Silence
is the golden time
to say the perfect thing
or let it go
and let it slide into a point where someone has to say something
who is it
what will they say

how will they say it
is this going to hurt
will it be something personal
or too revealing
something i don't want to hear
or know about myself
or them

just sit in it. and feel your stomach tense up.
and feel the breathe in the room get ****** up
and the people
paralized
for a split second
not able to move

and then it clicks
and the right button was pressed
and all of the tension built up into the silence
fueled the laughter
and now there's stomachs busting
people howling
Shouting stuff out in the crowd
A room, spontaneously combusting into laughter

one by one
soldiers, knocked down, picked back up
And ready to be hit
with more
silence

It takes time

Some time feels like 4ever
Some time goes by and you're mad cuz it's over
Sometimes it gets renewed
And your faith is fresh
Like a cold glass of brew
In time, the glass is empty, overflowing
Never knowing until you try
And if you give up
U never really tried
No man should cry
What I was taught
But after battles fought
A new lesson I bought

It takes time

the true story
behind the curtain
the things you have to learn
about what's not being said
is so hard
to decipher
what's truth and what isn't
what is all in your head
what is real
what is make belief
what is imaginary, what is the triumph over love?
what is it?

it's difficult
tough to grasp
understand
wrap anything around
no need to feel a frown
no need to worry
it takes care of itself
just like anything else
in this situational life

what can i control
what must i let be
how can i be free
of the love that i'm in
this **** makes me laugh
reading it
because it's so
to the heart
but yet
no one knows
who i'm talking about
but if you've ever been felt this way
by a man before
then it's you
so thank u, hats off to you

you don't have to do nothin
but the things you do
to make yourself beautiful
i appreciate that too

i like when your eyes are brown
i like when your eyes are hazel
i like when your hair is short
i like when your hair is braided
i like your smile, it's radiant

i like when you talk about the memory
of meeting me
and what it means
and everything that gleams
and glistens in your eyes
in the twilight of the night

i like seeing your name on my phone
i never knew that a name could make me feel a certain way
a string of text
a collection of letters
that cut deep to my heart
and open up my stomach
like peeling an apple
or an orange
a delicious fruit
you're so sweet

the things you say
really get me
like
they really shake me
and cut me to my knees
you're the best disease
the best emotional illness
the best sickness
a weak stomach

you're the tear coming down my face
and it was all worth it
and i want you to know
you're so worth it

the pain i feel
and the heartache
will never replace
how i really feel for you
and the things you do
you're just you

i don't want you to be anyone else
or change who you are
come take a ride in my car
let's talk til after dark
and wake up in the morning
man, that's the best part

to open my eyes
and instead of you being a dream
you're laying right next to me
in bed with me

a kiss on the cheek
and a soft good morning
let me cater to you
i want you to feel comfortable in my home
because you have my heart

now we are here
and the end is not near
nowhere in sight
and i hope i never see it
you're going to last forever
i hope i see you in my dreams
and awake with you from my sleep

why did this have to happen to us
what did we do to deserve this
besides deserve each other
i have tears that come from my eyes
i want you to know girl
they are for u
cuz i feel so strongly for u
it's in liquid form
i spit it through my eyes
i loved your big brown eyes
i know i saw what i saw in your eyes
it was love
and your glowing smile
never seen anything like it
in the night time
u really glowed
im in so much pain
so u should never read this
because i know u dont want me to feel pain
u love me too much
but please
if there's someone in your life
that can do it for me
let them do it
just do me one favor
never forget me

dreams are what bring us into fruition the manifestation of your destination, your life unraveled into a steep inclination, zero hydration, oxy cotton honda station, too much sleep, not enough, work, too much sleep mind go bizerk

do not worry about money
do not worry about love
do not worry about ***
do not worry about your being
do not worry about people

do not worry about letting them down
because in the end
they will not be around

and no one will know
the things that you did
unless you realize
that we're all just some kids

playing together
sharing our toys
girls will be girls
boys will be boys

and just when you see
it happening naturally
so fluently, so openly
that is the best way to be
because it's all just a dream

roll another one
some bubble gum
make it a double ***
call her to the room
she's already in your room
two ******* i consume
at the double tree
that's where they **** with me
these girls are luxury
can't keep my company
put my **** on her tummy
watch me ******* money

I saw her in court yesterday
I saw her at sweetwater last night
I saw her this morning
I may have seen her in my dreams
I can't remember
She still follows me
as her memory fades
I still see her
small glimpses
as she sinks slowly into the water
I'll never forget that
girl
The first girl
I ever fell in love with

Look beyond that deceiving smile, underneath that soft heart are words that'll rip you up like a crocodile chomping down on it's prey. You better pray that something happens to you to make you realize, otherwise, when that disguise comes off, you'll see the demon in her eyes. Slayer. Man killer. Heart ripper. Under any weather, ******* heart is made of leather. So don't sweat her.

