I don't understand you
I would like to
You are inside the mirror
we do not exactly get along
I know you are hateful
even mean

You don't have to appease anyone
however I would like you to love me
and in return
I could learn to love you
you, myself

I know I am horrible person
You don't have to keep reminding me
With that look on your face
the hatred in your eyes

Crying and screaming out
yelling at me
spitting out venom

You're in the mirror
you are me
crying my tears
spewing out my venom

punch the sink
hell even the mirror
it does not matter
for you are
the sinner

I am letting go of this monster
she has no name
Can't be tamed

She will stay
Crawl inside my bed
as I pray

The monster inside my head
telling me, whispering softly
I am better off dead

I've tried to refrain
from certain habits
The hurt inside
that comes out from me
Attacking me
Spitting out venom from my lips
creating the edges on my skin
bleeding out from every gashed bruise

The world crashes down
every step I take as I ruin it all
I'm tired of living
have to keep going
a smile can not shield me
I fear for the worst

Listening to myself
it just angers me
I don't even mean to be myself at times
It all just comes out
a tidal wave
that destroys the beach

It would be better
to be a hurricane
that is a better comparison

Who shall you be today?
Loving me or despising me
It does not matter now
Since you practically want me dead
I am worthless
A burden
Cowardice is my definition
I wanted to live
Believe me, I did

Crying again
all alone and tired
shaking in my bones
cold and decaying
tell me if you would care
but no
you do not
lies
that is all I hear

Broken, ripped apart
my heart bleeding out
as the stitches come apart

How should it be today?
You don't see or feel
as I do
You don't even feel at all
do you?

All the things I could say
all the things I could express
but nothing could be enough
I'm not enough
and I know that
just tell me if its what you need
What is it you want?

Let's lay together
in this deathbed
a garden of ashes
Decomposing among them

A god
but of death
I fell in love with you
I'm bound to you
we're bound together

Am I a healer?
Or just a lover of pain?

You whispered something inaudible
as you slipped away from me
The tears were slipping out

Remembering a summer day
where everything was tranquil and pure
Your eyes shone brighter that day
than any other