I write for others who don’t have a voice
Scared to talk or make a choice
Connecting on a level from far away
Keeping me sane in every way
I channel things that swirl in orbit
Filtering through, I can’t explain it
I have an outer body experience when I write
I speak for those, even myself, who don’t have a voice
Create unwritten words for all to see
There’s no limit in the possibilities...

When you feel
Like your
F
A
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L
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apart...

...just take a look around...

The world is also crumbling
D
O
W
N

Sadly...

Choked up
Loss for words
Feelings flood
Emotions high
Will this ever end?

Feelings overcome when I see others announce their pregnancy’s....

Holding bubbles in your hand
Adding glitter, fine sand
It’s hard enough to hold on to these alone
As they slip or pop you just let it go
This is how grief works as well
As much as you try handle it
It slips away
But yet on the other hand it feel the same
Holding onto something that’s no longer tangible but grasping to keep hold
That’s Grief, comes and goes....

When you have a dream so vivid and real you get so many different feels
Suddenly realizing, it wasn’t just a dream, it was an event that actually occurred
Bringing up so many emotions
Stirring up the feelings from that day, as if it was happening again today
What I was feeling that night
Scared, afraid, sad and pain
Everything just brought back up in my dreams
From the real life event that happened to me....

Say hi to Dad
Since your high up
On top of the mountain close to the sky
Maybe you’ll even see a butterfly
That’ll be Dad flying by
Saying hi

May our day be filled with memories from over the years
May we take a moment to reflect and wipe away our tears
To honor our Dad who was a great man
We raise a glass a wine to you
Til we see you once again...

The time has come to close your eyes
We said our I love yous and said our goodbyes
It's time to relax and let the feelings go
Don't worry about us, were stronger then you know.

It's time to see the light, and feel God’s touch
It's in God’s  hands now, but please know we will miss you so much.

Rough waters come and go
Just like your fears turn into tears
Rapidly flowing and suddenly stopping
Highs and lows
Calm and raging
Hot and cold
Ups and downs
Break down the walls
Try to let it all go
Flowing into the open waters
Casting your shadow from the suns rays
Setting it free
Ever so carefully....

Wish that I could just lie and say that I’m fine
Fill me up a glass of wine
Relax my soul
Stop the tears
Switch gears
Once in while I’m ok
Yet my head is still fogged
Just a mess
But there’s no point in crying over spilled milk

A moment alone
Gathering my thoughts
Feet in the sand
Ocean waves crashing
Dolphins jumping in the distance
Sun rising
Wind blowing ever so slightly
In the midst of my own dreams
As I close my eyes and drift to my happy place....

Do I speak to you with my words
Do I help you through struggling times
Do I lift your spirits when you feel down
Do I turn your smile away from a frown
Do I make your mind think about life
Do I fill your heart with delight

If you can answer yes to at least one of these questions
Then, I have done my part in my writing again...

A little piece of my heart
A glimpse into my mind
A dash of my soul
What did we find?
Mix it all together
Lay it all out
That’s where you’ll see
The recipe to my poetry

Just like broken glass under my feet
I walk on eggshells whenever your around me..

Feeling lost
Loss for words
Doing your best
Yet it’s never enough
Trying your hardest
Getting picked on
That’s it
I’m done

Three months today
The pain has not gone away
Wondering where I’d be today
If you just had remained
Growing inside of me
But now your living in Heaven
Watching over me
Where one day we’ll become a family

A moment becomes a memory
A memory becomes a keepsake
A keepsake that you cherish from the memories that you make....

Twisted tales
Unraveled truth
Braided memories
Hearts bruised
Winding roads
Crossed paths
Left or right
No turning back...

