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331 · Mar 2016
Not fair
Arfah Afaqi Zia Mar 2016
My virtues and my sins have drowned me in their depth,
The remorse that sweeps past my nerve,
I have been pulled into a world of judgmental freaks,

I have been restricted,
Putting barriers and blocks on my limitations,
Such a forbidden world,

Pleasing family,
Pleasing society,
Why? I'm not a puppet, or am I?

The things you have to face,
The never ending comments you have to bear,
Not an ideal situation if I must say,

The fear of reviving,
The uncertainty of doing,
Not fair at all !
331 · Sep 2017
Hard love
Arfah Afaqi Zia Sep 2017
How hard is it to make you understand-
the risks I take,
the things I have to bear,

I really don't know how to please you;
whether to ignore or not,
You have no idea how hard it is,

Putting up with others accusations;
criticism amd rumors so remorseful,
yet you only see what I haven't done,

Wish I could make you understand-
that how much you mean to me,
because that is all that matters to me.
331 · Nov 2015
if only...
Arfah Afaqi Zia Nov 2015
If only I could fly to mars,
And embrace the title ”First teenager to set foot on mars',
I'd set an example for my peers that nothing can stop us from doing wonders,

If only I had money,
I'd build an orphanage,
And educate every kid to lead a comfortable life,

If only I had power,
I'd stand as a representative,
And improve and lead our nation towards betterment,

If only I had guts,
I'd go and take part in wars to exterminate terrorism,
Rather than sitting here and writing my heart out.
Hopes and dreams may never come true,
But rather than hiding them,
Share it so people know what they're aiming for.
330 · Sep 2015
Yayeeeee
Arfah Afaqi Zia Sep 2015
At 6'o clock,
The clock strucks hard after completing its tick tock,
I pick up the remote,
Surfing the TV,
My eyes fixated,
My surroundings seem to fade,
And my head absorbed.
Suddenly the phone rings,
On answering the phone I faint,
I'm going to a marriage,
Where my crush is going to host.
Because I'm happy !!!!
330 · Aug 2015
Sky scraper
Arfah Afaqi Zia Aug 2015
Give me a pen,
Give me a paper,
Let me  sketch this sky scraper.
329 · Aug 2015
You
Arfah Afaqi Zia Aug 2015
You
The sound of the windchimes,
I find so divine,
It feels like you're mine,
Every morning I wake up,
I breathe the words you speak,
Feel your pulse and the blood seep,
It makes my heart skip a beat,
I feel like holding on to you forever,
And never letting go !
328 · Jan 2019
Insatiable
Arfah Afaqi Zia Jan 2019
I let go of my demons.
For a while now, i feel free and safe
I am more than who i was before
Yet there's this urge for wanting more
To explore who I am
I feel the need to find out who i am?
Why does my heart want more when i have enough?
Its not lust, it's not greed
Its something that's more darker than before-
I'm insatiable.
Its a series poem

Part- 1
328 · Oct 2015
Terrorism Today
Arfah Afaqi Zia Oct 2015
Trails of blood,
Enclosed containers,
Riots on the street,
Resonating slowly in different cities and countries,
Overt terror,
Rapidly spreading,
Igniting flames on buses and buildings,
Scarring hearts of people,
Massacres in huge numbers.

Terminating innocence and replacing them with ****** flesh,
Orating words so full of pride and hate,
Daggers and guns being used mercilessly,
Assaulting the peace treaty,
Y**et they seem to be happy.
End war and spread peace, please. A humble request !
327 · Dec 2015
Our love
Arfah Afaqi Zia Dec 2015
Our love is like sand,
With each passing day grains of sand fill up the spaces between us,
Making this love stronger than a diamond,
Sharp as a knife,
As it cuts through my skin and caresses my heart,
Our love is exotic and beautiful.
326 · Apr 2016
Painkiller
Arfah Afaqi Zia Apr 2016
Silent waves
Swirling wind
Snow flakes
Cold estranged memory

