I’d rather be walking on an unsteady bridge then hiding under it knowing everyone will help me no matter what I’ve done or how I got there in the first place

I don’t want to be your instant fix
I don’t want to take your pain away
Swallow me whole or crush me up
Feel me coat your insides like a bad drug
I’m not your punching bag
Releasing your hurt from your past
Don’t come to me only when you need
I’m done giving you sympathy
Don’t ask me to keep you company
My support and guidance is not your drug
I’m fed up, I’ve had enough
Thought you were humbled
Thought you were clean
Guess I was just a little naive

You reached your hand
Out to me
Reluctantly
I opened my heart
To give you support
Wow, was I a fool
To think you wanted to
Restart
Restart your life
Turn a new page
**** I’m the idiot
To think your over
That faze
You went to AA
Because you “were “ an addict
Yes (were) no wait
YOU ARE an ADDICT
Lie to my face
You are a disgrace
We smelled the ****
You can not lie
Oh look, your falling back into your old life
Don’t tell me that your sober anymore
Your sobriety is over
Whenever I look at you
All I see is a walking “drugstore”

That moment where your heart begins to open up a little to support someone....
....then they lie again to your face....
Yup, now your done...

Lies
Lie
Li
L
L
Li
Lie
Lies
Twisted stories
Twisted words
Cant keep them straight
It’s so absurd
Total lies
Right before our eyes
It’s actually comical
To watch all these
Lies
Lie
Li
L
L
Li
Lie
Lies
Unfold

A happy birthday I wish to you
A happy birthday I sing to you
A happy birthday I send to you
Happiest of birthdays to you!

There’s a girl who’s full of life
Has a story for anything
Continues to strive
I’ve always looked up to her
My entire life
Not because I’m shorter
But because she’s mine
She my big sister
Who I love with all my heart
She’s been by my side from the start
Today we celebrate you
All the accomplishments and the struggles too
You are beautiful inside and out
So today I want to scream and shout
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIS
Now make a wish and blow your candles out!

A happy birthday I wish to you
A happy birthday I sing to you
A happy birthday I send to you
Happiest of birthdays to you!

Dark and mysterious
Mischievous behavior
Secretive talking
Laughing and giggling

Ever felt so out of the loop?

Heavy
is
the
heart
that
carries
the
most
love
inside...

Is there ever a clear sign to be seen?

The answer is YES!

Look into the mirror and it will reveal who and where your meant to be...

Where is the love that used to be there
Where is the love when nobody cared
Caring in a good way not bad
When we just showed love for whatever we had
Where has the love gone around the world
We all have opinions and acknowledge what we stand for
But what happened to just showing love
Despite what you personally feel
Can’t we all just take a step back
Spread the love and face the facts
If the love is gone and the support wears thins
In the end we all lose, nobody wins
We are all different in many ways
But we all are born with love regardless in what way
Help me spread the love
Around the world
High above
A smile, a wave, a hug
I don’t care
Let’s just ban together and
SPREAD THE LOVE
Together

Today we say goodbye to you
Can’t believe your gone
You were taken way too soon
You had a hard battle, fought your best
In the end God needed you more
But I thank him for our time together, I am truly blessed
I know your in a better place, but it still hurts without you
This isn’t our final goodbye, it’s see you someday soon
Please watch over and protect us everyday
Wait for us when our time is up so we can be reunited together someday
In remembrance of Gene, We Pray...

Where there’s a will
There’s a way
Where there’s a way
There’s a chance
Where there’s a chance
There is hope
Where there’s hope
There’s dreams
Where there’s dreams
There is love
Where there’s love
There is life
Where there’s life
There is heart
Where there’s heart
There is a purpose

Change comes first within yourself
You don’t  need to prove to you anybody else
First of all be thankful for life
The rest will follow suite and you’ll be satisfied

You have a blank piece of paper in front of you...
                        

                     Go ahead

       Let your heart pour out ...
            Write your own story...

