Sometimes I think of death,
how sometimes it's far fetched to think none less than that
it's an ease set to put me to rest.
I'm not saying this life isn't beautiful,
or more over that I'd love to see my family at the funeral.
Oh but if those brake pads gave
and that big eighteen wheeler swayed, hit and swerved me off the side into a twisted metal grave;
Well I had given what I'd got but in the end it's tough to say that sometimes I think that life is better off that way.
Not for me but for those I care for.
Ripped and torn by thinking I know exactly what I live for.
I don't and that's a scary thing.
Something that could shake me wide awake at night while having dreams.
Sometimes I think of death,
friendly by the way it swept and kept me safe.
I was begging to leave but decided to stay.
Now my mind is blank.

I'm growing out my hair.
Not because I'm really in love with the whole hooligan look.
More so because I feel as though it keeps me just a
liiiiittle bit closer to my youth.
Because I do not at all mind when people call me crazy,
with my wild thick hair.
I am crazy.
I'm probably crazy because I still want to keep
the child in me sheltered in my mind, my heart.
I always want to dream and I always want to play video games
and if theres a five year old in the room,
I'm up for pretending with you.
(So long as I'm not playing my video games)
I'm growing out my hair.
Not because I want my girlfriend to tell me she likes it or something,
but because I always wanted to when I was a kid.

Love her, for she has loved you unconditionally.
Pick up your phone, pick up your phone, pick up your phone.
She's calling, just to hear your voice.
So tell her you love her.
Tell her you miss her.
She's the only woman you ever needed.
Tell you're mom she's perfect, show her you know best.
And tell your mom she's worth it, every second that you've spent.

I'm a joker, I joke so often.
I joke so often life became funny from inside this coffin.
Life became a joke, trivial in its pursuit to make better my perceived reality.
But that's all life is, your perceived reality.
Life is a joke and you can laugh and laugh, some might laugh with you and some against.
But don't forget the most important parts that lay inside this life
Love, family and friends.
Don't forget them.
This is not a joke.

My heart pours melodies,
each note a soft spoken I love you.
My eyes cast stars on your mountain side and in the night there was nothing more beautiful.
I get lost in these galaxies, i find myself now deeper than ever

Throw me a rope.
I'm
In
Too
Deep

I'm no adventurer, but I would climb your mountains.
I would explore your forests and swim your seas,
For the untouchable fruit has been grabbed by me.
I don't wish to claim everything and this is not my land but I'll be ****** if I don't take it in.
But maybe I'm ****, doomed and ******* anyways,
Maybe just maybe we do die alone and I won't be taking you with me but that's none of my concern.
When curiosity had beckoned I answered it's call and now I'm stuck just waiting for my fall.
From your mountains.
With love.

I can see you through smoke.
      I see you in dreams.
I'll see you when I croak.
      I don't breathe around you it's hard.
And my eyes burn like blunts in the closet
     My heart bursts on my sleeve.

But I'm being honest!
     Sometimes I wish you hadn't.