Sudden ******
Heart break
Bleeding arteries
Ferocious flow

Dark street
Poignant hurt
Sharp path
Foggy covering

Closed eyes
Streaming tears
Never ending scar
Broken dreams.
It's hard when the person you love doesn't respond. Neglecting you daily and then once you contact they do.
326 · Feb 2016
14w
Arfah Afaqi Zia Feb 2016
14w
My heart may stop one day
but my love for you will always
stay !
325 · Feb 2016
True love
Arfah Afaqi Zia Feb 2016
Enchanted smile,
Tranquil eyes,
Sensational, yet untouched
My brain takes me through recurrent shocks,
The thought of you only drives me crazy.
325 · Oct 2015
My historical love
Arfah Afaqi Zia Oct 2015
I converse with my conscience,
In somehow finding ways to captivate you,
To surrender you with my love,
A cage which bounds entry of any other, just you and me,

Your way of talking,
Your way of preaching,
Addicting and alluring me by weakening the chains around my hearts,
Star strucking me everywhere,

It now feels like amnesia,
Now that you restricted yourself from me,
Banishing all sorts of entry in my heart,
But still I have that special slot left for you and only you,

Its like i'm being dragged in the Egyptian era,
Where I i'm Cleopatra,
Or being offered a role in Shakespeare play,
Where I play Juliet and you my Romeo,

It was technically not love at first sight,
It was more of an appeal,
A disease a virus,
That infected me thats what I forsee,

Like Jane Austin's novel,
You as Mr Darcy and I as Ms Elizabeth,
Or it feels like being in the Victorian era,
Where you play Troilus and I play Cressada,

My historical insight,
Enrages my thoughts,
Comparing our lives in accord to them,
Our love so beautiful that will always remain.
325 · Oct 2015
Summon for God
Arfah Afaqi Zia Oct 2015
Summon for God,
Wipe away all ***** thoughts,

Ask for help,
Ask only from God,

Summon for God,
Wipe away all ***** thoughts,

When you're hurt and negligent,
Think about God,

Summon for God,
Wipe away all ***** thoughts,

Vandalize your pride,
Praise Him, Almighty God,

Summon for God,
Wipe away all ***** thoughts,

Vague memories,
But peace from God, indeed.

Summon for God,
Wipe away all ***** thoughts,

Let the heart loosen its tangles,
Making your life easier than muddled,

Summon for God,
Wipe away all ***** thoughts,

Let not Satan capture you,
Flee away before it's too late,

Summon for God,
Wipe away all ***** thoughts.
324 · Aug 2015
Him
Arfah Afaqi Zia Aug 2015
Him
All hail His majesty,
For He will not only diminish misery,
But also help His people in tragedy.

Believe Him, I say,
And don't let my word go astray,
I am one of His disciples till He takes my body away.

All hail His majesty,
For He will not only diminish misery,
But also help His people in tragedy.
God is the best. I seek peace in his path.
323 · Oct 2017
Power of writing
Arfah Afaqi Zia Oct 2017
When in pain I write
words of grief that remain untold
the epitome of my heart
as the hurt penetrates through my soul pinching me
I cry with inexpressible words flooding my mind
my eyes wet and my hands trembling
my isolation is what kills me from the inside
people surround me yet i am alone
once so strong, i would hide my agony
now it started to show
started from pain and ended up as depression
with very less people to understand me
i take down to the path that calms me
i fight my depression and write, yet i falter!
Arfah Afaqi Zia Feb 2016
How attainable have my dreams been;
I thought with such fervor,
Procuring your love has always been my hope,

Now that I have you,
I feel like my life goals are complete,
Just your company that has me heaped and showered,

My infatuation that i thought i had,
But it's more than just an obsession,
I'll devour to encase our love exquisitely,

I love a lot, indeed
But believe me when i say i love you,
I know you're the one,

