We stood in the shower
As I gave you a vow
And as you let me take all the water
You repeated

*I promise
To be faithful and loving
Untill it's empty

my street has been
dark for a while, but
now that there are
lights on every porch,
this neighborhood feels
a lot less empty
and i've been thinking that
maybe it'd be okay now
for you to come
home

Cast from Icarus peaks
You tumble from your pedestal
A fading fallen phoenix

The flowers are all crying as they drift dying
Past the cold oleanders gaudy blooms
You sleep deep in the fallen petals
Of love wrapped in barbs of good intentions

Golden chains clasped round your aching body
Binding you to the sanity of your grey entrapment  
While colors dance in dizzy spells across the gilded links
Reflected in the eyes of  blind prophets
And the gossamer bars of  existence

You dance in my darkness
Your moth wings burnt and charred
You fade my fallen angel
And all is grey

there are seas beneath this skin
tempest roar, crashing waves
soul drowning in empty lungs
stills; only trying to find a way home

some days my heart treads water
and watches the sky rise and fall
some days my heart simply sinks
drowning to the ocean floor

shot core and bullet wound
misery plays your ribcage
like a xylophone duet for two;
past ghosts skim down the spine
raising fears and forgotten time
darling, there was never any me and you

and the thoughts they overwhelm
the image; reflection -  
i have hated, i have loved
the person i have become
standing still at the breaking point
a quiet symphony of self, within solitude

if tears are the language
in which we speak
now forever more cry
or forever hold your peace

see, no matter what i say
i am as fragile, i am as broken
as the day you first tried
to rescue me from
myself, myself, myself

(A.H.Z)

In the darkness
I can be anyone
Close your eyes
Dream with me

Let's pretend
For one beautiful moment
We are what we need
Each other to see

Now she's not gone
I feel her beside me
The warmth of her body
This ghost in the night

And for one fleeting blink
These eyes may be blind
But this heart is not broken
Until morning's light

Shall we hide, behind this door?
Or what about this wall?
Stronger and taller than the door
It does not open, there is no handle
Only we know what happens behind the wall
Too vulnerable to emerge, so we won’t
Keep hidden, it is safer, easier
Than to expose ourselves, to feel

I despise this wall, trapped behind
I long for a door, to welcome you in
To open up, have you stay a while
Not fear rejection of who we are
But bask in a glow of acceptance

Stay still, for a cold chill blows this way
We laugh for we are safe
Behind this wall
Indifferent and cool to emotional pangs
They leave us be
Nothing to see

Have they gone? Are we alone?
Retreated behind this wall again
A habit that needs to break
We begin small, as a crack penetrates the wall
Until finally a space shaped door

you’ll find me
on the streets
offering love to strangers
reaching out with my arms
with sweet words
bubbling out of my lips
but when you hug me
in relief
at having found me
I will recoil
scream
look at you
with wild eyes
and fear
wondering
who you are
my love
because
like a beast
I am afraid of fire
and I will try to hide it
behind my own flame
which offers no warmth
to anyone
and
you will wonder
where I have gone
and eventually you will
realize that I haven’t
gone anywhere
and you will
leave me there
to fend off the cold
in my own ways
and take your love
to someone not so
much a cowering
beast