atomic blue: Favorites

Jul 2018 atomic blue

Blakbuttafly89

a love I thought I knew or was it just imaginary pieces that my mind made up over time
to help me heal and cover up those past tragedies I choose to leave behind
I mean was the spiritual connection really there
ya love had me stuck in a ever lasting daze I swear
when u died the strong piece of me died with u too I couldn’t breathe completely no air no u
I was 5 month pregnant with our child my baby number 3 when that young boy took u away from me
so there was no one who reached out or called I took that walk of shame everyday by myself no one Alone......
my 7 year old at the time he wiped my eyes from him my tears god wouldn’t allow me to hide I needed him more than he needed me he was There
mommy are u okay?? is the only noise I wanted to hear at the end of each and everyday

now baby boy is here and he looks up to you this is certainties for sure I know... I see the glow in your eyes as u watch him grow!!!
your not quite the man of the house but u are a king you let that show
I thank God everyday for giving me the gift to carry u inside of my body closet to my heart
so sweet and kind mostly made of everything I am not
i love that Part

Jul 2018 atomic blue

Pick and prod.

Jul 2018 atomic blue

Slur pee

Pick and ****.

Silence starves while the blind ******,
The deaf stand around soggy soapboxes
As the mute cry out, standing tall and proud-
Sinking into the ground.

TV screen dreams scream to the consumer,
Better teeth! Perfect skin! A remedy for your horrors!
Watch us die in 4k, crisp and clean color,
Lovely scenes to sate your inner ******.

They gorge on god, swell with his alcoholic blood
Like corpses found plump,
Faced down and washed up on the mud.
Pick and ****, the devil hidden inside of deities
Point your finger in the mirror,
And blame him for these monstrosities.

Satan, an obscenity
Cleanse our sins, vicariously
Watch the needy help the needy help the needy
Help the world fill the fat bellies of the greedy,
With their ripe pockets and freudian slip kisses;
Their black hole secrets and ****** ridden lips.
Fuscous pus oozing from blistering skin,
Eagerly spreading the disease that sleeps-
Dormant within.

-SLuR

Jun 2018 atomic blue

60% of the time, it works every time.

Jun 2018 atomic blue

Slur pee

60% of the time, it works every time.

I hit the target
Every time, almost
Regarded as a ghost,
A sacrificial host.
Oh look! Another
Accidental joke;
A cruel hoax
To stoke a beat
Betwixt my bones,
To gift me worms.
Watch me squirm
Beneath the dirt;
Coax the roaches
From their holes,
Crawl, alone
Across the Earth.

-SLuR

Jun 2018 atomic blue

Let's jump in front of a train!

Jun 2018 atomic blue

Slur pee

Let's jump in front of a train!

Emasculate our brains and
Release these reins
Planted- firm on our stems.

I’ll change the carved course
That makes me just like them
With shaky, unstable hands
Unable to fix this fallen hem.
To hold closed my seams, all nice and neat.
Cover myself, beneath these twisted sheets.
Darkness a lover, that always ***** me deep
And leaves me in the corner, as I gently weep
Softly steals the air I breathe. Consuming,
Surrounding, delicately shrouding me.

Blind my eyes and deafen ears to screams,
And I’ll always ask you an appealing “please?”
To calm the howling winds, that sneak against my window
And make Death weep inside my head, like a freshly scarred widow.

-SLuR

May 2018 atomic blue

I never want to say I’ve tried to kill myself ‘cause that means I would have failed, like at everything else.

May 2018 atomic blue

Slur pee

I never want to say I’ve tried to **** myself ‘cause that means I would have failed, like at everything else.

I hold coward’s doubt

Tuck it away, behind my ear

With wisps of hair to hear

Your whispers, clear.

Unlock the coffer of my thought

With skeleton key, fumbling-

*******, the most intimate parts of me.

Bony hands grasp at my invisible flesh

Clawing away, at the nothing that is left.

May 2018 atomic blue

Unimportant.

May 2018 atomic blue

Slur pee

Unimportant.

I know that I’m small
And tend to build structures too tall,
They inevitably weaken;
Crack, crumble, and fall.
The ruins in this beaten chamber,
A reminder- a cratered scar,
A place for me to sink into the filth
and idly crawl.

To hide from heights of hope,
To run away from your calls.
Get rid of you in thought,
And heart

Abandon all.

-SLuR