i hope i stop missing you some day .
it’s not even you,
it’s the you i remember
he loved me ,
so endlessly,
that after every inconvenience
i wish for his embrace
years later
i hope one day,
your memory doesn’t sour my day,
and i’m able to just be
not miss the him that you were
i hope i stop replacing you,
bitterly,
being confused when it fails
i don’t want to meet anyone like you,
or someone completely opposite,
or to date you now,
i want him.
take me back, to when we met
before me, before you,
to him and her ,
years ago.
i want to stand under the tree in the corner ,
ride in your car down the winding dark roads.
i want to hear him swear to never leave,
one more time .
hold my body while i sob,
stop the shakes,
one more time.
i ache for him everyday.
sobbing.
you can’t give him to me ever again,
can you?
i want to know peace.
i want to be at peace.
i want to feel free.