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Feb 2014 · 584
Shell of Me
cozy april Feb 2014
I tried to forget
but you grew roots
Around my ribcage
and sprouted flowers
just below my collarbones.
All day I pick at their petals
but I have not yet ascertained
If you love me.
or not.

a.s.
Feb 2014 · 821
Solitude makes me Happy.
cozy april Feb 2014
Solitude makes me happy
Because solitude means there's no one there
to judge me, to hate me, to question me

Solitude means that despite being alone
I'm not lonely
Because I have myself
and I'm the only one
that can truly care about myself

but then again
I don't even care

So, solitude can be dangerous
Because when I give up
Caring about myself

Self destruction
Can be, oh so, tempting
Because when I no longer care

I just
give
up.

a.s.
Feb 2014 · 470
This is hard
cozy april Feb 2014
Trust me,
This is hard for me,
too.

a.s.
Feb 2014 · 675
Unkissed
cozy april Feb 2014
I dreamed of you

kissing me.

I woke up,

Unkissed and

                                 Empty.

a.s.
cozy april Feb 2014
I am not depressed.
I can still smile at pretty things
And laugh when jokes are funny
I can still talk to people.
And enjoy nice days.

But when I go inside,
When I'm alone,
There's something broken.
And I fall into sadness so sweet
That it engulfs me.
And the tears always fall
When I'm falling asleep.
And I miss something
That doesn't exist.

I am not depressed.
I've just been sad for a while.
But I can still find the peace.
And smile.*

a.s.
Feb 2014 · 770
Bitten Cheeks
cozy april Feb 2014
To be completely honest,
I'm not even surprised anymore.
Because I see it too often.  
I hear it so much.
I feel it all the time.
And when you show me
Your glitches
And cracks
And loose strings.
My breath no longer skips with
Lack of expectation.
But only becomes
Heavier.
It's become so common that
We no longer wonder
Who else's cheeks have been bitten so
That blood pours over our teeth.
And I wonder who's bitten deepest,
Along with the uneasy expectations
We hold with the future.

a.s.
I've been biting my inside cheeks a lot a guess.
Jan 2014 · 497
Remedies
cozy april Jan 2014
Mine,
he whispered.
Yours*,
I breathe.

a.s.
Jan 2014 · 430
open books
cozy april Jan 2014
I gave you a book
filled with lies
and called it an
autobiography.

The binding fell
apart when I
opened my mouth
and forgot

what had
been written.

a.s.
Jan 2014 · 693
2 am poets
cozy april Jan 2014
2 am is for the poets who
can't sleep because their
minds are alive with words
for someone who's not there.

for the alcoholics drinking
themselves into amnesia to
forget someone who left them.

2 am is not for the lovers
asleep in each others arms.

It is for the lonely, the ones
who are in love with the loved
but are not loved in return.

2:36 am
a.s.
Can't sleep.
Jan 2014 · 707
Lit Addicts
cozy april Jan 2014
Books are a great escape,
From the world's clutches,
and heartbreak.
And I walk,
Thinking of the words
within a novel I just read,
How they move me,
and remind me of the vary
places I had been in a short time ago.
The thoughts
distract me from
having to spend time with a broken family.
Still walking,
I look down at my shoes,
baffled by how worn out they are,
even though they were bought only 3 weeks before.
Maybe my shoes are like my heart,
They're so decrepit,
so tired of feeling the constant weight of
laughing in the morning,
and the weeping at night,
Their worn from a continuous nightmare
of pressure.
But that,
Is something
The books don't tell you.

a.s.
Feeling this today.
Jan 2014 · 512
Happiness.
cozy april Jan 2014
If you
Don't do what you love
Life will be
Troublesome.

a.s.
Jan 2014 · 450
Hmm.
cozy april Jan 2014
All
This
*******
Made
Me
Strong.
And boy,
I
Would
Never
Change
What
I've
Done.

a.s.
Dec 2013 · 712
Books in the Night Time
cozy april Dec 2013
From left to right
My eyes get tired
With witty sayings
And verb phrases
Nothing changes
My eyes are still tired

a.s.
Dec 2013 · 339
Whenever
cozy april Dec 2013
I think of you
When darkness swirls around me
Like a turbulent storm
When every breath seems to tax my soul
When dispair is my constant shadow
I think of you
I hear your voice
Feel your skin upon my own
I smell your scent
Your pain is my own
Your fear is my best friend
And even though all hope
Seems to have seeped from the world
I still think
Of you.
-a.s.
Nov 2013 · 489
Hey you
cozy april Nov 2013
Hey you,
I love you.
And your
Fascination
In Pink floyd.*

a.s.
Nov 2013 · 714
Simplicity is Fading
cozy april Nov 2013
It's dark
So dark
Mad and angry
A solitary cruel
Civilization where nobody
Cares nobody pays
Intrest for the lives
Of the hopeless
Or the needed.
The simple
Drive for the complex
Ideas of perfection
In which we crave
Is so prominent
Like an eched image
In our simply geared minds
Those gears only turn
One way
Not bothering to look
Back at the others
Who are perfect
For living
Without that
Selfishness

a.s.
Nov 2013 · 730
Helen Keller
cozy april Nov 2013
Possibly
If we were all
Deaf
Mute
And blind
We would spend less time
Judging others
For what they've done.

