me

(C)ibarker

Jul 2018

Ksenia

In Mourning

Darling,

I'm in love with you.
And I can't sleep because I am mourning for us.
You will leave,
You have no choice.
I will stay...
But we could have had such a great life together.
Oh darling can you imagine?
Waking up to each other every morning and falling asleep tangled into one, as the moon bathed us in her shimmering light.
Promising to stay by each other's side till death finally caught on to us, realising that our happiness is far too good to be true.
Darling, there is so much to say, but no words to say it with.
Can't we figure this out?
Is there really no other way?
Darling I love you.

Barker Jul 2018

The Moon Sends You My Love

I just had a vision. 3 years from now, one late night at my university campus, I look out the window to see the moon.
I ask the moon to send a message from me to you saying,
"I love you and I miss you."
And I know that wherever you are, you'll look at the moon and hear my message. We'll spend the night having a conversation through the moon and I'll make a wish, just like Brendon Urie once said,
"Hey moon, please forget to fall down. Hey moon, don't you go down."

(c)ibarker

Barker Jul 2018

The Song We Made For Us

We dance in the street with no music,
But we listen to the same song in our minds.
It's our song,
The one that we made with our love.
Our hearts beats in sync,
Our body is lost in the flow of the rhythm.

(c)ibarker