Bailey Ann: Favorites

Sep 2013 Bailey Ann

Dev

They call me the Ice Queen.
My heart embedded in a sheet of arctic glass.
Impenetrable and safe in the confines of it’s frosted walls.

Snowflakes hit my cheeks as if laughing about my frozen state,
“you’re smart never to fall in love” they whisper as they flutter.

The words sting as fresh as frostbite on my toes.

Not being able to love is no summer paradise.
It’s a curse as raw as winter,
As unwanted as an avalanche,
A severe storm.

A fear ruling my body.
Robbing me of all warmth,
As I sit freezing,
Icicles where tears would normally form.

Constantly traveling on snow capped mountains,
I ask myself,
Whether love is the fool or I for not loving?

Once again the wind picks up,
As the childhood memories hail down as reasons
Why I stay in this state of white wasteland fill my mind...

Frigid reminders of a mother who kept re-marrying,
and a father who could never fully commit to a woman despite the chilling loneliness.

No sculpted example of Love carved into my frosty mind.

Remaining as uncertain of what Love even means,
As if my mind were slipping on black ice,
I plunge back into the safety of snowfalls,
Scared of what it means to be anything but numb.

But hope is an odd thing.

Hope to one day feel the glacier surrounding my caged heart to melt.
Hope for the goosebumps to stop tickling my arms.
Hope for the ice to one day thaw as I make my escape from

My never-ending Ice Age.

Jul 2013 Bailey Ann

Mad Girl's Love Song

Jul 2013 Bailey Ann

Sylvia Plath

Mad Girl's Love Song

"I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead;
I lift my lids and all is born again.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

The stars go waltzing out in blue and red,
And arbitrary blackness gallops in:
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.

I dreamed that you bewitched me into bed
And sung me moon-struck, kissed me quite insane.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

God topples from the sky, hell's fires fade:
Exit seraphim and Satan's men:
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.

I fancied you'd return the way you said,
But I grow old and I forget your name.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

I should have loved a thunderbird instead;
At least when spring comes they roar back again.
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)"

Jul 2013 Bailey Ann

i think i'll stop trying

Jul 2013 Bailey Ann

REAL

i think i'll stop trying

Tried writing poems
About the beauty you hold
but i couldn't
So i tore the page apart

Tried writing poems
Of the smile that makes me forget
of everything
but i couldn't
so i crumbled up the page
and threw it away

Tried making a song with my guitar
of the way you make me feel
but this feel is far to great
for strings to play
so i put it down
and walked away

Tried sleeping by thinking of ways
i would kiss you
if you would by side
but you would never would be by my side
so i turned over closed my eyes
and slept away

Tried thinking of ways i would tell you
of how much my heart beats for you
but i was afraid you would walk away
not saying a word
so i stopped thinking of ways to tell you
and hoped you would come for me
but you never did...

Mar 2013 Bailey Ann

Hey, That's No Way To Say Goodbye

Mar 2013 Bailey Ann

Leonard Cohen

Hey, That's No Way To Say Goodbye

I loved you in the morning, our kisses deep and warm,
your hair upon the pillow like a sleepy golden storm,
yes, many loved before us, I know that we are not new,
in city and in forest they smiled like me and you,
but now it's come to distances and both of us must try,
your eyes are soft with sorrow,
Hey, that's no way to say goodbye.
I'm not looking for another as I wander in my time,
walk me to the corner, our steps will always rhyme
you know my love goes with you as your love stays with me,
it's just the way it changes, like the shoreline and the sea,

but let's not talk of love or chains and things we can't
untie,
your eyes are soft with sorrow,
Hey, that's no way to say goodbye.
I loved you in the morning, our kisses deep and warm,
your hair upon the pillow like a sleepy golden storm,
yes many loved before us, I know that we are not new,
in city and in forest they smiled like me and you,
but let's not talk of love or chains and things we can't
untie,
your eyes are soft with sorrow,
Hey, that's no way to say goodbye.