a.s.
Nov 2013 · 400
If I had one wish:
cozy april Nov 2013
I wish more
People cared
about earth
As much as
they cared about
Who they believe
created it.*

a.s.
Nov 2013 · 398
This Strange Idea.
cozy april Nov 2013
I never understood
The idea of love
How you could be so invested in each other
So persistent to one another

Then I met you.

a.s.
Nov 2013 · 1.6k
Suicide shouldn't take us.
cozy april Nov 2013
I hope
That when we're older
Wiser, Bolder
We can understand
The things that use to break us
And realize
Suicide shouldn't take us.

a.s.
Nov 2013 · 413
Messages
cozy april Nov 2013
Meaningless little messages
Sent with giggles
And clicks
Two different lives
Shared with music and pics
Two young souls
Trying to make it
In two different towns
Not wanting to break it
Two sad teenagers
Thousands of miles between
Found a way to keep connection
In a world so extreme

a.s.
7:07p.m.
For my friend Lila in Cancun.~
Nov 2013 · 369
Golden Little Hearts
cozy april Nov 2013
We all have golden hearts
Locked within us like treasure
In a chest.
Yet we hide these chests
Deep in our bodies, minds, souls
And we search for these treasures
By making x-marks on our skin
Pouring blood out
In search for our small
Golden hearts.

a.s.
Oct 2013 · 368
Maybe
cozy april Oct 2013
Maybe
We're all broken
Because we're living
A solitary life of
Who we want to be
Not who we're destined to be

a.s
Oct 2013 · 581
My mind is consumed in you.
cozy april Oct 2013
I haven't been able
To think clearly
Fir the past days
I've come to the understanding
That you've indulged yourself
In my membranes
Covering yourself in my mind
Like a dark blanket
I am possessed by your beauty
Baffled by your ignorance
And completely
Fantasized by your willingness
To love me

a.s.
For Adam.~
cozy april Oct 2013
Dear me,
Hi.
Stop getting angry at things that aren't worth
the energy of staying angry.
Take a shower.
Take five showers.
Hell, take ten showers if you want to.
Stay in bed all day and do nothing!
Watch ****** romantic movies and cry your heart out.
Don't hold yourself in because you think you're "too strong".
Stay outside all day, and make shapes in clouds.
Wake up in the morning with determination
to fall in love with your city all over again.
Find cafes and independent book stores you've never been to before.
Pretend you're a tourist and take photographs.
Stay out all night.
Breathe.
Take better care of yourself April.
You deserve it.

a.s.
Found this note I wrote to myself when i was depressed this summer. Wrote it in poem form.
Oct 2013 · 578
To Fix my Soul..
cozy april Oct 2013
I'm trying so hard,
To fix my soul,
End my tears,
Both young and old,
Times get hard,
Nights get long,
And i have to restart,
Looking for my soul,
At only 16 years old.

a.s.
Oct 2013 · 484
Art of Sadness
cozy april Oct 2013
Nobody is born
With demons already living
It takes time
For them to fester
Inside your mind
Until they get into
Your imagination
Where they master
The art of sadness
To perfection

-a.s.
cozy april Aug 2013
I only see the dim of
Black and white,
In my old home,
We never saw anything worth seeing
Just hate,
Destruction,
And lonliness.
Never had i seen one color,
I never knew the
Wonderful site,
Of even our ethnic rainbows,
How different we all are,
And I'm not alone,
Now In my new home,
I'm in a place with purple walls,
And rainbow curtains.
No fear,
Or loathing,
Just my happiness in beautiful
Colors I had never seen in my gloomy past.

a.s.
Jul 2013 · 1.0k
Sailing to Self Avenue
cozy april Jul 2013
I find peace in storms,
The waves tell me otherwise,
Violent coils grazing me with the
last bit of sanity that's left,
But maybe I can survive without getting seasick,
While the sun comes out,
A clamorous sound wakes me from the dream,
Of hitting my place,
You can't touch me here,
You can't phase me here,
So I am not afraid of storms,
For, I am learning to sail my ship.

a.s.

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