It all seems hopeless
But I see your face and know
Those evil eyes you give to me
Are really all for show
You stab me in the back
But I'm happy to be your sheath
Honey, I'm just here to love you
I can take the heat
You may be a traitor
And you may be a con
But I'm here to stay forever
Do what you want, I won't catch on

I try to leave this trap you've caught me in
I know it's all in my head
but still your teeth sink in

You blame me for the **** you've put me through
I thought about my pain
It all leads back to you

You think it's my fault if I hold your words true
Then why do you always tell me
things I already knew

If all you do is reject and insult
How else am I to react
I see now this is the only result

I can only hurt from things that you've done
It never ends, I must end it
I hope you've had fun

Farewell*, little daydreamer. Your time has passed. It is time to grow. An adventure awaits in the cruel reality. One much too harsh for the likes of you. So much to learn. You will one day know the love you want to yours;f. I, the curious lion, will bring you the joy you so wish for. Goodbye, old friend. I'm sure I will see you again.

No, no, no. Don't cry little daydreamer. The night is too dangerous for that. You'll attract the deep fears. You know what happens when they come. They burn down your perfect little daydream.
            A little daydream for a little daydreamer.
   You know what they'll do then. They'll burn you with lies and sadness.
           You know what attracts them. It's the lights. So bright. Welcoming the fears when you're weak.
         Don't you dare turn off those lights.
   You know what happens then. The nightmares come. You know what they do too. They devour real you. They leave weak little daydreamer. They leave you
          Oh no, we can't have that,
   Don't be a little daydreamer. The night is too dangerous for that.

One day, Curious Lion will be Great Lion.
She just knows it.

Shut your ******* mouth
I don't want to hear it
Just tell me now
Why won't you submit

I don't care who's at fault
Stop telling these lies
I don't care who did what
You're both full of flies

She's not a ******* goddess
Yet you worship at her feet
You're so ridiculous
You're still incomplete

You let her hurt you
You're killing yourself
I'm so ******* through
I just want to help

You keep all your secrets
Even when I share mine
I guess trust is your weakness
So you tell me you're fine

Maybe not trust
It's still a dumb game
You do what you must
and I'll do just the same

Don't know
Where I am
Where can I go
If anywhere at all
I want to go home
But where is my home
but a house
Where all I do
Is sit alone
I cry, or won't
Just sit there, numb
Come up with sad words
Or a song to be sung
Memories come
But never go
Kick and taunt me
Make me feel low
Throw me into a pit
A never-ending hole
Filled with despair
As I fall to no end
Lungs empty of air

A new dance,
A fretful prance,
The lion celebrates her change.

No more fears,
No whispers in her ears,
No more nightmares to devour the real her.

She is the real her.

The vines grip me so roughly
Just how I love it so awfully
No matter where I run, it won’t be undone

Tangled in thorns and ******

Hold me down and tear me open
I should have listened to the omen
Keep strength until you can no more
Now my eyes are red and swollen

The vines grip me so roughly

In my actions, I find it justly

I made my mistakes and now I must break
My prison holds me lovingly

Crow is feeble,
Caught in surprise.
They were looking for young,
when they should have been looking for adult eyes.

The violin plays a young tune
Turned panicked from innocent
The cello with plucked chords
Plays a pizzicato of black lungs and smoke
The bass plays a low tune of sobs
Somber over the lost viola

You’re a friend
But i don’t know you at all
You demand i return feelings
I guess it’s not my call

You say ‘I love you”
And plead i say it back
You think this is love
But this is just a wreck

You say this is good
I think it’s a mistake
You think I am a dream
but all my words are fake

You asked me at midnight
I said that I had missed
You said you wouldn’t miss this chance
but I don’t think i want this

Finger reach up to the sky,
                          Then fall
I lay down to rest my tired soul,
                          Eyes open
Mind eye opens now,
                          Rest is over
My Fingers no longer touches the ledge,
                          Hole is larger
I stare hard at the moon,
                          Then blink
It all seems further now,
                          Hole keeps growing
I reach to start the climb,
                          Then realize
I haven't climbed at all,
                          Just illusion
I think to start climbing
                          Doesn't happen
I scream for help,
                          On inside
No one hears me,
                          Never made sound
The hole is deeper now,
                          Hope is farther
I lay down in the hole,
                          No way out
I close my eyes,
                         No help exists