The others who may have come,
Swept past my conscience leaving me appalled,
At that time, I may be blind but i knew they were not the holdbacks or keepers I intend to stay with.
322 · Feb 2016
Finally found you !
Arfah Afaqi Zia Feb 2016
My heart once frail,
And used,
Tied in chains of hopelessness and ambiguity,
Found what it was looking for,
It was you all this time,
The one I never tried to connect it with,
Deep cuts covering on this slender
and deranged soul,
My eyes beady with tears once,
Shedding,
Now cease at the corners as I try to let them flow,
I guess its just you,
But now I'm sure.
322 · Aug 2015
Dark side
Arfah Afaqi Zia Aug 2015
The long winter nights,
Crying and repenting on my sins.
Everyone has a dark side,
But mine is so dark that I feel hopeless.
As I sit back on my chair,
Scratching the bottom of my seat.
Ouch !
I accidentally slit my finger.
I feel the blood trail along the contours of my hand,
But as motionless as I sit I don't care.
My thoughts seem to fly in the midst of this day,
But then again I guess it's just me.
Arfah Afaqi Zia Mar 2016
Slowly she fell down on her knees viewing such charm,
The adorn in his rosy red cheeks,
As the sun blazes on his face,
His angelic face,
And a perfect twitch on the corners of his lips,

Those lively gleaming eyes,
The small crackle of cry that escapes his baby pink lips,
The softness of his skin,
The beauty in his features,
And the addicting smell of his flesh,

She breaks into a stream of tears,
She was blessed with such grace,
The journey of her motherhood begins,
She envelopes him gently,
Stroking the bumps on his glowing cheeks,

She never was before gifted with such a heavenly creature,
Those 9 months of holding him in her womb,
The pain she felt,
Such pleasure and worth in this experience,
She sits back after kneeling and thanks God.
You're doing an amazing job <3
320 · Nov 2015
Astronomical love
Arfah Afaqi Zia Nov 2015
Your love so strong,
Regardless of others accusations,
Its not at all flawed,
It rotates around my universe,
Like a solar system,
The stars on the exterior shine bright,
The black holes form, taking in all the hurt and pain,
Our love is like a big bang,
Exploding into bits,
And growing with each passing day,
Finally evolving into a strong universe,
Bound by all the astronomical objects.
My views slowly fading,
Weaker as they are,
They are brown dwarfs,
Now because of that trust they are
either white or blue dwarf,
The meteors in my heart collide,
Falling like ashen bodies on the earth,
Accelerating with every distance covered,
The fire-y meteors and your love
a beautiful example,
My love is spirited and at height of flames,
To procure you,
By giving you a chance,
As you trapped me in this spell, enchant.
Was studying lol :p
319 · Aug 2015
Have I ever ?
Arfah Afaqi Zia Aug 2015
They said,
     ' All you've ever done is destruction.'
                             I frown
                    at this statement.
   'All I've ever done in my life is  nothing.
                    I sleep, eat and then
                         again I sleep.'
                             They said,
             'Well that's not quite true.'
                                 I sigh,
                      'Whatever dude !'
318 · May 2018
Dead soul
Arfah Afaqi Zia May 2018
No matter what I do, what i become
I will still never be enough for you
deep down i know what runs in your mind
your expectations from me and what you want me to be
you know that and you think i will never deceive
i know you raised me and showed me the world
but where you're wrong is the fact that you taught me lessons
where were you when i was a victim to bullying?
where were you when i was scarred a gazillion times?
where were you once i was a victim of abuse?
i cried and slit my body so many times
i attempted a suicide
i nearly killed myself, but you were never there
and now if you say that you know me well, then i guess you're yourself living in delusions
you know nothing about me regardless of your control over me
you lost me halfway through my childhood because you never understood me
i just wish you knew me, guess its too late now you lost me!
318 · Oct 2015
Celeste
Arfah Afaqi Zia Oct 2015
Carving deep grooves into my heart,
Embroidered with jewls as well as scars,
Lustrous you are for me,
Everything about you so lovely,
Serenading a tune,
Tempting you,
E**ternally and entirely loving you.
318 · Aug 2015
Confused
Arfah Afaqi Zia Aug 2015
Under the lamp,
I sit with a pen and a pad,
Searching for the right words to write,
To describe you,
As I think and think,
I realize I have no words that can describe you,
It is so hard to write on you,
But then again I'm lost because of you,
In this dark illuminated light that falls on my pad,
I put my head on the pad,
And doze of in a deep slumber,
Dreaming what would it be like in your arms.
317 · May 2016
Satan
Arfah Afaqi Zia May 2016
Behind every shadow,
Lives a tyrant and a more atrocious soul,
Among-st us he resides,
And with words and care he entices,

