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Stone Oct 2018
I am screaming inside
and nobody sees
I lash out
and everyone stares
I look at the floor
all I am is compared

Nobody else understands
and I'm stuck in a fight
that I didn't even start

My head is hurting
from all the negative thoughts
the stab wounds gashing at my cells
so tell me when its over
and I can breathe again

I've always been alone
and no one could understand
the way that I am

You're flawless
I am not
Go to somebody else
I couldn't come close to that
Alone in the dark
as you are no longer there
Stone Oct 2018
Broken
a husk of an organism
a shell that is unable to be
but somehow is alive
breathing inside

Hollow eyes
empty streets
flooding into numbers
when the eyes are opened
it comes crashing in


you can't breathe
can you?
Stone Oct 2018
My name is not yours
so don't use it in vain
my heart is not yours
so do not bruise it
my life is not yours
so don't tell me how to live it

You never cared about me
so don't pretend like you do
Stone Oct 2018
Mothers are compassionate
mothers are kind
they are the rock of their family
and raise their young

However, some mothers are not compassionate
nor are they kind
they can be selfish
they can be cruel

My mother is one of these
who constantly feeds such addictions
by using plants
and injecting herself with needles
and god knows what else

My mother never raised me
she forced her mother to
because she couldn't pass a drug test
her mother was compassionate
her mother was kind

she still is to this day
and I call her mine
Stone Oct 2018
I want to be someone
someone that is not me
maybe you'll ask me why
but its really not a bad thing

I wanted to be someone better
someone you'd actually believe
but all your insecurities and doubt
they make you question me

You never realized the way you hurt me
and you won't make it up with me
stuck in your own self pity
I know I am shameful
but I want to be someone else
that someone isn't me
Stone Oct 2018
Could you tell me again what I did wrong?
I know I've done some things
but you should understand

Never hurt you once
at least not intentionally
and for that reason alone
I think you should understand

I tried to be good
and I tried to stay close
but I guess you never knew
who it was that protected you

now you ignore me
and don't answer in the same way
all because of one thing that I didn't mean to say
and I couldn't apologize "in time"

we have been friends for over twelve years
but I guess it doesn't matter to you anymore

you say you don't want
"fake people"
but listen, you're fake yourself
and you can't tell me that I'm wrong for this
because I've known you your whole life
and I know well that you like putting the blame on me
when you're stuck in deep

but this time I'm not going to save you
save yourself this time
and maybe you'll learn from this

that's why I don't care anymore
I'll take a step back
it's okay because I'm used to it
and I don't need anyone

I'll stand by you even after this
but not as close
because true friends stab you in the front
and not the back
I don't want to hurt again after this
and I'll let myself heal from all your inflictions
because the truth is
you never cared either
you just wanted to gain something from me
Stone Aug 2018
Closed door
locked
dark
empty
Voices rising from the room upstairs
I'm curled up in a ball unable to move
because of the marks all over my body
and the paralyzing fear inside
and the ceiling is spinning
I'm trapped
crying and hiding

How long has it been?
Three?
Four?
Six?
Ten?
I don't even know anymore
and my eyelids are heavy
Mother and Father
please, be kinder
don't shut the door again and lock it

Knives that are sharp
please, be nicer
don't tarnish my skin any longer
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