Black as night, with pointed beak
Horrible life, nasty fate
Now your future does seem bleak
All your hopes gone to ****
Devilish bird has a contract to create
He'll take away your problems if you'll permit

Like a doll with blood
my ink comes pouring out
I never wanted this
but the ink keeps pouring out
I plead and plead for it to stop
I want the ink to dry and clot
but the ink keeps pouring out

Like the blood you people bleed
Ink is blood that comes from me
Instead of red rivers running
Comes words from cuts stunning
To live blood is what you need
I don’t want this flood, I beg and plead
The flood comes from a strain
But both blood and ink leave dark stains
It’s the substance i am without
But the ink keeps pouring out

I live in both realities. One in the light, the dream, and one in darkness, the real world. The light is welcoming.  Here true happiness is achievable. True love exists. I can be happy with myself, and my attempts to do so aren't futile. The dark is cold but true. The real world. No one can ever be truly happy here. True love doesn’t exist, for one will always love too much and one will always love too little. Attempts for love are thrown away like nothing because here you are nothing, just like everyone else. The cold truth. Love isn't a gift, it's cruel and unforgiving. Most important, I will never be happy with who I am. I am nothing.

No, No, No, No, No! Stop thinking. Don't think.
How could you?
Are you nothing but a little  daydreamer?
We've worked so hard.
Now you throw it all away.
Maybe you are nothing.
Perhaps Crow is right.
No
We will not submit to his claws.
We will scratch. We will bite.
We will drag ourself out of hell.
I have not given up on you.
For you see, I am you, you are me.

You must be a figment of my imagination
You just can't be real
I really can't believe it
You are quite the steal

I never thought my life could get so good so quick
You came out of nowhere
Now to be without you
Is something I couldn't bare

I think I've become a cliché
Because I couldn't live without you
And you hit me like a flash
Or my love for you is true

Of course I have my doubts
Nothing this good would happen to me
But really I think you're perfect
I think we were meant to be

I tried to get over you
Now I want to be over this
I tried to meet new people
But the people make me sick
I don’t want to love another
I’d prefer not to love at all
They say there is no trouble
Right before the fall

A wish
A touch
A kiss
Pure lust
Lost in each other's eyes
So happy we could die

But this isn't forever
We're no longer lovers
To great a cost
Happiness was lost
Love just cannot give
And we no longer live

Sneaky little lion cub. One with tricks and lies. Hard to believe you can make such feats.
       Crow still thinks you're little. Crow still thinks you're his. That you are just a plaything.
                     He doesn't know the truth.
      He thinks you're in love. he thinks you're stuck with him.
                   *You're Not

Am I the little daydreamer? Am I the curious lion cub? Am I my true self? Will I ever be my true self? Does such a thing exist? I want to know what I am, what I will be, what I am meant to be. I want to know me. I want to be myself, not someone else. I want to be me and not be ashamed of being so. I want everyone to know me too. Then again, I want no one to know me. I want to know what I should and more. And I want to never be afraid to do so.

Never trust a soul
Not like I do
The pain will never end
Everyone always betrays you
And no one is really your friend
All will cause your suffering
Because really no one cares
And in the end you have no friends
Because life is never fair

Never felt love from anyone
Aching for another body
Too close and touching
Have and hold
Arch into loving
Never wanted to love so close

Spent too many nights with you
Pour over me, let me mix
I've never loved anyone like you
Can feel it my center
Excited when you entered
Return to me again my love-

Don't say that you don't want me
Aching for another body
****** and viscous like an animal
I've never loved anyone like I love you
Show me how to be so carnal

It’s never in our lover’s eyes
that we unfold so clearly
It’s in the eyes of those who hurt us
in which we flower dearly
A lover never knows the fear
but an abuser know yours well
A mother never knows your tears
like the rascal borne from hell
It’s only under fear of death
In which we all unwind
Though you haven’t yet for me
I’ll make you, given time