To this mortal universe,
He has been sent by God,
As a manipulator and a mind controller,
Ready to belittle our faith and direct us away,

Somewhere from inside,
We know we've sinned,
We repent and fall on our knees for eternal bliss,
And pray for forgiveness and the extermination of our sins.
May God forgive us all. Aameen !
316 · Sep 2015
Nailed it
Arfah Afaqi Zia Sep 2015
Sweat is dripping down,
Trailing down my body,
The dirt that i have, coming off,
My body is bruised all over,
Feeling numbness on my joints,
I kneel down on my feet to clean up the mess i made,
As i neatly level the sand, i leave,
I feel happy and at ease,
Now that I'm done with this,
I think I can sleep in peace,
May my crushes soul rest in peace !
315 · Oct 2015
Untitled
Arfah Afaqi Zia Oct 2015
A mixture of emotions,
Aggravation and melancholy,
Audacity no more to cease,
Tendency replete,
Serenity is a chance,
To quiten and rid of frustration,
Inferiority within,
Damaged souls,
Celeste bodies,
If procured,
Prime indeed.
315 · Apr 2016
Untitled
Arfah Afaqi Zia Apr 2016
Verse :-

The cloudy nights of December,
I write an ode on you,
But not a very good one,
Heart break,
Hungover,
I can't get over you,
The first time we met,
Boom!
Spark,
Is this how you treat me,
After all these years,
This solid, unbreakable friendship,
Guess that's what people do in the end.

Chorus :-

Revenge ?
No
Cuz that's what friends do,
Cry when one cries,
Die for the other half but not say why.

Verse :-

Deceived and hurt by your words,
Cutting deep through my skin,
Rupturing my veins,
Anger fumes that i break all connection,
Forbidding myself from anything connected to you,
You break this frienship for someone who will leave soon,
For that witch,
Vain,
no i can't feel this pain,
I'm cold and numb,
My heart may not converse and will cut you off completely,
but my brain will always regret our encounter.

Chorus :-

Revenge ?
No
Cuz that's what friends do,
Cry when one cries,
Die for the other half but not say why.
314 · Mar 2018
Call out to Him
Arfah Afaqi Zia Mar 2018
A burdened soul has nothing but tears to shed,
A grieving heart has nothing but years to bear,
Pain so poignant that it can shatter a once promising future,
Reluctant to speak to others, it's only isolation that one needs,
Somewhere in the darkness, a corner where one can lurk and only encounter their silhouette,
But to fight this pain God is all we need,
He resides amongst us and within us,
Rather than sharing sorrow with others it's Him who can heal us,
It's His love for us that we need and that can make us go through this pain,
When in despair, call out His name,
He will respond when there's no one there.
314 · Sep 2015
Beyond your imagination.
Arfah Afaqi Zia Sep 2015
Beyond this horizon,
Across the valleys,
I come to thee
In search of peace and prosperity,
Atop the moon,
And the galaxy,
There resides nothing
But lonely stars,
Moving in voyage
As scattered apart.
The milky way,
So dark,
Whirls in circles
Like scar.
313 · Apr 2016
Quote 21
Arfah Afaqi Zia Apr 2016
My future may be vague, but my my present triggers my hope that you're worth the wait !
311 · Jun 2018
Reality
Arfah Afaqi Zia Jun 2018
A gushing trail of tears drip down my face
from my sore cheeks to my nape
a pool of sorrows builds up within my poignant heart
i am what i feared to become
a self-claimed loner!
a suffice amount of people surround me
who show me their compassion and spark me their love
but i don't get why that it doesn't excite me
i once was juvenile and strong
now because of repeated deceit and abdication
i have become frail
sometimes the world seems not to accept me or my flaws
vindictive people encircle me
some apparent, some obscure
what is it that entices me?
how can i repair my wounds
and erase the paradoxical or frightful thoughts about tomorrow?
i am either stuck in my past or my future
how do people move on?
i live to see the day where i see at least one individual who is free from pain
i have yet to come across one, who hasn't shed a tear
who isn't aloof from the madness of this world
and hasn't seen the darkness within themselves erupt
i wish to see one
because i hear my mother say that no one can change how your mind thinks  
despite their help, they too are as wounded and troubled as us
i rethink this question, knowing that it is true
i deny these statements
but sadly in reality it is true.
309 · Oct 2016
Shattered
Arfah Afaqi Zia Oct 2016
Seldom has it occurred to me that if I never loved you, my life would not be a mess as of now, where I'm already living on the edge of death. Externally I am alive but from the inside; broken and torn apart. I cry and wish to die. I wish that death finds me in the most darkest place and extracts my soul out. The pain and bruises already ache so much that now I don't even think taking away my soul harshly would even matter. I'm already so frail from the inside. Numb and scarred, yet I'm delighted that I experienced this pain and I now distant myself from anyone who tells me that they love me.
I may not move on, but I'll hope that you experience all I've been through once and know how bad it hurts.
Arfah Afaqi Zia Sep 2016
When I die I know you won't miss me,
When the wind blows my soul away-
I know that even then you won't think of me,

