Everything seemed like a normal day on September 11, 2001
Skies were blue
Birds were chirping
Everyone was at work, school or on their way
Nothing unusual to see a plane in the sky
Until the unexpected happened.....
The plane has now pummeled its way into one of the twin towers
Innocent bystanders and workers watched and feared for their lives, as others never saw it coming
In pure disbelief the world had stopped and time stood still
No one could believe the terror as a second plane pummeled through the second twin tower
Smoke billowing and fire exploding
People surrounded to try and help in whatever way they could, risking their lives
People trapped to their death and jumping out of the buildings to their death
We watched all this unfold before our eyes and many years later we still remember and never forget
Such tragedy happened to our country that day...

We will never forget where we were when this tragic event happened to our nation

Is it normal to feel anger or to be upset when seeing others pregnant or having children?
Knowing that it hasn't happened for us gives me anxiety
Why do I feel this way?
Can I make it stop?
I'm happy for everyone but suddenly feel stress when it's on social media or in real life.
Why can't I be blessed to carry a child?
Why can't we have a family?
Is this normal?
Will I ever be happy?
I just want to scream and cry
I love my life
I love my husband
But why can't we be blessed?
Am I wrong for feeling this way?
Anxiety through the roof..

The clouds roll in
The storm is starting
Rain is falling
Wind is howling
Darkness appears
The sun is no longer
People flee
Animals take shelter
Others hunker down
Braving the storm
48-72 hours
Of a catastrophic storm
Hits our country
With major damage to be done
We pray for you
We pray for safety
God will shed his light
The sun will shine
Things will be repaired
Life will go on...

The mind runs a mile a minute
Hit the pause button because sky's the limit
Let the cards fall where they may lay
Don't worry about me
I'll soon be ok...

Through the path of chaos and destruction happening in the world
We need to all unite together and pray for everyone's safety
Gearing up for the worst to come
Hunkering down
Hoping for the best
Thoughts and prayers to everyone who will be affected
Let's all come together and be the light in the darkness that has been, and will be put upon us.

I had a heart to heart with someone tonight and was trying to help them through a difficult time. I sit here and think of my past and the things I have personally dealt with in life. The mistakes, the regrets, the things I wish I would have done, the thing I have done and much more. I often ponder my choices and the path of where life has led me. I have always said "everything happens for a reason" and I stick with that to this day. The "what ifs" are just a formality of the choices you have made. I had to go through the bad times of relationships to get where I am today, married to my best friend and couldn't be happier.
I had to deal with my dad becoming sick and not being able to take care of himself. I watched him wither away to nothing, and saw him dying. I wouldn't change anything I did during that time of his life because I did and said all I could to him. I still haven't dealt with him passing but I know he is always here with me.
I had to deal with my families home catching on fire and our childhood home being destroyed. Even though things were damaged and destroyed, no one was home, so we didn't lose anything. Things are replaceable, people are not. I wouldn't change how that day happened because it gave me a better perspective on life.
I, as everyone else, deal with things differently and emote their emotions differently, but I know no matter what life throws at you you can get through it. Everything does happen for a reason, good or bad, it's just they way to want to deal with it at the time or when you are ready to deal with it.
I can fully admit that I have no confidence in myself in anything I do, or think that I'm the best at anything but I do believe I am here for a reason. Be a great friend, work hard, love everyone, and be a supporter. This is my role in life.
Take everyday for what you make it and know you have a purpose in life and deal with it. We all have been through a lot no matter how young or old you are but we are all dealing with something. It's how you choose to deal and choose to embark forward on the path of life.