Have you ever known self-starvation?
That pang in your side,
the empty feeling in your stomach.
Have you ever felt that?

Then don't tell me I'm wrong.
It's addicting, believe it or not,
so don't you dare tell me to stop.

It's not that easy for me to just bite, chew, swallow,
because later I will be the one in pain,
and wallowing in my own sorrow.

I look in the mirror,
at my distorted reflection,
and say "I'm not there yet".
And I keep trying, I have been,

for five years.

So don't tell me,
to just quit it
because honey
I can't.
I'm a slave to my own ambitions.

what does it feel like,
to be worthless--
poor and *****,
cold and hungry?

or can you be well fed
loved, and filled with hope,
but still be worthless?

can you live your normal life
with a smile on your face
dancing around, singing--
laughing and hugging.

but then you can't eat
you shake at night,
over sleep, or under sleep
and do things to get rid of the pain.

is that what it feels like to be worthless?
to not have anyone by your sides
in order to keep you standing.

or to not feel anything,
when someone says
"I love you"

and when you see the people who
once loved you, walking happy
and content-- all you can do
is smile and wave--

even though you're all --
broken up inside,
no matter what you scream,
they will never hear you.

is that it?
can someone please tell me
the meaning
of this word


worthless.

A fruitful summer night reveals the thoughts of the mother
Fire a light, illuminating in the dusk, awaiting the smother
A sweeping, swaying, twirling breath rips through the gloom
Tearing apart the luscious flowerets which in the sun bloom

A wash of rainbow colours materialize from the faded sky blue
Somewhere in the world, you’re there too
Gazing up at the atmosphere gawking at the chromatic sight
Wishing a certain wish, for someone in your life    
            

Lonely, as lonely could be
Uncertain about the future, whether to fight or flee
The jaded green, scuffed and mangled, envelops our terrain
Ultimately, someday we will arrive back here again


The embraces and kisses will never occur too soon
Resulting in a budding romance that will eventually bloom
The time that was lost, will be regained
And all scars that were created, will no longer remain

do not worry about me
I will find my own way
alone and sorry

my tears are falling one by one
I wont stop until the day is done
until the sky extinguishes the sun
I will wait for happiness to come

The fuzzy sound of night,
Emits from my window pane

The creature of the dark,
Who was thought to be slain

Has come to creep again

Here he comes, here he lurks

Between our houses,
Between our nooks

Through our minds,
And through our souls

He changes whats inside you,
And turns you dead and cold

Don’t let his darkness grab a hold
Because once he has you

He will never let go

Those thoughts will **** you,
Don’t ya know

So hold on to someone
And never let go

He creeps, he crawls
Four legs, sprawled

He’s slow, he’s quick
He’ll get you in a jiff

Don’t turn your back
Then we’ll hear the crack

And know that you have given in
To the creature within