You'll forget how I was to you,
You'll be so indulged in your life-
That you'll forget that one person who came to your life and tried to love you,

When the clock to your life stops,
When you'll be going away-
I know that even then you won't think of me,

You'll forget all my messages,
You'll forget how in love I was with you-
That you'll only demand for someone else in your afterlife,

When you breathe your last breath,
When in pain no one is around to see your struggle and hold your hand to calm you-
I know that even then you wont think of me.
You're so selfish and stubborn that I know that you won't think once about me.
308 · Aug 2015
Curse you !
Arfah Afaqi Zia Aug 2015
I lost my youth,
After a feud with you.
307 · Aug 2015
Pick up line 2
Arfah Afaqi Zia Aug 2015
I've seen a thousand stars,
But I've never seen one like ours <3
306 · Aug 2015
Angry
Arfah Afaqi Zia Aug 2015
Give it a break,
Leave what you're doing and talk !!!!
I'm mad at my  best friend... all she does is play 8  ball pool all day long !!!!
305 · Aug 2015
Destiny
Arfah Afaqi Zia Aug 2015
'Follow your dream.'
Said a man.
I said,' I have many but I don't have a chance.'
He chuckled.
'Whats written in your fate you will get. But atleast make an effort and do your best.'
I nodded.
'You're destined to do great. Just take a step ahead.'
I smiled.
With that he left.
He was right.
Everyone has a chance.
From that day  onwards I never looked back.
Prosper to achieve your goals.
305 · Dec 2017
What is it?
Arfah Afaqi Zia Dec 2017
I shovel down memory lane
trying to assemble pieces
scarce loops lumped together
untied chains and strings of God knows what
it is what perplexes my heart
a ray of light shadows on what seems like my life
all that I ever had, falling apart
could it be a test
or my hopelessness?
303 · Dec 2016
Gloomed in Hells Dungeon
Arfah Afaqi Zia Dec 2016
Startled and horrified by society,
A silhouette of a petrified soul crumples in the darkest corner of the night,
In tears and remorse,
With slit arms and blood flowing through each wound,
Droplets of tears and blood drip, forming a pool of water n' rust,
The scars on her heart deepen and stain her body,
The dark circles under her pale eyes, moist,
An urge to smoke or drink escapes her lips as a sigh,
Not caring about what's harmful and what's not,
Just a sip or a puff of smoke can shackle all her hurt,
Vandalized from within,
Completely shut and worn out-
Thanks to one mistake they take her innocence away,
An unforgetful dread, a frightful nightmare!
303 · Nov 2016
Surreptitious affair
Arfah Afaqi Zia Nov 2016
I will forever be yours,
Chained and engraved-
By the powerful knots of love,
The fiery burst and the irrevocable words,
They leave me baffled and in paradox;
For I love you, indeed,