The twilight dawns
It breaks the sun
Its fires die
The moon's undone
It's hell on earth
My love is gone
Bring back my love before the sun

I am not the freak
I'm not the disease
I am the one who never got a chance
I'm the one who's always on their knees
I need a teacher
Teach me about friends
You can lie to me all you ever want
My naive brain would never comprehend
I gave you my heart
Put it on your shelf
But now you tell me you don't want it
All you've taught me
Is how to hate myself

It's in your eyes
Something silver, something bright
When I look at you
I find the light
You bring me out of the cave
The dark I was in
Please look at me
Give me the love I crave

Perhaps it was the thought of the approaching holiday. She wasn’t sure, but she knew that the sudden change to autumn weather put her at peace. It is quite hard for her to pin a reason to her content feeling in the cold. Maybe there is no true explanation. All she knows is that it is something that makes her happy.
The way the breeze slightly moves her bangs, loose from her sloppy bun. The way the leaves fall and form a layer on the ground. The way the sun shines giving the perfect balance to the chilly air. The calming sounds of birds. The air being free of the horrible buzzing of cicada. No more insects bothering her when she’s riding her bike.
They all make the days of Autumn worth it. The happiest time of the year. Even for someone so sad.

There was a time I trusted
But then my mind adjusted
I lost all my friends
This must be the end
Truly I’m disgusted

I know you'll never look at me
I know you'll never care
But I still dream
So I'll never leave your hair
My feelings never change

Don't want to put a label on
But baby you know I can't go on
Not sure if you love me too
I think it's obvious
I dont know who to trust
So many have betrayed
It never goes my way

Maybe I'm sick
Maybe I'm twisted
Let's take a dip
In a deep field of roses

You haunt my dreams
You make them so lovely
Leave my dreams
Make it reality

Twist a knife
Soft and deep
I taste the blood
You make it sweet

Feed me lies
Make me cry
Feed me till
I'm full of flies

I've died again

All around the world lie museums holding beholding artwork upon viewers' eyes.
All filled with valuable things. Famous artwork. Exquisite canvases. Attracting thousands to view such rare objects.
But none such rare objects can compare to her. No finely done statue or column can compare to her meticulous beauty. With a single smile she can best the joyful glow of every piece. Even when sick no illustration can capture her dazzling appearance. She's artfully angelic. A rose among weeds. A sculpture in a museum. A godly painting adorning a bare wall. And, yet, she is so much more.

it burns
how warm, how bright
you could not shield yourself from such a light
years away inside the cave
memory of sun tends to fade
the confusion would surely make one afraid
eyes take time to adjust
after so long living only in night
oh what it is to once again have sight
into the fire
in the light is where it stayed
the delight of being set ablaze
the pleasure is worth the pain
even when it's set alight
in it's warmth it feels so right

Years away inside a cave
fades away memories of the sun
emerging is painful and confusing
the eyes take much time to adjust
but into the fire
one would never want to avoid being burned
if it means feeling the light after years of nothing but darkness.

I think I was born to die
I haven't felt quite right
since you left my side
I haven't been the same
and it hurts to hear the name
I don't know who to trust
I think I'm losing touch
nothing there inside
I think I was born to die

It will never be the same
but I'm not sure who to blame
please, tell if it was mine
or just better off this way

Im running out of time

they tell me I'm insane
Why am I this way

It all seems beautiful in theory
but in reality it will never work
Perfect, if only possible

I feel ******
You know,
after what you did to me
I don't blame you
but it still really stings
I'm such an idiot
should have seen it happening
God I still think of it
I hate myself so ******* much
man how'd I end up in this ****
"If you really love someone it doesn't die or fade, it festers"
sage advice, but you ******* break my heart, throw it in the fires
it's rising, gonna freak, push it down till it lowers
and now I'll obsess pretending you'll change your mind
even though I know that's untrue.