Have you ever felt like your barley treading water
Or maybe that your body is being consumed by the ground you once stood on
The cocoon that your being wrapped up in is your defense mechanism to fight off your insecurities
Once you emerge like a butterfly does when it's ready
You will spread your wings, show your beautiful and vibrant colors and show the world your transformation into something new
Never doubt the crossroads of life and the fractured walkways you come across
In the end you will become a bigger and better person as you soar to your own destiny

Where there’s a way

You’ll find the path

That leads you where you need to be

To make your passion and heart happy...

That moment when....

You stop talking and start listening

You open your eyes and see what’s in front of you

You open your heart and let love in

That moment when....

You’ll see and feel a difference...

It’s been raining a lot lately....

....guess all of our angels are sad and miss us too...

Dry your tears
Your always here
In our hearts
No matter how far
A   P   A   R   T

Come walk with me to the door
Open it just once more
Release the monsters from my soul
I’m tired of fighting this one sided duel
Unlock the portal to my happy thoughts
Let me remember what my happiness had brought
I am not you and you are not me
But shedding this weight will set us both free
You’ve kicked me down, insulted me
Yet I’ve gotten up eventually
It’s time to part ways, I hate to say
But once and for all I’m lifting this weight

Come walk with me to the door
Open it just once more
Release the demons from my soul
I’m tired of fighting this one sided duel

Set me free
Let me be me
Restart anew
It’s time for me to breakthrough
Lock up the door, finally
That’s it, your gone
Indefinitely


Come walk with me to the door
Open it just once more
Release the demons from my soul
I’m tired of fighting this one sided duel

It’s time now to say goodnight to all my freight
It’s now or never to begin with a new light
Closing the door one final time
I am not you and you are not me
Anymore
This is goodbye...

Just like a candle trying to stay lit in the wind....

....is comparable to the struggles we all encounter within our lives....

We can protect our flames and stay out of the wind but how would we learn from our struggles in the end?

We’ve been caught in a dream
More like a nightmare where no end can be seen
Waiting impatiently, searching for the light that seems so far away
Praying to see that day
Emotions swirl out of control
The weight of the world slipping through our fingertips
Trying the grasp a sense of normality while compiling to the rules
Stay at home
Wear a mask
Social distance
6 feet apart
Quarantine
No friends
No family
No gatherings
No life
But yet let’s spin this just a little bit....

Families that are “ normally” so wrapped up in sports, activities, work etc
Are now eating dinner at a reasonable time ( at home)
Spending this time with their children
Going on walks through nature
Having “ campfires” in their backyards
Baking and cooking together
Catching up on life ( together)
It may not seem normal for this day and age but for me growing up this is what is was like everyday
Family dinners
Playing outside
Spending precious time together
Learning about one another
As much as this is a scary and an unknowing time
Find the positive through darkness making light in these uncertain times....

Standing at a fountain
A coin tucked in my hand
Pondering my thoughts
Thinking of my dreams
Breathing in the moment to where I stand
I close my eyes
Say a wish in my head
Grasp the coin a little tighter
As my wish could be said
Instead of tossing the coin
Into the waters below
I tuck it in my pocket
Carrying my wish with me
Everyday
In hopes that it would never get lost
Among the other wishes that end up at the bottom of the fountain...
Fading away...

Suspended from a window sill
as dreams go floating by
Please catch the one my heart does fill
this wondrous nighttime sky

And hold it till the sun does rise
as morning comes to be
Dreamcatcher there before my eyes
release my dream to me

Take me to a place where I belong
Captivating my heart like a love song

Feathers blowing ever so slightly within the gentle breeze
Come sing to me as you enter my dreams
Revealing my true identity, ever so softly

Come to me, don’t fly by
Fill my heart with joy
As I lay down to sleep
I pray for you, as I hope you pray for me

Suspended from a window sill
as dreams go floating by
Please catch the one my heart does fill
this wondrous nighttime sky

And hold it till the sun does rise
as morning comes to be
Dreamcatcher there before my eyes
release my dream to me

Don’t get tangled up in the mess
Like a boat caught through a storm
Undoing the knots as my dreams start to crest
Lost at sea this weary morn

Send a signal on echoing beams
Far across this dawning view
That will tell me all of these dreams
In the end will all come true

Catch me I’m
F
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L
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Into the oblivion
Spiraling
D
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N
Into the unknown
Or maybe fantasy
Within my own fears
Contemplating life goals
Free falling
Endless flying
Only to
L
A
N
D
Always on my feet..