I dunno y I have to cry
I don't want to but the feelings arent thru
I miss u
and the things u do

Your skin
your smile
the way I used to surprise you
why can't I have it NEmore?

your love is no longer
it can't grow stronger
it's over
and I will never reach closure

I no longer want this to be real

Lord please help me
I want her back God but I know
that can't ever happen

why did this happen?

it's the worst pain I ever had
I went from happy to sad

I'm swimming in a bath of emptiness
And the loneliness never forgets
to keep me company

Lord please save me from the love in my heart
it's tearing me up

I want to be made new
I want memories to be through

I wish she was here
I thought she was so cute
Help me forget

I want a new you
a new love
a fresh start

This time
I hope it never
falls apart

i remember first meeting you. you said you saw me on the bus.
i said, where were you sitting? and you said, i wasn't on the
bus. then we met later. and then you came to see me later.
and then we came home, and kept drinking, and i vomited. then
i took a shower, and you made me grits, and we had ***. and i
thought i'd never hear from you again. and then you came
back. and again. and again. and we became best friends, just
for a short minute. but within that minute, it felt infinite.
and now it's dead. and my car broke down again.
so i have to get back on the bus.

don't even re read it just re write it, not trying to decipher it
just write again, and continue til the night is dim, and the lights are off
and when you miss her when u click the lights off
thinkin about whether or not she misses u, and how she feels about u
the anger and the pain and the joy she went thru
which part will she remember years from now
will she see it as a frown
will she know it was meant to be
will she look back thankfully
these are things i contemplate, analyze, negotiate
but in my right mind of state
i gotta do what's best for me
tryin to set it straight, in this great state, GA, the big peach
who am i to her but just an old fruit fallen from the tree
branch out and explore a new me
there's never anything better than being the one to set you free
and that's how i know we'll all look back thankfully
because we set each other free
and that's the best we could have given, no more heart in prison
now let's make it happen, the world's waiting for us
and there's no one else that's gonna do it  like we do
or used to, just me and u, except we're separate
in a different city, town, state, world, geographic location, emotional sensation
after all that *******
i just wish, man, nah, i don't regret anything
it was fun and it was cool
what else is there to do?
so much, so much, so lot, out there, in our world
so much, to do. so much. so much.
so let's do it

sometimes things are calm, sometimes like a storm, sometimes I feel warm and luke, sometimes I puke
sometimes it's flashes and dances galore
sometimes i'm day dreaming about a *****
sometimes i can't get her off my mind
even when i know this obsession is blind
and i can't help but to think to myself
that i need help from obsessing over myself
and that's all i think about and that's every day
my pain and my pleasure, my pleasure my pain
i don't really know what else to do
i just keep throwing the time for a loop
i spin it twice backwards and three times i play
the same song that i listened to yesterday
and i know it feels gay and i hate me this way
but i get sentimental as ****, on some certain days
please cure me of this curse please time oh please do
because i gotta whole lotta things to do

i remember seeing my mom in the kitchen, my dad never had a switch, just a broken paddle, over my brother's ***, **** was hilarious
i always told my mom i loved her, one time in a car ride i made fun of her, to impress my friends, and see what then
i seen some bad ******* in my life, not cuz they're hot, i'm talkin bout ******* who treat u bad
tell u u aint ****, ur hair looks bad, ur ugly, ur mean, **** u, ur unclean
i never let em get me, never let em see my tears, just let them confront their fears, so i can grow wise beyond my years

Don't ever bring a girl home from the bar
Unless you know her don't get head in the car

Because what you don't know is that she just got out
Of rehab, of course, what'd you think I'm talkin about

Not jail, but **** close, she went in for a syringe
Come out the next day and she can't wait to binge

Then she sees you and what's your name? let's head back to your place”
Wow it's that easy, maybe I have a nice face
or whatever the reason,
there's gotta be something else that drives this chicks sleezin

Back to my house, out the door the next day
I'm excited at the prospect of a ******* livin five miles away

Three days, two texts, no response, no rendezvous
I wonder what happened, I thought a phone call was due

Came to find out from a friend aint no joke
The girl OD'ed on heroine, after one final smoke

Now she can't move, can't talk or can't type
No wonder she didn't respond to my text the next night

Now I feel guilty, somehow it's my bad
Maybe my **** has magic powers that drove this girl mad

But reality is, there's no need to gripe
It was the right place, and the wrong time, so I let her borrow a pipe

your bread is weak, you lack toast
my cheese is sick, lactose

some days are like sun rays, in my eyes, some days, i can't see the sun, i shade, get it out of my eyes, the sun's disguise, behind the clouds i envision demise...when the earth collides, and the world explodes, where will i call home, i'll be on my own, in the galaxy a float, looking for another man on a boat, it's just me, out here in the space, nothing else to chase, my dreams are a float, i cannot see home, through the air i roam, and now i finally feel safe. just me in outer space.

something about the morning that feels better when u fall
something about the morning makes you feel special in the fall
when leaves fall, and my heart, i'll never talk about the word
i'll just know
what's hapepning, is a beautiful feeling
and something worth
everything

There's some dangers to the game, some times you gotta watch out for where you put your ****, cuz some of these ******* out here have death traps. If you hit the walls right, she'll come back the next night, next thing you know you're in a fight. Who is this person? How did we meet again? ****, I feel like I'm six feet under, maybe ten.

In deep, but not losing sleep. Still workin, going to shows, lookin for new **'s. That's the life of a ****, or one that wants to be, if you try to graduate, you'll get closer to degree. And it burns when it's not fun anymore, and you realize you're at square one once more.

And you keep chasing a *****, an imaginary person, someone who isn't worth it. She'll find you. That's the truth. You don't have to look for it, cuz it'll scoop you, like a cyclone.

Take you places you'd never thought you'd go. And then it's all ove.

Never talk to you again, I gotta keep it movin. I got **** to do, no time to worry about two.

Your **** is grimey, triflin, that's the only words I can think of, I want to put a rifle in, your imaginary mouth and blow it, see you later, you're gone, explosion. That's all I think of when I think about that, two chemicals went bad, and now there's combustion. I gotta cool off, see you later, I'm going to another river, I'm going to chase some paper. The finish line is far away, but I'm going to make it, and if anyone else tries to take it, then I know they're just fakin. Goodbye for now for good forever and never, again will I think about that person I wrote about in the beginning of this poem. **** it. I'm out of town.