Make changes
Underline key ideas
Don’t be afraid to erase problems

The paper is blank
You have the power to fill it up
    How you want it
        With positivity
           With love
              Write your own story...

Empty chair
Empty wine glass
Emptiness in my heart
Photographs for memories
Broken hearts, missing you
A poem, a writing, a song, a cardinal, a butterfly, a penny, a dream....
All these things remind me of you
A strong and hard working man you were
I have the same traits, as I live for you
I hope I am making you proud in all I do
I talk to you everyday
          Do you even hear me?
In my heart, I know you do!
Even though you are no longer here
Believe me, it’s been a hard almost 5 years
Another day we celebrate YOU
For on this Father’s Day
I send my love to heaven for you
Broken memories will never fade away
I wish I had more time, wish you would have stayed
Unfortunately you were sick and there was nothing left to do
So I told you to close your eyes, relax and just let go
It was he hardest thing I ever had to do
But I am thankful I have many years, so today it’s all about you

An empty chair
An empty wine glass
An emptiness in my heart
Photographs for memories
Broken hearts, missing you...
        
         Happy Father’s Day Papa Bear

Let your bad dreams come to me
I will catch them naturally
Once they hit my weave of webs
The nightmares will be gone from your head
Don’t you worry
If another nightmare comes along
I will catch them and send good ones
Back to you
So sleep tight
I will guide you
Into your deepest good dreams at night

Like a blade of grass
Is never the same
So are all the people
You meet day to day

When at last you see the light
Reach out and touch it
You may get zapped back into the reality in which we call life
Yet here to see and live another day

Sad that my latest post didn’t get more attention that it has..... I’ve fallen in love with the piece. It’s called, “ lay next to your grave”

Everyday
Everyday
I go and lay
Next to your grave
As if you were still
Right next to me
I hold your hand
From 6 feet up
Talk to you
Still give you my love
As I lay upon the grass
Flowers blooming
That many people left
I sit in silence
But hear you so clear
When you whisper in my ear
“I love you so much, my dear”
It’s been so many years
Hundreds, thousands, millions of tears
Oh,how I wish you would reappear
Hold me tight, help me face my fears
Everyday
Everyday
Without you here
I’m in a nightmare
A horrible atmosphere
The air is thin
It’s hard to breath
I just want you back with me
Everyday
Everyday
I go and lay
Next to your grave
As if you were still
Right next to me
I pray that I’ll be ok
That your ok
I hope you hear me
Everyday
I lay next to your grave...

Slowly figuring out
That if you don’t react
You’ll get a bigger reaction

When he kisses your forehead for no reason at all and looks at you with those eyes.....

You just know it’s right

Happiness blooms from within
A pinch a love
A dash of joy
Perfection at its finest
For a happy heart

Words that cannot be expressed are better to get off your chest and maybe someone will be impressed by the inner workings of your heart laid to rest by trying your best of the simple words that are hard to express...

A crowded nightclub full of happiness and joy
Turns into chaos, fear and mourn
A senseless and tragic act
Turns a, what they thought, a safe place into a traumatic attack  
Those lives were lost and are never coming back
The screams
The fright
The helpless
The scared
Run in fear when gun fire flared
49 souls now light up the sky
When you see a rainbow after a storm passes by
Orlando strong, Hope and Love
We send to these victims high above
Your time on earth may have been cut short
But your memory lives on in all of our hearts...

