Put on a pretty face
And smile when you're told
Cause you are young
And you have no control

Make sure everyone sees
How "happy" you truly are
So underneath you can hide
All of your nasty scars

Smile, wave, show those teeth
Don't be afraid to give a little wink
"Things are so great!" she shouts with pride
But then she cries and shakes at night

This confusion is taking its toll,
the things that make me happy,
are gone and I'm losing control.

I hope you know,
that it's just you,
who has my heart,
and I cant afford to,
lose you too.

I glance at the bottle,
my hand, her heart,
back to the hand,
where rests the same--
white pills that keep me going.

I stare at the white,
the colour of innocence,
purity, and now grief,
and instant pleasure.

To lose you would be,
the last thing that happens to me,
I can't take another loss,
I can't cope with all this debris.

You can't fix me, you can try,
to help and give reassurance,
so many others have,
but things always go awry.

I will stop, I swear I will,
this is the one habit,
I have to ****.

I'm sorry I am this way,
maybe you should just forget about me,
leave, and don't stay
so you can save yourself from,
the cloud of pain that surrounds
my broken heart.

Impenetrable mist,
A fog so thick,
I lost myself in you,

I grew and grew,
Sprouted my roots,
And sauntered into the gloom,

I see your shape slowly fade,
Gradual, painful, oh how-
The mist overcame you,

Swallowed you up,
Cozy and tight,
It the dark midst of the night,

I searched and searched,
To see you again,
Under the street-light,

Where we first met,
First loved,
And first saw the night,

For what it was,
What it is,
And what it’s meant to be,

This fog will never clear,
You fade away,
And I slowly decay,

Into the mist,
Into the dark and cold,
Wishing and waiting,

For the time I see you again.

silence spreads across this empty space
all things still, all things in their place
shallow breaths, exaggerated sighs
with your hand intertwined in mine

I want you here, I want you close
because you’re the one I want the most
stay darlin’ please say you will
lets just lay around and be still

keep me happy, keep me sane
keep me saying “come back here again”
I know you know, that I know too
now I no longer am feeling so blue

Bleached walls, and incandescent lights
The mind illustrates it’s own world
With dreams, desires and abstractions
What it wants, but can never have

Droned out vocalization, and exaggerated sighs
The mind fills in the gaps
With chatter, remarks and laughs
What it wants, but can never have

Concrete floors, and tiled ceilings
The mind creates it’s own scenery
With grasses, mosses and trees
What it wants, but can never have

Constant progression, and flooded walkways
The mind orchestrates it’s own utopia
With sunshine, breeze and cloudless skies
What it wants, but can never have

love is an earthquake
let me cry, let me shake

let me just sit and wait
for that day to break

leave me here darlin’
and don’t ask where I’ve been

because I won’t tell you
it’s not business you can attend to

keep away, please leave
I just need time to grieve