Finding balance in such an unbalanced time, may feel like a teeter totter, ups and downs, but if you stand your ground in the middle, your unbalanced feelings, will become completely settled in balance...

Sometimes you just have to go with the flow and sometimes you have to fight the current to make you go exactly where you want to go...

I can’t lie and say that I’m okay
These emotions hit me like a ton a bricks

Breathe in the day
Smell the adventures
Feel the moments
Touch your heart
See your dreams
Here’s to a great start
For today...
Your journey awaits...

Even though we’re forced to wear a mask everyday...

.... keep smiling away.....

You will make someone’s day...

Our thoughts and prayers
That the doctor has steady hands
Fixing you up
You are very tough
Have faith and trust
That when you wake up ( from surgery)
You’ll be all fixed up!
You got this mom 2
I love you ( always)

I like to
C
A
T
C
H
My
Tears
To see
If I can hear
What they
F
E
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Too

Loss completely stops you in your tracks and ruins your life’s adventures but yet at the same time is a learning experience opening your eyes shining a light onto the darkest of times....

I love the days
When I just write away
No thinking involve
Just letting it flow
No reasoning at all
Just letting it all go

My bleeding heart can not be seen unless held up by a green screen....

Radiant smile
Go getter of life
Strong as ever
When life gets rough
Positive attitude
Love for all
You are amazing after all

Your not alone even when you think you are, open your heart and express yourself, you may change you and someone else...

My mind keeps racing
My hand are sweaty
My breathing remains heavy
I can’t stop the shaking
Tossing and turning
I don’t like this journey
The feeling of rejection
This is far from perfection
Yet the amount of pressure
Is far from getting better
Just put me in a bubble
It’s not worth the trouble
Feeling suffocated
Defeated and degraded
Drowning in my fears
Painting my pillows with my tears
How does one heal
When this feeling is unreal
The emotions hit you hard
You can’t just disregard
Open up your heart
Someone will do their part
To guide you on your way
Help you through this passageway...

Don’t fear
What you don’t know....
Let it all be
Remain happy.

It’s easier to stay silent sometimes but yet the struggle is real to just let go of what’s inside
Exposing yourself to the world outside may be rewarding through your own heart and mind
Digging deep down to the roots allowing the troublesome worries to become exposed
Active the waters to help you grow
Feeling alive once you break the silence from within
The healing process is where it begins....

I often wonder ( even though I shouldn’t) where I would be if you hadn’t left me
In reality, I would be around 6 months, getting closer to meeting you
But now that’s just a distant memory
Always in my heart
Always on my mind
My precious angel baby of mine...

We have hearts in our eyes
That we wear on our sleeve
If you listen very closely
You can hear my heartbeat
That’s just me who wears her heart on her sleeve

All I ever wanted was LOVE

Yet, YOU gave me LIFE

Everlasting BREATH

Even when you take my breath AWAY

I wonder where I would be if you had not been there that night for me.....

Except, I don’t want to wonder
I want more adventures with you

PS
I LOVE YOU

My thoughts gets twisted, turned upside down
Fumbling around like trying to catch a firefly in the nighttime
Catching as many as you can
Filling up a jar to light the night
Gathering my imagination
Setting it free
As my emotions escape my twisted memory

Beautifully broken like the sea glass that washes up on the shores of the beaches around the world...

Did
You
Just
Come
For
The
Show?
I’ll
Entertain
You
When
You
Stop
And
Look
Around
And
Stop
Talking
Beh­ind
My
Back...
Entertain
Me
By
Talking
To
My
Face...