i hope i stop missing you some day .
it’s not even you,
it’s the you i remember

he loved me ,
so endlessly,
that after every inconvenience
i wish for his embrace
years later

i hope one day,
your memory doesn’t sour my day,
and i’m able to just be
not miss the him that you were

i hope i stop replacing you,
bitterly,
being confused when it fails


i don’t want to meet anyone like you,
or someone completely opposite,
or to date you now,
i want him.

take me back, to when we met
before me,  before you,
to him and her ,
years ago.

i want to stand under the tree in the corner ,
ride in your car down the winding dark roads.
i want to hear him swear to never leave,
one more time .
hold my body while i sob,
stop the shakes,
one more time.

i ache for him everyday.
sobbing.
you can’t give him to me ever again,
can you?

i want to know peace.
i want to be at peace.
i want to feel free.