Mar 2013 Bailey Ann

mental illness

Mar 2013 Bailey Ann

Emily Mackenzie

mental illness

first
you ignore your medication
to feel healthy

then
you break hearts
to make yours mend

soon
you smoke your cigars
to breathe easy

but not until after
you empty your stomach
to feel full

before you know it
you're slitting your skin
to patch yourself up

eventually
you **** yourself
to feel alive

and
you smile
to hide the sadness
that never goes away

self-destruction
is the only non-destructive thing I know
for it keeps me alive
while driving me insane

Mar 2013 Bailey Ann

Who do you Become?

Mar 2013 Bailey Ann

REAL

Who do you Become?

The sun Fell
Each step burning
The heat nibbles at my feet
And my bones
Buried under leaves
And you cold hands
Wrapped around me

Hanging over me
The drops of melting years

Dreams becoming cold
Lingering words
Lingers on my mind
I have no choice now
But to hug my sins
That are driving me old

Memory's of that afternoon
Breaks Through like a wave
Escaping now
Disappearing now
old days...

Talk to me
With the sound of your teeth
Eating at my nerves

Wanting to breath
Under water,
Burnt liquid
Troubles my guts

Oh how i love
To see you glimmer
Over the city

Turning tight
Forever forgot
Fast alive
gasping for love...

Hey,stop
Painting on your knees
Hey,stop
Breaking your fists
Who are you?
Who are we?

Mar 2013 Bailey Ann

I walk upon dark clouds

Mar 2013 Bailey Ann

REAL

I walk upon dark clouds

I like to see you shine
shine above the world
that had been dark
for many years
oh, how i love to see you
shine...

Theres no man
no man
that loves you
like him
so why am i here?

Mar 2013 Bailey Ann

Plain and Simple

Mar 2013 Bailey Ann

Daniel Magner

Plain and Simple

lonely

Mar 2013 Bailey Ann

Hippie Sale

Mar 2013 Bailey Ann

Mike Hauser

Hippie Sale

Over a cup of morning java
Scanning my daily mail
I came upon an advertisement sheet
That exclaimed in BOLD rainbow pastel

Grand opening of a store that has everything
On the corner of Daisy and William Tell
The one thing I saw that interested me
Is they were having a back to "60's"  Hippie sale

Of course I stopped what it was I was doing
Hopped in my Lexus and left right away
The excitement had my heart all in a flutter
This I guarantee is going to be a good day

They weren't kidding when they said they sold it all
I'd been wandering the store for quite a while
That's when I came to what it was I had come here for
Before me in trippy little colors, the hippie aisle

So I bought me a couple colorful hippies
With my 25% coupon I was able to save
The Hippies even  came with a bonus
Fresh cut flowers and Jefferson Airplane tapes

When I got home I showed them to their room
Black light posters and colored beads hung from the door
As luck would have it I bought an Indian hemp rug
From Pier One just the day before

They taught me transcendental meditation
While I taught them both how to bathe
Their lessons broadened the mind
My lessons the nostrils saved

I soon had a groovy little hippie pad
In which organic vegetables and enlightenment grew
We'd sit around crossed legged in a  purple haze at night
Playing psychedelic tunes on our Kazoo's
And I was pretty good too! Who Knew!

Yes, a house of happy hippies
Is a happy hippie house indeed
Especially when Wendy Crystal Sky...Yes, that's her name*
Brews her famous dandelion tea

I highly recommend the purchase of hippies
I couldn't be any happier with mine
Sure beats the punk rockers I got on close out last year
*But that my friend is another tale for another time...

Mar 2013 Bailey Ann

morning routine

Mar 2013 Bailey Ann

Wispy

morning routine

tips of hats
hand-blown kisses
closing of doors
goodbye wishes

eight a.m.
five years old
eternal memories my heart still holds