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Ashley Rodden Apr 2014
The sky is burning red
But I am cold and broken
And I know I will suffer in the end
But I will fight to die another day
I will not bow today, I will take your breath away
Please push me to my limits one last time
Let's scream until nothing's heard inside
Sick of playing
I don't like this game anymore
Enough is enough this is no longer fun
You say, "think about it" and I did
Now I don't want to feel a thing
I'm tired of begging you for the things I need
Show me where forever ends and
I'll survive
Paranoid
Undefined to this cold blooded fate
Forgive me
Bleed for me
Heart pounding come at me
For all is fair in love and war
I know you and this isn't just a game anymore
Blowing your smoke rings in a heart shape
Just close your eyes and rest in peace
Imagine your life living as a king
And I'll die on your battlefield of love,
*Fighting
Ashley Rodden Apr 2014
I'm tired of begging (you)
for the things I want.
Ashley Rodden Apr 2014
I want to paint you by number
And fill all your blank spaces in
Time and space may separate us,
But heartstrings know no end
And these words in my heart
Just need the chance to be spoken,
So I'm telling you now and hoping it's worth something...
"I see everything I ever wanted in your eyes and I'm afraid"
And my instincts are to run away
Because it's not easy being strong,
And I've done it for, oh, so long,
But now here I stand helplessly waiting for your love.
When want became need my heart had no choice
Somehow you saved me from a lifetime of not
being all that love could make me worth,
I just ask that you please be tender
Because, it's to you that I solemnly surrender.
Ashley Rodden Apr 2014
If I must fight for the rest of my life
I better get some stronger armor
And even though my heart maybe broken
My spirit remains untamed
So I'll continue to fight for a love I don't quite understand
I'll pluck daisy petals until they say you love me
If there wasn't a risk of being burned
I guess then love wouldn't be love...
Anything in life worth having has it's sacrifice
And I am mine
I will chase you until my lungs explode
I will prove my love until I'm justified
I'll keep all your words in a box under my bed
Because love knows not it's own depth
Us meeting was fate, becoming friends was a choice,
but falling for you was out of my control
This is all such chaos and passion
It's pure yet tainted
Society has ruined our hearts and taken over our souls
with temptation and lust
But I am so intrigued by your mind
that my happiness occurs in silence
And my love's energy is transferred with a smile
We're all made just a little bit broken,
so tell me who is to blame?
We've all got battle scars and wounds
from fights we've lost.
And I'm always going to be an imperfect mess
I'll change until there's nothing left
But I will not be defeated
With my bones exposed I'll continue to fight.
Just take me in your arms and leave the rest alone
I want to know I belong to you
Like the heart inside your chest
There's still a flame of desire burning in my eyes
come dance with me before this fire dies
Just let my love adorn you as only you can
Rupture this stoic heart
Let me breathe you in as you
Fill my arms
Be my poem with all the perfect words
And I will do my best to try and fix your busted heart
I'm just a hopeless lover
what can I say?
I just want to inject your laughter in my veins
so as not to be left feeling so much emptiness.
I'm so parched,
I'm tired of drinking from this dried up wishing well
Could it be that with this love I've created my own hell?
Ashley Rodden Apr 2014
Is it reasonable for me to be awake
When I really need sleep?
Is it reasonable to wear around your hoodie
Because it smells like you?
Is it reasonable to not want to eat or breathe
Because you're not here with me?
Is it reasonable to be mad at you for leaving
For doing what you got to do?
For telling me I'm the one you want to marry
But you don't even live with me?
Is it reasonable to be jealous of all your time and attention
that I don't ever seem to get?
For wanting to be the center of your world?
For wanting you to always prove your love?
Maybe it's just the insomnia talking
Maybe it's the loneliness daunting
Maybe I'm just an unreasonable human being
Maybe clearly isn't what I'm seeing
I hang on your every word
I believe you but then again I don't
When I'm stuck here
Waiting by the phone all night for a call
Is trusting another person reasonable at all?
Giving them your heart
Unexplainable feelings
Having trouble dealing
Being insecure
But feeling so beautiful
Wanting you to take care of me
And being upset when you don't
The way I want or need it to be
Being overly emotional
Playing coy with you
All the silly things lovers do
Acting crazy and paranoid
Knowing what's right but doing what's wrong
Letting inhibitions go
Letting your guard down
Letting yourself fall
Going all in risking it all
Questioning and second guessing everything you say or do
Guess the real question is...
Is it reasonable for me to love you?
Is there anything reasonable about love?
Ashley Rodden Apr 2014
Now days everyone wants a little piece of your time
And yet I always get put at the end of that line...
Somewhere along your way you must of lost track while
Always thinking of yourself and never looking back
How long before you realize
That I'm the one who's always been here for you
I've been strong and true
Because of me you're no longer lonely
But, lately you can't even hear a phone ring?
Well I'm not sitting around waiting
You do your thing like usual
And I'll do my thing too
I ain't got the time for this
And you've made it obvious neither do you
I got a kid to raise
And you got your dreams to chase
Surely we knew this all would eventually fall through
All good things must come to an eventual end
Especially when neither are willing to bend
Your work, your career, your "friends"
Magic cards all come before your girlfriend
You're sorry though right...?
And that makes everything alright...?
It's cool you always put it all before me
So now I'm gonna put me before you.
pretty aggravated and upset right now...
Ashley Rodden Apr 2014
When I met you
All the dreams in my heart
Suddenly came true
You knocked me over
When I was stone cold sober
Not a thing I could do
Maybe when your soul and heart starts burning you will see
That every time I'm talking to you it's always over too soon
And everyday feels so incomplete when I'm not with you
Say the word and I'll jump the moon
When you got a love so strong
How could it ever be wrong
Mercy me, just be mine please
I've already lost all my sanity
Just let your heart belong to me
If I just lay here
Will you lie with me
And just forget the world?
I need your grace
To remind me to find my own
All that I am
All that I ever was
Is in your eyes
Please say you'll always be mine..
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