Capsized boat
Drowning in fear
All alone
Since you left us here
Were left just drowning
In our puddle of tears

God laid his hands upon your chest
Said a prayer as you took your last breath
No more suffering and pain anymore
God took you straight to Heavens door
Our time with you, in our lives, was cut way to short
But we hold the memories we made together
Very close to all of our hearts

Rip Gene

34 years ago I made an early entrance
The beginning was rough but God gave me the chance
The chance to grow up
Live a normal life
The chance to dance
After winning the fight
34 years later
I’m still going strong
I’m right where I’m suppose to be
I’m where I belong

The moment you turn off your brain is the moment that magic will happen

God,
Lay your hands on his chest
Help him take his last breath
No more suffering
No more pain
Take him to Heaven
Let him gain
His angel wings
To fly high in the sky
Live forever as our angel
Watching over us from high in the sky

Feeling helpless
Don’t know where to turn
Keep spinning in circles
To the point of no return  
With no beginning or end in sight
Just the waiting of concern
That dreaded phone call tonight
I’ll keep praying with all my might
When the time is right
Everything will be alright
For now we sit and wait
As we watch you wither away
Closer and closer to your last breath
In and out
In and out
Until his death....

Forever isn’t forever
When the time comes to be
But forever means forever
When you wrap your arms around me

Falling
Down
Only
To
Realize
We’re
Getting
Back
Onto
Our
Own
Two
Feet
Again
To
Turn
Over
A
New
Leaf
That’s
­Just
Shedding
It’s
Colors
To
Make
A
Fresh
Start...

Accepting someone back into your heart and your life who has caused you pain and did you wrong only means that your human and you have a heart yourself

The biggest hurdle in your life to embark towards your own happiness is the willingness to close the door to all the negativity behind you and open a new door that’s right in front of you

The lackluster of communication only results in misdirection which leads to miscommunication causing friction ending up in possible failure

You can build anything
Bring it up to be
But without the right foundation
It may come crumbling down
Leaving you left with nothing
Starting back at the beginning
Making you feel completely empty

God picked me to carry this disease
I’ve been fighting hard, and it hasn’t been easy
Treatments after treatments
Tests after tests
I tried so hard but I guess it wasn’t my best
I’m getting weaker and weaker
As the days go on
Struggling to hold it together
As my body feels like it weighs a ton
No ambition
No determination
No strength anymore
I don’t know how much more I can endure
One more evaluation
To see what’s next
But I think I’ve given up
This, I must confess
Only God knows when I’m suppose to leave
But please God, be with my family
When the times comes for them to grieve...

Sitting alone with your thoughts
May result in many teardrops

Having a clear mind to understand
Is just the beginning of rebuilding the trust and respect
Onto starting a new chapter in your book and turning to a blank page
Reigniting the fire to start anew

There’s no better place then to be wrapped in your arms and holding a place in your heart

Excuse me while I removed this knife from my back
As I see our friendship slipping through the cracks
Drops of blood are trickling down  
Making a puddle of lies onto the ground

Going a day without
Laughing
Smiling
Or
Feeling Joy...

Is just a wasted day....

Be happy
Be positive
Be blessed..

I raise my hand to the sky
In hopes that your flying by
To feel your touch just one more time
Alas, your gentle hand fits back into mine
I may look crazy
I may look weird
But to feel your hand in mine
Since you’ve been gone for such a long time
I may not be able to see you
I may not be able to hear you
But to feel you, even for a moment
Takes my breath away
Makes my heart beat fully again
Even if we are miles apart
Your always there when I need you
Close to my heart
Holding my hand
Making me feel human again...

Crying
Doesn’t make you weak

Weakness
Doesn’t always mean pain

Pain
Doesn’t mean you give up

Giving up....
DON’T

Crying shows strength
Weakness helps you learn
Pain is temporary
Giving up
Is not an option

Your strong
Your you
Your human!

There’s something out there for you and me
We just have to close our eyes, wish and believe
Spread joy and positivity
Letting your dreams be free
Making them become a reality...

You want change
(Make it happen)

You want love
(Let love in)

You want happiness
(Go out and find it)

You want to learn
(Go on an adventure)

Don’t wait for
Change
Love
Happiness
Or to learn something
Come to you...
Go out and find it!

MAKE IT HAPPEN!

Happiness is all around
Time is turned upside down
Love is everlasting space
When I’m in your warm embrace