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Stone Nov 2018
No one knows I cry in my sleep
I wake up feeling horrible
it is a normal procedure for me to feel like this
I'm feeling down
I want to stay home and never leave

Avoiding people isn't normal
but that's what I do for those I don't know
or anyone else I just can't be around
I'm scared of making conversation
and if there is a way around the crowd
I go away
even if it means going the long way somewhere

All my friends have somewhere to be
it's good for them
but I have nothing
I feel like I bother those around me
and I can't control how I feel

I sound mad and annoyed
but really that's my cry for help
my internal panicking keeps me from acting better

I stay up all night wondering why
I'm tired and nervous all the time
why I'm not important
I have so much time so I question everything

"It's just a phase in life"
"You can overcome it"
"Normally teens are prone to the emotions you feel"
"Why do you do this to yourself? Why make us worry?"

Oh well
why don't you tell me?
Stone Nov 2018
I've been wandering my whole life
trying to find this "missing piece"
The doctors have all told me that
medicine is what I need
but I don't think it's right
to be even more messed up than I was

Trying to breathe again
you messed up again
you made everyone worry about you
yeah I'm not okay
in the space that I've always been
but I'm suffocating
and wanting the world to end

Yet you can help your friends
without hesitation
you always help everyone else
and here you are killing yourself even more
Yeah I'm falling apart again
and I'm giving in
but I'm not letting go

That "missing piece"
that isn't some type of medicine
or someone else
maybe that can help
but it won't completely help on it's own
that "missing piece"
what I was searching for
it was my own will
self love
that's what it is called
Stone Nov 2018
You
You ignore me and deny it altogether
you're starting to really irritate me
and honestly it's driving me insane
so you better stop getting in my way

Unbelievable it'll hit you before you know it
all the people know
I am not afraid to cause a scene
by now you should know I do it all the time
Stone Nov 2018
"the world is ending today"
it said on a screen from the T.V
we're all messed up anyway
and the world isn't what it used to be
a place where we hate one another
and judge for people's race
or where they came from

A world where everything hadn't changed
like they had said in the history books
from back before our generation was born

"You're the generation of the future"
Oh, well I guess
you'll enjoy watching this world fall apart

everything should go back
to before people were created
it stands on the line
where humans are cruel

and there isn't any light
just a fragment of such
the sun will swallow us up anyways
and the planet would be no more
along with the others

There would just be open space
no more hate
just the memory of one

oh, wait
everyone would die
because it would be
The end of the world
Stone Nov 2018
This relentless world where
I am tormented beyond belief
However
here is an upside down Eden
Saying words that mean nothing
and those that cut in deep

A selfish heroine
with an immense taste
for her own medicine

Looking in the mirror
she said
"do you really represent justice?"
Stone Nov 2018
BHS
I saw the way that you looked at her
Her eyes were a beautiful pale green
and she had blonde hair
Although I was smiling
I was dying inside

I acted like I was having fun
even when I wasn't
you kept looking at her and leaving me behind
Your hand slipped out of mine
as you walked next to her
and I stayed behind

You were laughing with her
and smiling
you didn't even look up at me
not until I said
I didn't want to go on the swing
but you both did anyway

And I saw her look at me
with a look of guilt
and I looked away
not sure if I was fading away with the music
or if I was fading away with my heart breaking

My chest hurt
and I couldn't breathe at all
I loved you more than words could say
and there you were
looking at her like that
I couldn't make you look at me that way
Stone Oct 2018
I am screaming inside
and nobody sees
I lash out
and everyone stares
I look at the floor
all I am is compared

Nobody else understands
and I'm stuck in a fight
that I didn't even start

My head is hurting
from all the negative thoughts
the stab wounds gashing at my cells
so tell me when its over
and I can breathe again

I've always been alone
and no one could understand
the way that I am

You're flawless
I am not
Go to somebody else
I couldn't come close to that
Alone in the dark
as you are no longer there
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