The day
You and Me
Became
We

The footprints you make in the sand may fade away but your invisible tracks ahead of you will pave the way... follow your intuition...

Overthinking
Breaking down
Whirlwind of emotions
Falling down
Get out of your head
Your on the right track
Times may be tough
But YOUR STRONGER THAN THAT!

Unfathomable times
Indescribable measures
Forever in our hearts
We will always be together

Get up and go
Get out of your head
Listen to your heart
You’ve got this my friend

The opportunity awaits
It’s in the palm of your hands
Close your eyes and make a wish
The new journey is about to begin...

To walk upon the rocky road
To dim your own flame
Rise up from the ashes you made
Letting your soul ignite and spark
Allowing you to see the paved way
Guiding you to be empowered each and everyday...

Collections fill the void of something you’ve lost and couldn’t control in which it takes this part of my journey, these fill the emptiness for the one thing I’ve longed to have for so many years that I lost, and couldn’t hold onto....
Giving me hope, happiness, love, strength and most of all “Healing”

I never had....

That positive pregnancy test

An ultrasound to see you or hear your heartbeat

Moments of happiness knowing our family was growing

Enjoyment of growing a baby inside of me

I never knew you existed, until you were gone....

I never had....

If.
Living in fear.
Is your only world.
Are you even living.
Within this world.
Only knowing fear itself.

To find the light in a darkened cave, may be difficult but suddenly realizing, it’s your heart that shines bright showing you the way...

My story may be broken
But my broken pieces of my story
Make me stronger then the broken pieces that never existed before...

Collections fill the void of something you’ve lost and couldn’t control in which it takes this part of my journey, these fill the emptiness for the one thing I’ve longed to have for so many years that I lost, and couldn’t hold onto....
Giving me hope, happiness, love, strength and most of all “Healing”

Silence speaks maximum volume, noticing the heaviness in your eyes that cry the tears that no one sees but shows the sadness within your heart, yet allowing the strength to pour from the depths of your own soul...

I will rise
I will crash
Like the ocean waves
Coming in fast
I will never give up
I will always be strong
There’s no right answer
It’s ok to be wrong
Staying humble
But most importantly
Staying ME
Loving life
Learning and growing everyday
This is my journey
Inspirational takeaway...

Accepting me for what I do but not taking away credit by living through you...
Climbing your own ladder
Succeeded your journey
Be your own person
Not for what I do
Just be YOU...

Sadness is sometimes covered with a smile, not always seeing tears are a sign of hurting....

Fear is not a destination but rather a learning curve to your ultimate location

Trust in yourself, your gut will always know, whichever way the wind will blow, don’t discourage, stand tall and brave, one day soon, it will become your day of fulfillment.

Looking back to a year ago
Being pregnant but I didn’t know
That heartache will never go away

Half of my heart was given to you
The day we both said
“I DO”

Run down
Emotions on high
Swirling together
Losing the drive
That I used to have
But fighting hard
I’m better than that
I will not let it pull me down
I will stand strong
In the end...

Our stories may be similar
The end result the same
But the journey for all us
Is a different game
We all played
Never being one in the same...

Adventure is out there
Waiting for you to follow it
Surrounded by nature
The sun peeking through the trees
Birds chirping and bright colors to see
Follow your intuition
Trusting your path
Make every step count
Make every moment last
Adventure awaits for you today!

The loss of you
Still doesn’t feel true
Yet here I am missing you


Missing you
comes in waves
Just like the unexpected
mid summer rain

Grieving is hard
Loss is tough
No matter how much time
Unexpectedly, now you shine

Gaining your wings
Sadness it brings  
Your pain is free
But missing you who I can’t see

Loss is hard
Knowing or unexpected
Hurts both the same
I will miss you and I love you
Everyday

Take all the time you need
Grieving the loss of me
But always remember
I’m never to far away
I’m always there in your heart
Forever...

A year ago our lives were turned upside
Global pandemic was announced
Stay at home order was in place
Please stay six feet away
Wash your hands
Cover your cough
Social distance was a must
Only two weeks turned into months
Frantic set in
Grocery stores were a bust
Shelves were bare
Hoarding was in place
Masks must be worn, covering your face
Many lives have been taken away
Families forced to be seen through glass
Don’t hug or kiss me
Our lives changed in a flash
Countless hours for “essential workers”
Who continue to bust our *****
Curbside, takeout, not accepting cash
Dine in at a restaurant, was a thing of the past
Stress and anxiety become sky high
Not being able to say goodbye
Loved ones scared and alone
FaceTime calls or talk on the phone
Words cannot describe
The fear in our eyes
The unknowing of “life”
Endless change of normal times
Disconnected from our daily lives
A year ago our lives were turned upside down
A global pandemic was announced........

