all the time
i'm feelin
sensitive as ****
like i'm hurt
trying to come up with something
that's gonna clear my pain
and make it go away
but some part of me
wants it to stay
so i can use it
to spray
the hottest ****
ever did
i want the world to know
how i feel
i want them to feel
my pain
and when i possess that
i will reign

A set of rules on how to break up when we break up. Might be having a good time here at this restaurant, applying your make up.

But when we leave and go, we're separate separately, a break from you and me.

But if this keeps happening, and I come home, and you meet me here, and now we're here, here's a set of rules, they're loud and clear:

No cheating and don't let me be misleading I'm not talking about the ****** pleading and the needing, if your truth is used and trust abused that is when we both lose, and no longer fused, we have to split.

Arguments and anger talk and a lack of communication, a big thick wall. That is when this is no longer a free for all, we part our ways, we're free to all.

At last. No contact. Got my stick and sack, there's no coming back.

I don't want to know or see
any of your friends
or their friends
or our friends
from when we
first began
I don't want to see them
or hear them
mention or remind
I want you out of my life

This is what I abide and believe
If that what's true
from your point of view
Then maybe this contract we don't have to do

These are the break up rules
and if you agree
it's nice to meet you
let's make plans for two

she asked me if i included
all the stories
i wrote about her
in my book

no
because a girlfriend of mine
told me
that person
doesn't deserve
to read
your creative genius
you are hurt
and whoever they are
they are a ****
and they don't care

before that she ****** me
and texted me
saying i had a big ****
but to the point let's stick
as i was saying to the original chick
that it doesn't matter
because that person
(her)
doesn't care

but my words came out in silence
because she didn't even hear
what i was saying
she didn't care
there was someone in her ear
a distraction from the near
but it was meant to be
because my words to me
were taken loud and clear

they dont know what i know
the side i see
the dark side that creeps
that she spits
and the fleas
coming out of her mouth
a disgust
coming from her gust
why are you still in the shower
ughh
where's my glasses
i don't know
ughhh
what about me
what about me
ughhh
i gotta go
time to flee

you know how i know i won the game
after it was played
only she remained
she ate remains
now she's stained
with my blood
if she cant sleep at night
there's a reason
other men lay creep
and fright
good luck to the one whose soul desired
now that i've seen it
feel despised
when she looks me in the eyes
i cannot see
the clarity
i experience now
the battle won
i live on
and she must remain
by herself
to this day
and tomorrow
and after that

while my soul remains

my heart hurts so much right now and i just can't really

it hurts me so bad
it hurts me so bad
i don't know why
but it hurts me so bad

i guess
i feel like
i just want to keep her at arms length
and talk to her about happy things
and only happy things

when u see someone
it changes things
and how u think

i feel like
i just took a step back
and a step forward
but i can't decide
which one it is

to go away
push further
or to stay
and try harder

i'm so mixed up in my heart right now
i want her back so bad
but i don't know if she's still there
my heart hurts so bad right now
i want her back
but i think she's gone

i want her back but i think she left
i saw her looking cute in that pretty dress
i forgot how much her smile meant to me
i forgot how much i miss her laugh
i can't write anything else but pain
my heart is stained
and it feels like forever

i sat and babysat my nephew today
i made him laugh, and i thought about her
with me in the room
she was there with me tonight
i made her laugh too

as i sit in this seat
i keep slumping over
i keep slumping over

i want her to come back
and be with me
but i think it's over
although that feels like never

I remember when
someone broke in
and stole my heart
never saw it coming
it happened at the start
and a few months later
I got a call from you
saying someone got
shot and killed
at your new place
like a child
I thought it was a game
you slept that night in fear
while out at the bar I remained
to me that was the day
that my love went away
and to this day my heart
cries and screams
I should have been there
by your side
and put your mind at ease
to let you know
I care about you more than me
but now I'm stuck here
with this bad disease
crying won't complete
and words can't describe
how much I miss thee
and I've always wanted you
but your love does not come free
I hated things about you
because they're what I saw in me
that's why I have to learn to love
me and only me
and hope and believe
that one day
I can let you be
and I want to let you know
that I forgive you for everything
and the next time I see you
I'm giving you this letter
even if it's in a dream