Never felt as lonely as I do right now...
Seems like and eternity has gone by since you left town
And I hope you know you took more than just clothes in a bag
Without you here time just lags
This place has no life anymore
Since you walked out the door
I'm left here being restless
Watching  you go I felt so helpless
Smile intact, tears lay unseen
I try to remain serene
If I lay here in our empty bed I can pretend
That this isn't too much for me to comprehend
I knew this wasn't going to be easy
But I didn't plan to miss you this deeply
So right here waiting is where I'll be
Until you come back to me
Absence of you makes my heart grow fonder
But at the same time so somber
It's strange how 1,709.5 miles
Can change a smile
It all happened so fast
I'm left holding onto a moment that now is past
And my arms are unfilled of you
But my heart remains full and true
Please hurry back to me
I miss you so badly (B)
And I spent last night dreading the dawn,
Because I knew today you'd be gone...

Lately I can see nothing in your eyes
Except for maybe the coming of a goodbye
I know not of your kind
And I'm longing to unveil your evil mind
You're like pouring salt into and open wound
Please tell me this hurt will be over soon
I'll sacrifice myself and give you what's left
It's become to me plain as day
Soon I'm gonna need a change in the worst way
Not getting to you is killing me
And eventually I will suffocate from lack of  breathing
All the lies need to stop
Because I'm running out of the stone is takes to be your rock
So watch the words you say
Because it's the ones you don't
That I take the wrong way.
Just getting through to you takes all my strength
And soon enough I will suffocate.
I'm dying inside
So is this is your idea of torture?
I'm asking you with my heart still barely beating
Why are you killing all the good left within me?
I could take every word you ever said
Throw it in your face and be done
Because I've gathered so many, and kept them so close
But all I want is to make this love real.
I can still remember how you looked at me
A scowl upon your face trying to be sincere
But you smothered me when you just lied and acted fake
I'm so far away from you now
We'll never be able to bring back yesterday
And I keep trying to forget you
But it leaves me less than zero,
Beat down and bruised
I try to take a breath but then I start choking
I try to remember to just forget you,
But all I ever achieve is pure agony
I have this empty hole now where a heart should be
And no words left to serenade me
I just keep slipping farther as I'm left to bleed out
I have no voice left to protest all that remains is doubt
There are no reasons left for me to be
Because your deceit just took the breath right out of me.

I am the mess you chose
The door you can't close
Your weakness I suppose...
And,
You are the game I play
My calmness in moments of disarray
The one thing that makes me always stay.
Now,
I get so lonesome without you,
That I sink just like a stone,
And this 90 proof I'm clinging too
Is the only thing keeps me afloat.
And,
Just like *******, I've started your heart
And I run through your veins.
Now you're constantly craving,
You're aching and chasing.
And,
The first time I felt you I flew
Nothing gives me the high that you do
The way you make me feel inside
You can do no wrong.
And,
You've tried to break it off
But I got you back with a feel
After everything
Why do you still love the needle?
Now,
We're hooked on these feelings
The highs we're both dealing
Just look what we've done to our lives.
Our love is a drug
That we just can't get enough of.
So,
We're now the junkies that it's taken over
And it's either our death or the cure
But, baby no matter what we both do
We just can't resist it,
Think it's safe to say...
                                      We're addicted.

Most days I just want to paint my face
And pretend that I am someone else.
Sometimes I get so fed up I can't even
stand to look at myself.
I just want to start my life over
Because, I am slowly falling apart.
So won't you come take a walk in my shoes for a start
And you will soon discover that it's not so easy being me...