The deeper the scar
The harder the pain
Remember your strong
Crying is also okay

There’s fire in her eyes
Yet the pain sorta subsides
As she tries to get by
Still not understanding why

While I was asleep
You came to me
In my dreams
Kissed me on the cheek
Said “I love you”
As I drifted into deeper sleep

You don’t lose yourself, although you may get lost but don’t fear those you have lost along the way, it makes you stronger when you  stand out knowing you’ll be okay...

Not every time
After a storm
Will a rainbow shine....
Even though you can’t see it
It may still be there
If you look closely
Through the clouds
Color will shine
Sending it’s rays
Down to the ground
If you get lucky
You may see double
Meaning magic will happen
Leaving you less troubled

Walking down a narrow path
Torn and tattered drifting fast
Sunshine melting through the branches
Every step forward, taking chances
Never looking back towards the overgrown grasses
Taking each moment in, so no time passes

Looking for lost time is just a waste
You can never get it back, post haste
Every
      Second
          Minute
                Hour
                   Gone by
The ticking of the hands
Is just the result of
                              Lost time

Trying to tell
Myself
I am ok,
This is just my journey....

Journey
To heal,
To learn,
To live,
To love....

This is my own journey....

The moment you realize that it’s a story for you to tell, a story for you to talk about, a story for you to open up about, is the moment you can start to understand and heal, even through the mental pain it’s left behind...

She wants her own space
Where she can just meditate
Connecting with her angels
Saying grace
Surrounded by light
Warm love every lasting
Her presence unknown
Til she finds her right passage
Opening doors to show the way
Take a leap of faith
The path will guide your way...

Fear is purpose
Purpose is trust
Trust is hope
Hope is faith
Faith is love
Love is all around...

Unspoken words of silence, scream higher in decimals than speaking words loud and clear...

The scars that are the deepest can’t be seen, but can be felt to the hardest extreme...

In the shadow of the night, you haunt me in my dreams, that are subliminally a nightmare in the reality of one’s physical awakening, surrounding by the constant reminders of our hidden wounds...

Ignoring the sadness
Covering it with happiness
Doesn’t heal the wounds
That you had no control over
Except the scars that were made
Understanding all the pain
Wont make the wounds go away
But the healing process can begin
Once you face the trauma for your own sake...

The past is in the past for a reason
The present is paving the way
The future is where your heading
Just take every step
Day by day
You’ll get there eventually
If you keep your head up and pray...

For me, writing is a release, where my mind can speak freely, for that reason, I can be me...

Sometimes your emotions get tangled up like a raging lion hunting his prey trying to escape and run away...

The stars aligned with the twinkle of hope, then the clouds rolled in the darkness of the sky, where the stars actually didn’t align....

I may not be exactly where I want to be but where I’m going is where the adventure will await me

In my head
I speak freely and truthful
Why can’t I do that out loud?

Don’t cry that I am gone
You all did nothing wrong
I needed this pain to go away
I’m sorry for leaving you this way
It’s time, now, for me to start my healing
I’m sorry I left you with this feeling
Regret
Sadness
Discomfort
Anxiousness
Leaving you with a hole in your heart
Now that we are apart
One day, we will all reunite, but for now I take my flight
I will always be with you each and everyday
I’m only as far as a look up to sky, as I watch over you from sky high...

When a poem I wrote a couple years back, pops up in my memories when you find out tragic news...

Silent screams from behind the glass
One wrong turn, going to fast
Tears rolling down your face
Filled with so much anger and disgrace
Feeling like I’m in a bad dream
Horrific nightmare taken to the extreme
Dark haze, but no sound to be heard
My soul is rising like a soaring bird
Flashing lights can be seen filling the air
Why me, why us, this doesn’t seem fair
Trying to blink my eyes and wake up from this dream
I can’t believe this is happening to me
Where am I going, who are you all?
Rolling me into a room, don’t let me fall
Tag my toe with my name
Laying on a cold metal bed frame
As for now, I’ll lay right here, scared, alone and in fear
I am gone, but I still feel here
Give my love and my heart, to my dear
I’m sorry for what I did, even if it wasn’t my fault
All of our lives, especially mine, has come to a halt

A true Angel has gained her wings
Her story in Heaven now begins
Our guardian Angel, now she’ll be
Forever in our hearts, holding onto our memories....

RIP sweet Angel, may you dance upon the clouds and shine your smile down on us...