when they come to me in a dream (offering promises of carnal delight) “you and me we should probably just let it be” I agree but it shouldn’t feel this good this fine this free just to be with you even in a figment of my imagination and then I said “I have to go“ feeling the absence slowly seep as I ascend a rocky stair without turning back certain you are still there
(Nick) With him I found my body and my heart (Jamie) He provoked confidence that led to a series of firsts and adventures (Brad) Hit and run but I had no visible injuries (Craig) Electricity without the bill, if you know what I mean.....? (Brad) Again.....a worthy distraction (Ted) I learned patience (and idolatry) (B) So inexplicably sad....a tragedy (Brad) The one that always and never could be
(a fresh faced ingenue....) Feeling so cosmopolitan we were framed in the oversized windows facing the busy street like one of those old black and white photos capturing the romance in the moment Probably a dish with “Au gratin” or “Alfredo “ in the name.... Assured by her breathlessness anticipating something (but what?) His smoky Greco stare almost pleading definitely hungry eventually her loss Her gain their Wild At Heart refrain
have you ever met an expert at making others feel like **** ? I've come across a few . just when you think you see a glimmer of humanity you regain perspective as they open their mouths .
The rumble of a lawn tractor next door... reminds me of..... the guttural snare in the back of your throat as you lean in to nuzzle my neck with your nose I feel your hands on my hips anticipating
Your presence a void "He's not here...." Laughter echoes with a hollow tang Missing has become the way I crave Your presence....voice.....aroma Reminded now of then Pretend you know I pity you for not knowing the truth Lying back I feel you around me and in me Knowing....me Knowing you
I grasp the blush of spring green that drowns the waning gilded tresses bleeding into the blonde stabs a glow of radiance........ A sudden spasm brings joy then, pain You And I no I
Dare to stand on the edge when your Integrity has been called into question Slanderous accusations bellowed Malicious Intent falls short of its goal Soar above the fray and Stay true, stay strong and in the End honor and truth will prevail D**are to care, even for the careless deviants
I'm going to be brutally honest I'm scarred from all your lies and your backstabbing took me by surprise I probably could have recovered if you had stopped the relentless attack Let me get up, limp away Lick my wounds and shield my back What doesn't **** ya makes you stronger I'm telling you , there’s no strength that I lack But the biggest surprise of all- Your lack of regret and omissions of apologies It only speaks to your inhumanity
A lack of character and social regard speaks to a sad state of antisocial nature
It is a profound coward driving by in the dark of night shouting threats and profanity too psychotic and loathing of self to show her face I've no tolerance for the weak minded- the pathetically insecure monsters of this world who thrive and are nourished with their evil emissions Consider yourself disregarded
I have transcended to my state of grace Perhaps, someday you will be forgiven... perhaps not....
surf collides with jagged rock the color of earth I imagine the pull rolling under and how quiet the numb would be if only but one moment a slip of the tongue
started out just like any other ended wrapping my arms around my mother she tiptoed to the foot of the bed and she knew before she knew that you were dead still remembering the shrill ring of the phone and the forever drive all alone the dispatcher withholding, vague, concise the road (and my heart) left frozen in ice didn't know what to expect but knew enough to suspect this couldn't end well one more visit to my hell
Your childhood teddy bear spoke to me that morning- the music box long silenced tinkled its tune unexpectedly....1/19/14
1978: Tonite made a tie blanket with my daughter AND watched "Grease" Even though they started out looking old and sounding squeaky she was singing along by the end We go together like sha-ma-la-ma-la-ma...... 1985: **** vampire Camp (hint fright night) Perfect reminder that I once was
i hold hands hold a job hold my tongue hold steady hold my babies hold my head high hold my rocks glass hold on hold out hold your heart hold the phone hold it down hold it up hold the ghost hold my breath hold the line hold over hold under hold my horses hold everything
I dreamt about you my senses enslaved by your scent still a combo of coppertone and spearmint touch commanding taste salty surprise sound the purr that rumbles from the back of your throat and yes, even sight *eyes still a-twinkle
My thirst is quenched, for the moment your heartbreak -a balm- on the wounds wrought by you, the burns of your malice swollen, all these years, softening with the knowing of your heartbreak