I've been cursed and crossed
Beaten by the ones who got me off
I've been cut and opened up
Shattered by the ones I thought I loved
But I keep coming back to the crime scene
All the while knowing that the dead can't speak
And there's nothing left to say anyway
I've been left cold in the crypt
Cold as the words on your lips
And yet I recognize your face
What a strange redemption
Your words bled me dry
Now dust falls from my wounds
As downward I'm cast
Feelings of regret permeates me, left always wanting
From these wounds I am redeemed
And I recall with such vivid clarity
The soft whispers of foolish notions
Too late I've realized my wrongs and carelessness
But believe me my regret runs deep,
No longer inspired you are better off without me
My life's been molded
Deceived by the foolish
The weak embody lies and herein lies the truth
This long battle has left me with scars, beyond repair
And time can't heal these wounds inside

Once again I'll call your name
When my foolish heart quakes with pain
Mocking embrace, I push away, longing, aching for your company
I wither and decay with emptiness
Glass shattered eyes, bleeding so softly
Selfishness, hollow smile, cracks the foundation
Bleeding me dry
You walk through my halls and tear me down
******* some would say, but you feel like home to me
Winter mood illuminates, a foolish display
The last thing i do, regret
Silver tongue, crystal eyes, follow my piper
With my fear and shield of lies, completing my failure
Now my sins show the way to lasting impressions
Fading colors you have shown me
And your arms have led me astray
But you were always like home to me
I've seen through to what's within
Lost and alone you said I was what you were looking for
So why do I feel so empty
It all seemed so real, but I am nothing in your eyes now
Reaching out, you pulling away, never letting me in
I see you live your life, like a fool I stand here waiting
In letters, words, and pictures
You profess your love to me, but alas it's all lies
And the malice I should feel for your deceitfulness
Somehow always escapes me
And in the shading between all the words you said to me
I know I'd be left empty
Because you are home to me...

Midwest love affair
I bend when I'm bored
Late night *****
Lead me to the floor
Can we fake it?
Can we make believe?
I'm so full of love
It sickens me
But all I can do is close my eyes
And cross my heart hoping to die
Because you don't listen
When I'm around
The least you could do is take it back
All the vicious remarks and verbal attacks
Because I can't stand it
Here in this midwest aftermath

I don't want a model
Don't want a movie star
You don't even have to win the lotto
I just want you to win my heart
I just want someone true
Just lay with me
And laugh with
I just want the simple things
I just want you
Just be a tough act to follow
Someone real, someone true
I want you baby
Just you

Colors fade from gold to gray
Now broken my foolishness is displayed
This violent loving embrace
Lying restful safe in your arms
Steady rhythm trusts I'll come to no harm
Feel your tremble as the nightmare begins
Sleep with horror until it ends
Whispering a sweet sound fanning the flames
Thoughts consume me and leave me wallowing
My fingers tremble your lips move silently
One last I love you crushes my resolve again.

Every word from my lips falls upon deaf ears
And I suffocate
How I love you, I should let you go
Strike your name from my mind
Throw all righteousness to the ground
I succeed empty space filled with might of beens
I close my eyes and see you there
But my eyes must be deceiving me
Because every other sense tells me I'm alone
Now all my waking hours melt into sleepless nights
If I could learn from my past
I'd possess the strength to walk away
And let your taste leave my lips but,
You still live in my every dream
And I fall away, but yet it still resonates
I wear my heart tattered on my sleeve
And I can hear you breathe while you're lying next to me
I hold you so dear to let if fade would tear me apart
If I left this behind, turned and walked away
Would the dawns light fall upon my face
And end this tragedy
Deep in the long black behind the shimmering blue
I swear I have seen the last soul that I care to
This is passion and it crawls on my skin
It sinks into my bones, soul, and I am whole again
I feel it filling me and I never want it to end
It burns in my veins and heart as I write in ecstasy
So sweet on my tongue, it burns away and
Blood can never flow enough to sustain
Empty promises fill me with lies
The deepest gray forever lives inside
I live this agony
Be still my tongue, for you know not what you say
The night wears on and so my patience thins
And I walk through this fire to purify the passion within

Show me what I'm worth
When you're facedown, thinking
You're so ******* when you're running your mouth
Got a few things bottled up
Jump on a couple bottles like double dutch
Jager's got your faded when society has me jaded
How do you expect for us to grow
When all you want to do is break
It's time to let **** go
Don't be tough
Just make sure I see you cry enough
Don't bottle this up
The way I make you feel when I'm around
You got to wake up this is the real world
And you're only hurting yourself
When you spend every waking moment
With your fingers crossed
I don't think you can afford to set karma further in motion
Go ahead
Talk **** it means nothing
Ask me what I see in you
I see nothing, I see right through
You're transparent, I know you don't want to hear it
And I don't want to be the one to hurt your feelings
But, I'm not afraid to freak out
Because deep down it ***** to be you
Making small stabs in passing
But the pain is bigger than it seems so,
Stop holding me under and just breathe