You whispered something inaudible
as you slipped away from me
The tears were slipping out

Remembering a summer day
where everything was tranquil and pure
Your eyes shone brighter that day
than any other

You feel it coming down
don't you?
The meltdown that you had to have

"You're crying again?" Your friend asked
As you just got done seeing your parents fight
"You're such a crybaby" The boy said to you
After your best friend passed away
"All you want is attention" Your parent commented
After you just got done cutting yourself in the bathroom

You feel it fading away
you wanted death so badly and no one ever understood
"Why aren't they back yet?" Your friend asked
as your desk was empty again
"They're probably just sick" The boy said
trying to reassure himself
"What could we have done?" Your parent wept
as they looked at your lifeless body

Maybe they could have paid attention
or at least tried to understand
Your friend abandoned you because they found someone else
and they never stopped to ask if you were okay
That boy despite him loving you
he never said it
And your parent
they were too caught up in their own problems
and trying to tell you it was all your fault

The street was light
filled to the brim
the most purest place

After a while
and it was no longer purely white

The dark showed up
the street lights came on
shadows were following behind

but then they were gone
and I was alone

Let me let go of the pain inside
I'm not sure anymore
about anything
I guess I was the dime in the dozen
because you just picked up something else
new and far better

I'm sorry I'm the replaceable one
I didn't realize you were that shallow
and I'm glad I grew up finally

I've learned to accept that I am alone
I may not be okay
but to you
it's fine
because I'm not important
at least not anymore

I'm the one that hurts you, right?
I'm the one that makes you miserable
I drag you down

Maybe I just need better friends
I'm better off alone anyway

I feel as though the world
has gone cold
especially without you
here right beside me

No one knows I cry in my sleep
I wake up feeling horrible
it is a normal procedure for me to feel like this
I'm feeling down
I want to stay home and never leave

Avoiding people isn't normal
but that's what I do for those I don't know
or anyone else I just can't be around
I'm scared of making conversation
and if there is a way around the crowd
I go away
even if it means going the long way somewhere

All my friends have somewhere to be
it's good for them
but I have nothing
I feel like I bother those around me
and I can't control how I feel

I sound mad and annoyed
but really that's my cry for help
my internal panicking keeps me from acting better

I stay up all night wondering why
I'm tired and nervous all the time
why I'm not important
I have so much time so I question everything

"It's just a phase in life"
"You can overcome it"
"Normally teens are prone to the emotions you feel"
"Why do you do this to yourself? Why make us worry?"

Oh well
why don't you tell me?