I know you'll never look at me
I know you'll never care
But I still dream
So I'll never leave your hair
My feelings never change

I looked at what I'd done so far. I didn't know how to finish my drawing and, frankly, after observation, I didn't want to. Of course, I would finish it though. Oh yes, I would befoul my already horrid drawing. Instead of completing the line I was on currently, I drew upwards and scribbled through the entire thing. By this time, I was highly disappointed and annoyed. Yet again have I failed to create decent artwork. So now here I sit, mumbling incomplete thoughts and glaring at my ruined paper. I took it upon myself to tear up the retched thing and throw it away.

It's in your eyes
Something silver, something bright
When I look at you
I find the light
You bring me out of the cave
The dark I was in
Please look at me
Give me the love I crave

A crown and trophy for your troubles, Proud Lion.
What an admired mane. What an admired jaw.
                                        what secrets lie beneath
The Proud Lion has teeth sharp and drenched.
Future's tears weep through your teeth.
Seeps red and dark.
Crow doesn't know what comes.
                                      **you don't know what comes

I'm a fool, aren't I?
I'd like to think you're jealous
But you never cared

I'm a fool, aren't I?
I guess I'm just overzealous
This is just what I feared.

I'm a fool aren't I?
I shouldn't make such a fuss
I should have known you never cared

It’s not about the way I feel
Nor how you feel
It’s about the way you treat me
You can be sad
But you should be making me happy

I accepted you
As you should have done for me
We are friends
But you’re acting differently
Why are you so mean to me?

I’ve finished my test now
but i don’t want to see
I know my grades have dropped
I have no-one to blame but me

I guess I should have studied more
or memorized each fact
Maybe if I’d skipped my chores
I’d have known each exact

Now I can only mope
I should have gotten a better grade
I shouldn’t let this dash my hopes
Look at these mistakes i’ve made

When are you going to leave me?
Don’t try to tell me you won’t
Even if you don’t know it yet
Don’t waste your breath on promises
Because I know you will

Everyone says they won’t
But they always do
They make promises
They convince me I’m worth something
And then they spit in my face and walk away

They leave me without a second thought
They reason that I was never worth it
Worth anything
And they tell me I’m annoying

They say it to my face when they couldn’t
Because they were playing with my feelings
They say I’m ugly
Annoying, mean, and horrible

They played their longest game of pretend
Only I didn’t know it was a game
It was only one for them

And with them goes my hope and will
And I have to ask myself
I really need to ask myself
When will I be worth something?
Will I ever be something?

Wish you were nothing
wish i was dead
I can’t wait
to live again

can’t help me right now
I just need to spend
another moment
alone in my head

Wish you would love me
Wish you’d forget
That i am nothing
Leave me instead

Please don’t waste it
your precious time
Im not worth the suffering
Not yours or mine

I said that I love you
Surely that's enough
I'm nothing but nice
And still you're so rough

I'm trying to change
It's all just for you
Still you hate me
Why so cruel?

I try so hard
I just want to please you
Still you hurt me
I wish you knew

I'm so blind
I guess I'm a fool
I've fallen so hard
**Why so cruel?

Frost clouds the mirror
and clouds my thoughts

I want to touch it
but i guess I ought not

For my heart is too fragile
I'm afraid I might break

I just want to know
how much cold i can take

One day I stumbled upon an unhealthy plan. It had a chance of surviving, but it was slim. It was dying but I could see so much beauty. It spoke to my sad soul. I related to the plant. It caused me to think. Then coming back to reality, I scoffed and stomped on the flower, ripping it apart. How stupid of me to think such things. My life isn't poetic. I was never beautiful. Although, now I could relate to the flower. All crushed and torn apart. Shredded and crumpled. Just like my heart.

You
You left
You promised you wouldn’t leave me
You said you weren’t like the others
You said I was being silly
And then…
YOU TURN AROUND AND WALK AWAY
NO WORDS NO REASON
YOU JUST LEAVE ME
AND WHEN I ASK
YOU SAY THAT YOU NEVER LIKED ME IN THE FIRST PLACE
And all I can do is remember
Trust No one