Fatigued is all I ever seem to be now
and everything looks hazy
My eyelids close before my brain decides to treat me with a special kind of crazy
Slowly I start to drift away to what I only know as peace
Until I feel your groping hands caress across my cheek
Across my lips, across my chest, across my legs, across my feet
I hear you breathe beside my ear
and whisper as I sleep
My head is pounding, my mouth runs dry, my body feels so weak
I try to move, I try to run, but I can't
even force my mouth to speak
My thoughts are racing at the touch of you who can't possibly be here
A shadow aparation made of terror,
made of nightmares, made of fear
You are not real, I reason with myself,
but in this moment I cannot tell
Am I dreaming, am I dying, or am I in
my own personal hell?
I can see you lean down close to me growling beside my face
You mutter sweet and terrible words to me in a language I cannot place
I strain to raise my arms or kick my legs, your grip on my throat is crushing
Suddenly I can move again and jump out of bed, but my room is filled with nothing
Shudders run down my spine
and I lay my body back down to rest
I lie awake, try to keep calm, and cross
my arms over my chest
You are not real, I tell myself,
but in those moments I cannot tell
If you are not a punishment sent
to haunt my dreams from hell