A little light has been shown to me
In the dark, and yet I see
A spark so bright, it burns my eyes
And burns the hate inside of me
I was lost until that light
Though this light isn't mine
Don't leave me yet
I'm waiting for the sun to shine

Imagining a wondrous garden filled with fictive flowers and unbelievable blossoms. Turn waking to reality. But now you cannot think of anything else at this moment. You are trapped in wonderment, then sadness. Can such a place exist outside of daydreams? Will you ever see this place again? Even in a dream state? You long to relive such bliss but it is forever out of your reach.

You've been lied to, swindled, tricked
I get that
But you've let that stop you
You let it stop you from being the wonderful person you are
You've helped me and I never returned the favor
You would never let me. And now you've changed
At least that's what you say
Why must you recede into the darkness
You are a beautiful light
Now the light has dimmed
Don't stop being the light
                              Don't stop being my light.

Sometimes I pass the sidewalk, maybe walking
It’s just strange I can’t hear anything talking
I feel the stares
I find it scares
Especially when nobody is watching

You say you can't hear the laughing
But all I can hear is mocking
you can't see their eyes
All i hear is lies
I know that they're always watching

The pretty blackbirds preening
I can hear their foul screaming
watching me walking
I swear they are watching
though I can't discern meaning

You say you’re horrible
You say there’s nothing left
But I know there is hope left in you
I know there is a love for something in life left
Anything at all
There has to be

This is a cartoon world
and I am a cartoon girl
Drawn up by reality
To escape its own frailty
Now I have only to wake up
But the world is dark too
And it seems that I am stuck

I love you
I feel so sick
keep saying it
I want to be free
I hate how much I love you
Please don't take it away

I looked at what I'd done so far. I didn't know how to finish my drawing and, frankly, after observation, I didn't want to. Of course, I would finish it though. Oh yes, I would befoul my already horrid drawing. Instead of completing the line I was on currently, I drew upwards and scribbled through the entire thing. By this time, I was highly disappointed and annoyed. Yet again have I failed to create decent artwork. So now here I sit, mumbling incomplete thoughts and glaring at my ruined paper. I took it upon myself to tear up the retched thing and throw it away.

It was definitely the smile that first caught her attention. Oh god, that ever present smile of his was wonderful. The next was his obvious confidence. That was something she had always lacked herself. Yes, he had much confidence. Too much, many would think-and even say- but she never minded. Enough confidence for them both to share. Lastly, and most importantly, was his intelligence. His intelligence was plentiful. No one could argue with that. Intelligence was everything to her and he had exactly that. She couldn’t help but look at him in every class they had together. If he was around she constantly thought about how he saw her.
Alas, there stands the problem. She believed there was nothing to see. To him, there wasn’t anything noticeable about her either. She knew that; he had made it very clear that he saw nothing. In fact, he saw nothing in anyone. He just happened to be obsessed with himself. Narcissism. For that reason, she knew there was no chance for her.
In attempt to fix this emptiness she tried to convince herself he wasn’t worth it. He wasn’t a good person. He definitely wasn’t attractive. He was horrible. At first, it felt like a lie; a blatant lie that would never help. Then, after awhile it become more of a truth, until finally she believed it. Now she could look at him without feeling like he was the sun. No, now he was just some kid in her class. It was a romance that was never to be and never existed for either side.

I see your face even though you're not around
Even when I'm loved you're on my mind
I still think about you when I'm down

I see your face everywhere I go
even when I'm loved I think of you
what is this sorcery
burn like you make me burn
drown like you drown me
Witch!

I learn to trust again
only to be taught the same lesson
never share, no confessions
and If you do
dont fail to mention
dont trust too quick, always question

Not everything I do is for you
but sometimes I think about doing so

I've never been one for intimacy
I've been told you can love more than one
But I can't bare to do that to anyone
You make me betray my veiws
how do you do it

When every year, the leaves do fall
Our army’s raise to sound the call
Let it ring the final score
Has come again, the time of war
Let us break the marble walls
The flesh have made to keep us hidden
On dark October nights
May time break the spell forbidden
In the final year of fright
May we rise in glory, fallen
Never again shall we know shame
And shall all others know our pain
For after days of immortal strife
When we all lay in the ground
All is silent in afterlife
And to defeat we have been bound