Living on the hurting side of lonesome
Miles past anything called fair
Ain't no need to question my devotion
For the man I love, because all burdens I will bare
Where did you go when I just kissed your lips a few days ago?
Now it seems I'm just wasting time.
A hundred miles of empty road
Worn out heart and lies of gold
Feel like I could just lay down and die
A million miles on the other side of lonesome
Years past any kind of plan
A thousand sleepless nights away from pain and
All I know is I could drink an ocean
of whiskey drenched sorrow if I can't see him again.
I just covered a hundred miles
Think I'll sit here now and drink my fill
Yesterday's gone with the wind and
Tomorrow's on its way again
To bring what it will
I kiss the bottle when I should be kissing him....

I tried to save you
Fought for you so hard
I loved you in spite of what I heard
In spite of all I saw
I tried to ignore all the mean things you ever said
Tried to just believe in true love conquering all instead
Constantly lieing to myself that maybe you would change
If I believed enough
If I tried hard enough to make you see that I truly loved you in spite of myself
I've never had to love me if I was loving someone else
Didn't have to take care of me if I was busy taking care of someone else
All I ever wanted was someone to love me enough
Fight for me hard enough
Believe with me that love was truly enough
Now im left alone and numb
Not truly believing in anything
All I have now is all this wasted love
No passion, no one to call my own
No where to really call home
The bottoms where im at
Holding onto extinguished passion, pent up hurt and regret

Someone once told me, in life yur always left holding the same amount of cards
I never really thought of life as a game of cards until now,
Its true in all things in life you get dealt a hand and its always the same amount of cards its just
Up to you how you decide to play your hand
You can go all in,
Go out,
Check,
Or draw,
U can trade some or trade them all,
But in the end  you're still left with the same amount of cards....

One day
               You will be the one missing me,
And I'll only miss the man that I hoped
               You would be...

My baby just cares for me
But he's never there for me
And its killing me, that I may have to leave
See, he has an artist inside him
And it can't be controlled
No matter his choices its going to show
And if anyone tries to limit that
He'll have to let them go
And now we're having trouble finding a happy medium
Between you chasing your dreams
And providing me with my needs
There's a fine line between it
Love that's colliding in a battle over the use of its meaning
You like to label this as my fault when you talk with your friends
Like you've been living with the ghost of the woman you go to bed with
But you need me to understand that what you've been blessed with is more than just an investment
And isn't here to test me
This is so not what I expected, always feeling so neglected
Our love is a death wish, but I only know one way to say it
I love you and wish for you to stay with me
Miss feeling like im the only one
There's nothing more painful than failing at love
Pack your whole life up and cover it in dust
Baby I feel the tension between us growing and your faith in me is diminishing into nothing at all
And that's so disappointing because I've sacrificed a lot to be with you
Never did I lie to you or stray from you
Yet still you look at me like im the bad guy
And me giving you these sad eyes everytime you ask why
And if that's our past why do you put up with it
And why are you in love with me
If you can't hardly stomach it
Its so fragile and I know im distant
You've dreamt of this for years
So you take it by the handful
But now you have to try and choose
Between the two of us