gone

"Kam is gone. Shot himself today. **** "

never know

"He just gave up, mixture of pain pills and *****."

I'm sorry

To be so close and so distant

removed

started out just like any other  
ended wrapping my arms around my mother
she tiptoed to the foot of the bed
and she knew before she knew that you were dead
still remembering the shrill ring of the phone
and the forever drive all alone
the dispatcher withholding, vague, concise
the road (and my heart) left frozen in ice
didn't know what to expect
but knew enough to suspect
this couldn't end well
one more visit to my hell