Your electric touch,
And your warmth,
It drives me crazy-
Leading me out of my past,
My ghastly, terrorizing past, you drag me out from,
Knowing how much you mean to me.
303 · Oct 2015
Scar
Arfah Afaqi Zia Oct 2015
Delusions have evaded my soul,
My scarred body so demented and err,
Numbness and bruises all over,
Feels like needles being poked,
Cold and piercing pain,
Anguish in height of repair,
My heart so baffled,
So perplex,
No feelings just heart break.
303 · Jun 2016
12w
Arfah Afaqi Zia Jun 2016
12w
Distance may set us apart,
But my heart still calls for you.
303 · Dec 2015
History :(
Arfah Afaqi Zia Dec 2015
Memorizing dates,
Events too in sequence,
So hectic and painful,
I feel hopeless,
And feel like tearing the book in half,
Please do it for me.
Exams and history way too much pain.
302 · Aug 2015
Just for fun !
Arfah Afaqi Zia Aug 2015
The  blazing sun,
The radiance of her skin.
So enchanting,
And bewitching.

A vampire so ghastly told another vampire.
What a seldom act,
Falling for a mortal.

I've seen plenty,
But not one like him.
His pointy teeth and red eyes.
Anyways continuing his conversation.

Her body so gentle,
So soft,
And ripe.
Ima eat her alive.

Quickly erasing that thought,
He said no.
I'll marry her,
And turn her immortal.

The second vampire looked disgusted.
Then he began,
Ima call the volturi.
They'll come and fix your brain !
I'm going crazy :p
Please ignore lol
301 · Mar 2016
Abyss
Arfah Afaqi Zia Mar 2016
Irony shuts down the heart,
sequestered-
wanting to stay alone for days,
shattered hopes,
broken dreams,
what more is left to say?
301 · Sep 2018
Untitled
Arfah Afaqi Zia Sep 2018
I vehemently try to trace the lost pieces of my heart
The ones shambled and hidden behind all the exterior
One's not accepted in the eyes of our society
These pieces, that awoke my soul and once made me who i am
Now insignificantly veiled, as if they were garbage
I try to find my insignia
One that differentiates me from the rest
My ambiguities, my hopelessness might as well be the root of all this lurking
Putting an end to my peace
And the constant rage n war that i so got caught up in
This could be my way to cope through this ghastly phase
All this vandalism and all these changes must stop
For i am the maker of my persona and i am the destructor of myself
I must rise, for its my time to ignite and shine
To once again show the world my true colors
I must embrace it all
Be it deadly, be it ugly
Yet, that's who I am, me!
301 · Aug 2015
Savior
Arfah Afaqi Zia Aug 2015
On the edge of the cliff i stood,
I looked down and i took a deep breath.
That was it,
I was going to do this,
I was ready to jump of the cliff,
Suddenly someone pulled me away,
I fell back with a thud.
This unknown started screaming at me,
And scolding me as if he were my mother.
I just lay on the floor staring into his eyes.
I paid no attention to what he said,
Just gazed into his eyes.
" Do you understand young lady?"
I smiled at him,
And hugged him.
"You're my savior."
He blushed a little and then pulled away.
Leaving me where i was.
I guess my life did have a meaning,
People cared about me.
300 · Aug 2015
Her
Arfah Afaqi Zia Aug 2015
Her
The drizzling rain,
Walking with a cane,
An old man narrates his story,
How he had met a young lady.

He was a business man in his time,
Who owned a salt mine.
He was quite  successful,
But not blissful.

Then one day he came across a woman,
She was as beautiful as a swan,
Who wore a dress in fawn,
She was ravishing.

She walked with such grace,
That could allure a man in different ways,
Her voice so calm,
Could evict a man in its trance.

He met her there,
It was a fine day,
He had manned up and went to her,
He asked her out.

That night,
He drove her around in the city of lights,
Every time she laughed,
His heart would stop.

He met her gaze,
All he could see was a young and strong woman,
Alone in this world full of cruel people,
Causing pain and talking insane.

In a few days,
He saw himself walking down the aisle,
With this woman in white.
He felt so delighted and lucky.

On 29 August 1986,
He called her at a park,
Where he was going to pop the question.
He was waiting for her arrival.

Suddenly the phone rang,
He answered the call,
He had just said hello,
Only then he realised it wasnt her call.

He started to weep,
As he ran down the parking lot,
He had got another call.
She was gone !

The old man hadn't stopped loving her.
He would go to the cemetery daily,
Sitting beside her grave he would talk to her.
She was the only woman he had ever yearned for.
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