So many times I've come close to dying.
Its gotten to the point that it seems like death,
Is this horrid creature hiding in my shadows.
She is stalking me,
Pushing me,
Teasing me,
And constantly punishing me.
The few times I barely made it,
I kept waking up with the picture of my best friend dying.
Seeing him become a cold,
Stiff slab of flesh,
Laying on a hospital bed.
I hear his sisters screams ringing through my ears,
And feel her blood dripping down my arms,
From where she held her simple silver razors.
Death has become a tease.
I am tired of waking up with these images,
Destroying my once peaceful thinking.
I should be the one 8ft under,
And I am ready for death to take me.
I am tired of living,
And I am tired of these darkened thoughts poisoning me.

-ARI

Today I saw you,
Possibly for the last time.
Shock was written clearly across my face,
As you walked through the door and into my arms.
My face was buried in your neck,
Your warm arms gripping me tightly to your body.
Ive missed you more than I could possibly explain,
No words were spoken as we stood there.
Your hands gently pulling me away,
Guiding my lips to yours.
Such sweet slow intensity,
Filling me with longing and the fear of losing you forever.
Locking your fingers with mine,
You smiled sadly and walked through the house.
Later as you said goodbye,
You promised me you would come and kiss me one last time.
You promised me you would hold me one last time,
Before you were called back.

-ARI

Lost within herself
Hiding in a darkened corner.
Heavy footfalls across the carpet
Causing her to silently shake.
His smile filled of malice
Her heart drowning in fear.
Maniacal laughter poisoning the air
Her ear drums threatening to burst.
Wrapping his demonic hands around her wrists
Seeming to burn her to the bone.
Tears rushing down her cheeks
Screams ripping from her lungs.
Clothe forced between her trembling lips
Ropes embedded in her skin.
Bruises conquering her every limb
Her eyes swelling shut.
Fingers slowly crushing her throat
Her life slowly beginning to fade.
Not many people consider what happens
To a lost girl in a hotel room.

-ARI

Im just a little bit broken right now
Torn into so many pieces.
My heart is calling out your name
But isn't getting the answer it wants.
I know I should leave you right now
Since I always have to whisper when im around you.
But its easier said than done
Guess Im just gonna have to suffer.

-ARI

Time slowly slipping by my tired eyes,
With every drop of medication dripping through my IV.
The doctor tells me he doesn't know,
When my body will be healed enough to leave.
Needle after needle puncturing my bruised skin,
The taste of chemicals on my tongue.
I quickly grow weary of waiting,
On the pain to finally go away.
Nurse after nurse coming in,
To check my pain and vitals.
Im tired I say just leave me alone,
But they tell me I am not well enough.
The smell of latex suffocates me,
Drilling itself into my memory.
Wires and tubes stretching everywhere,
Ive forgotten where they end and I begin.
What a terrible thing to feel trapped,
In such a clean sterile environment.

-ARI

Legs twisted
Arms bent
Body broken
Head limp
Eyes empty
Fingers tensed
Voice cracked
Grace gone
I am
Just another
Broken dancer

-ARI

Let me go,
Don't hold me tight.
I cant be near you,
Because this isn't right.
You tell her you love her,
Then leave her for me.
Then make me the bad guy,
When shes as mad as can be.
I loved you I swear,
But you broke my fragile heart.
You were mine for a while,
Then your lies tore me apart.
Don't claim you are mine,
Then tell her your not.
Stop kissing my lips and saying you care,
‘Cause Ive found you don’t want me in the ways I had thought.

-ARI